Again, my entry always come very very late..As requested by Nadira somewhere in early March, I shall post up the 10 random things now

1. I am beginning to feel that his skin is much more smoother than mine. Argh!! I have been taking extra care for my skin. Regular scrubbing and sufficient moisturising.I'm slowly turning into a freak..

2. Addiction to Korean Dramas isn't that healthy afterall. It cause you to be broke before the end of the month and encourage the development of eye bags due to late nights. *Sigh*

3. Finally my office computer has been upgraded to Windows XP and I am able to access to MSN! What a delightful activity I can engage myself in. Hehe!

4. I am having a date with Ms Nadira Bte Zainal on Friday and to indulge in another dramatic experience. Really looking forward to it. Hehe!

5. Met up with Shikin on the eve of Good Friday with the initial plan on watching Rule #1 at Century Square. However, since we both thought that it was better to spend some quality time together, we headed for Pizza Hut. HAHA! I felt she have taken over my "chimpanzee"ness and I cant help it but to laugh.

6.This is the 1st time in my 22nd years of living that I bumped into two guys who got not much of the look but flirt around like there is no tomorrow. A total turn-off.

7. Currently, a Chinese neighbour of my aunt thinks that I'm drop dead gorgeous and have the intention of match-making his son with me!!! I am so flabbergasted! He even think of converting his son into a Muslim. *faints*

8. I saw my junior Damai Secondary counsellor last week when he decided to barge into my privacy during my word search game in the bus. What a coincidence!

9. My Mak's Birthday is just around the corner and I bought for her an advanced gift. I am so proud of myself. I presented her with something she can use continuously.

10. Our relationship may seem low profile due to the fact that very minimal information has been disclose publicly. It does not mean you don't matter or that I refuse to talk about you. I think by now you know the reason why. Apart from this, I want to let you know no words can describe what we go through together. No words is comparable to my feelings. I don't care even if the world is against us. I will keep holding on to the same promise we made the last 2 years. Who cares if they feel you aint good looking for their liking? All that are superficial. And it's me who is with you. Not them. Let the world talk 'cos they don't know what really is in the heart.

Tada! Done..

If this is love..It is a painful ordeal..

Currently am addicted to Korean Dramas..
I love to watch them speak..So animated. Very adorable.
Any kind souls out there that can lend me Korean DVDs or recommend me any good Korean Dramas so that I can hunt for them?

I prefer to be messy now. Thus, I came up with this entry. Unorganized and appears haphazard.
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Stepping into the student’s shoes in April and I think that will definitely spice up my monotonous lifestyle. It will transform my schedule from slack to hectic. I’ve been lazing around too long. Need to gear up into action as soon as possible.

At times, life is a pain in the ass. Which, unfortunately, also seems to apply to my colleagues. Opps! Pardon my bitchiness.. It gets really hard to contain oneself when it comes to such matter.
Ps: Some can’t even pronounce zero properly and still have the cheek to talk about others.

How on earth did I bump into my past? And my present seems to bother me as well.
Please don’t tell me this is ‘THE’ test ‘cos I’m pretty sure I’ll pass with flying colours. Afterall, I’m a distinction student in this subject you call “Loyalty”.

Friends. I have been quite unaware of the “what’s happening” in their lives. Maybe ‘cos I’m a little too caught up in my own world. Too busy sorting out my life. Too busy watching those DVDs. Too busy thinking of the next course of action. Too occupied with God-knows-what. Or perhaps I don’t have many friends to catch up with for a start. Perhaps…perhaps..perhaps..

I am missing theatre already! Please save me..

At times, the people you think are family turn out to be the perfect stranger while vice versa happens. Sigh. Again, life seems unpredictable with every step you take forward.

Boys make a better friend than girls. Period.

When I have a house of my own, I want to furnish it with IKEA purchases.

I AM VERY POSITIVE THAT I AM UNDERPAID!!

Been away for a very long time..

Here’s what I have been up to since my last update:-

CNY’s Break

It was the best ever! Enjoyed it thoroughly till I had to drag myself out of bed on the Monday morning for work. Sianzzzz..

Went out with him almost everyday. Watched Sweeny Todd the 6th February and he was sweet enough to accompany despite the fact it’s a Thriller. The movie was okay and Johnny Depp was fabulous as usual.

On Friday, my first ever picnic and I cooked! Wahaha! Don’t ask me how I managed to do it without burning my entire kitchen. It was pure luck. CNY remember?

Cant get enough of each other? Again, we went out on Saturday but for a short while.

So the bottomline, CNY was spent solely with him. Haha!

Oh I forget to jot this..
I WAS under depression and at the verge of giving up all hope.
I even took leave from work on Tuesday just to clear the mess in my mind and also to allow the puffiness reduce in size.
That relaxation really works its magic!

VALENTINES’ DAY

Oh well, SMSed my Valentines’ day wishes to the ladies. No flowers or chocolates for me AGAIN. He didn’t believe in ALL these. Sheesh! What to do..Haha!

Despite that, I think it was a sweet evening.


Company’s CNY Dinner

BORING! *capitalize and bold*
Nothing new I suppose. The only difference is what I had that day. Hilarious!
Shall post up my 5 course dinner pictures soon.

I was supposed to meet up with Nadira after CNY dinner but cancelled it ‘cos it’s too late. Had phone conversation with her instead. A great one indeed. :)


MY HOPE

Now, I’m praying hard that my application get through and things go on smoothly.
It’s alright if they don’t support me.
I have him, her and them with me!
That’s enough for me to rock the world!

From HIM to HER



The Heart Never Lies

Some people laugh, some people cry
Some people live, some people die
Some people run, right into the fire
Some people hide their every desire
But we are the lovers

If you don't believe me
Then just look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Some people fight, some people fall
Others pretend they don't care at all
If you wanna fight I'll stand right beside you
The day that you fall I'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces

If you don't believe me
Just look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Woah

Woah

Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever
We are the lovers

I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies
Hey

And we are the lovers
I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Oh-oh-woah
Woah

Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever

Yeah we are the lovers, I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

'cause the heart never lies

Because the heart never lies

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From HER to HIM

You lit up my dark nights and shelter me from stormy days..
You are my reason for staying and not departing..
And you are right, the heart never lies :)

Ps: Thanks for the comfort and care today. Loves..

Opened up a fresh word document with the intention to write a short-story in Malay.
My good intention failed since I faced alot of difficulty coming up with descriptive words in Malay. I, unconsciously, started to think in English and I had to resort to the Oxford Malay-English dictionary as an aid.

It began to turn out time-consuming and decided to call it quit. Shite!

It is always the case when you are too used to doing everything in English?
If it is, then it is very depressing for me now.
My future goal is to publish my own book in Malay mind you and now this is happening to me.
Perhaps, I'm just exaggerating here but it will