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Que sera, sera

Whatever will be, will be

The future's not ours to see

Que sera, sera

What will be, will be

When I was much younger, I used to listen to this song and never could relate to it despite its simplicity. Or perhaps I could not be bothered to think much of it. You know, when you are younger you are constantly on the go and never pause for awhile to do much reflections. When you grow older, you cherish alone time more for self reflections and such.

Have it ever cross your mind that the path that lead you to where you are now has always been specifically curated for you? Only you are able to walk that path and experience all the beauty and bitterness along the way? Only you are able to cope with the rainy season. The storm that come with it.

 

We are all walking towards the same destination (for most of us at least) but our paths are different. I am eternally grateful for the path I have walked and for the people I have met along the way. Be it in a small or a big way, all of these shape me to who I am today. I am equally as grateful, for Allah has constantly guide me and not let me astray. I cannot imagine my life any other way.  I do not consider myself to be the best Muslim but I am striving to be better each day. 

For as long as God's will, there is quite a distance for me to keep on walking ahead. I am walking forward not knowing what the future will lead me to but I am certain my Creator knows what is best for me. Just like how He create the Universe to operate in a precise, timely manner. He will do the same for us all. Have faith and strive to be better than yesterday ❤

ساعة

A decade since my last entry. Of course, change is inevitable. We all change, hopefully for the better. Our perspective of life evolve through time. So is mine. What used to spark joy in our lives have also evolve.

I spent a few days reading through my past entries. I was amazed at how I was very eager to share with the cyberworld about what I have been up to and feeling. Like many of us, I was giggling at my silliness, cringing at those teenage dramas that had happened and regretting how I used to spend my time. I am not proud of some of the things that I have done or not done. That was the past afterall. We are all still in a learning journey, discovering our strengths and weaknesses. What we can do in the present is to strive to be the better version of ourselves and pursue to create an even better future self. 

I have decided to keep this blog so that I can look back at how much I have grown over the decades and how I view life at different phases of my life. I am glad that technology exists at such an early years of my life for me to be able to keep archive my journey in this temporary world. I am hoping to be back here soon to share and express my random thoughts. Not that I think that anyone would read it but this time I am doing it for me. Till then, be the positive change that you want to be. ❤

I feel like blogging. Just because. 

Anyway, it has been more than a year. Obviously many things happened. 2012 has been nothing but a smooth sailing year despite the hitches along the way. That is normal in life.

This year it really got me thinking what I want to do with my life. Finally I am a graduate! After 4 years of torture, I finally am able to earn my degree. But then, I asked myself..what's next? Where do I go from here? I am practically lost. After much self-reflection, I came to a realization. As nerdy as this may sound, I enjoy studying/learning. I love the frustration, the sense of achievement and the Eureka moment that comes with it. Oh well, now I cant possibly enroll myself in another degree or invest in Masters. This year I am making a huge commitment i.e. marriage. 

Yeah, at 26 years old many of my friends are either married, pregnant or already have a family of four. I am about to enter into the next phase of life with different challenges and responsibilities. There are alot of uncertainties and questions playing in my head but all I can do is to leave it to fate. Of course, I will try to my utmost ability to be what I am supposed to be. My major concern is when I have my own children to care for. Will I be a good mother to them? Will I be a good nurturer, caregiver and disciplinarian to my children? Questions that have no answers at this point of time. When I reach that stage, I will tell you about it.

It is officially 23 days to the day. Earlier this month, I wasn't feeling it. But now knowing that time is ticking by, I am starting to get a little nervous. I pray for things go on smoothly. Till then, I shall get myself busy at work and with tying loose ends for the wedding.

     

Be careful of what you wish for..

Since that very fine day in late March 2011, it has widen my horizon indeed.
Nothing beats the experience I have gained these 4 months. Can you believe it?
It is just 4 months passed but so many things have been going on in my life. Truly receive what I wish for.

By the look of it, I might just end up swallowing my own words and return to where I begin.
I am not exactly choosy about things, I guess my mistake is to jump into the ship in a rush.
I make rash decision without thinking of its future consequences. Like how someone describe my current situation; 'It's like jumping from the frying pan into the fire'. Yes, I got burnt! It sucks, isn't it? Well, that's what I wanted.

But..then I realized it is not exactly about the right environment or the right person, it is striking the balance between both and I was lucky the first time. I guess it was the beginner's luck. Unfortunately, I am not that lucky the second and the third time.

Currently, I am toying with the possibility of returning. It is not easy to swallow your own pride. But if it is for the sake of happiness, why not right? Truly clueless of what to do now. I shall seek guidance from Him. Only He knows best.

Date: 22 October 2010

Time: 7:16pm

Venue: Hanis Cafe in front of National Library @ Bugis

This blog has been collecting dusts, huh? Well, I am at the above venue while typing out this entry. Why am I where I am? Hmm...My intention was to study in the library since there are lots of reference materials for me to look into. But no, the library has to close at a weird timing for some staffs’ function. So inconvenient.

In the attempt not to waste time staring into thin air or observe people walk by, I decided to plop myself here doing equally unfruitful activity.

I should have gotten myself mobile broadband for easy use. Failure to do so resulted in me typing away using Microsoft Office Words 2007 instead.

But I digress. My purpose is not to describe in details where I am and why I ended up blogging but more so to give an update to my avid readers out there about snippets of my life, perceptions and so on and so forth. Alah bukannya I have followers in my blog also. Only that I saje2 feeling important.

I have been at the same place doing almost the same thing facing the same group of people ever since the last I updated this dearest blog of mine. Yes, I am loyal like that to HOH. *roll eyes*

Anyway, I am still surveying market for future employment as well as thinking when to apply for it. I should not talk only without any actions. For a start, I have decided to revamp my resume and create a new cover letter which will add an extra oomph when read.

I need to be mentally prepared for bigger responsibilities, less slacking and a more appropriate dress code to work. I am currently going work with T-shirt, pants and crocs. Eh what you all expect.. I am working just above Sheng Shiong supermarket okay. Not some CBD areas. Should my future employment be at CBD area I am so gonna be broke before I even start working since I need to invest in proper office wears. Haiz.

Let’s move on to a better topic, shall we? How about talking about marriage? Haha! Aku dah jadi minah kawin-kawin these few days I tell you. Not talking to BF obviously. Nanti takut pulak mamat tu. Well, I have been getting views from my fellow friends about marriage and to be precise the wedding. One of my friends actually suggested on choosing a date first so that I can slowly and carefully plan towards it. Okay I have even gotten options for the dates from Nad yesterday while attempting to webcam with her. Her webcam mintak kena throw lor that one. It only showed a grey screen throughout our conversation. Potential dates for ceremony are within the December period. The solemnization as spoken with BF just now might be months earlier.

Both of us have varied concerns. His concern is the HDB flat while mine is pretty shallow I must say i.e. the wedding details.

Ermm..Enough of the sneak preview of my wedding preparation. Will continue with it once more things are planned.

I am looking forward for December to arrive due to the two great trips I will be having! At the same time, I am worried about the financial planning aspect of it. I need to save for my marriage and now to save up for my Vietnam and KL trips. I foresee myself spending a considerable sum during both trips. I better prepare my Excel sheet now.

I would like to think that I have posted up a decent entry of what’s up and latest. For further updates you may wish to follow me on twitter instead. Place where I prefer to be recently. (",)

Currently, I prefer twitter over blog-spot.
Thus, it explains my inactive account.
For any latest updates, you can read my tweets.

Lots of love,
Halimah Omar

Damn! Muttons never fail to crack me up. They are so funny! :) Alright, I have not been updating since like..four or five months ago? Within that period, ALOT of things have happened. Ok fine! I am lying. Nothing much was happening afterall. Apart from the crazy mugging in May. The weird thing is I kinda prefer mugging for exams rather than going to office. Opps! Taking from where I left in February, I did an internal switch from doing PI claim to Matrimonial and Probate. It is definitely a more challenging avenue as well as a great way to give my resume an extra oomph! Let's not talk about work right. It is only half the year that has gone by but I cant wait for December already! HAHA! I know, I know..But I cant help it. December is such a great month full of festivities and of course Vietnam and hopefully..BATAM! :D Oh! I have been reading the Shopaholics series and the irony of it..I feel a much stronger urge to SHOP! I have been this itch to splurge on a good timepiece and something caught my eyes when I was at Hougang Mall window shopping after my final paper on 27th May. Almost one month has passed by and I still cant get it off my head! Ok here it is.. Isnt it GORGEOUS?? Should I get it?? Should I?? Just now, I finally decided that I should invest on contact lenses. My vision is getting worse and a visit to the optician just now was depressing! Aiyah, I want to cry lah! Such a huge jump you know. In anyway made myself a new pair of specs and going to start taking better care of my eyesight. No more straining my eyes!! Maybe I should start eating plenty of Vitamin A! Since I purchased those supplements for the eyes might as well start consuming it. Hmm.. Going to start tonight! I can do it!! I think I have gain more weight!! I want to take up swimming to past the time. I am so dead bored now without school! Ever since exams ended, I have been catching up with my poly friends as well as the usual group of friends. It felt quite good and very interesting. Especially when you received news like a friend was 4-5 months pregnant! Congratulations! You know I cant imagine myself being pregnant at 25! I know it is the right age to be pregnant and having children BUT I cant imagine myself doing that. Changing diapers, breastfeeding, waking up in wee hours of the morning etc etc. Not prepared for that yet! Maybe we should not over think about all these and just go with the flow. Perhaps that might help I guess. Hehe. NAD! If you are reading this..I MISS YOU LAH!! :( I want to fly to Australia BUT my bank account does not permit. Insyallah next year alright! Which month will be a good time? Hehe. I know my entry is in a mess but I want to share with you guys this awesome song sang by a talented man I found in Youtube! Loving Bruno! I shall end with this beautiful song as a lullaby! Goodnight lovely people! Peace! :D Oh I particularly love this..Somebody actually mixed Bruno's version with Natasha Bedingfield's version. I was in awe!!! *swoon*

My Life: Change

I am 24 years old now. Any difference? The biological clock is ticking.
Apart from being closer to the BIG 3, my lifestyle is revamped.
In term of work life, I switched to doing Matrimonial and Probate instead. A refreshing start for 2010. Thus far, embracing the changes that come with it.

Study; I am preparing for the Exam which is in May. Quite crucial since the classification will be based on the Year 2 and Year 3 grades.

Ps: I was supposed to revise instead of blogging right now. My procrastination is getting the better of me. Haiz!

It's already approaching the end of February 2010. Time seems to be dashing across and at times I lost sight of it.

I hope more great things will be along the way for me as well as for the rest of you.

Honestly, I don't even know who else will be loyal enough to visit my site. Haha. In any event, I will continue to write for myself and I will not remove blogging from my to-do lists ever (or at least till I grow old and senile).

To those who celebrated on the 14th February, HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! May you all have abundance of love and prosperous year ahead. Muacks! :D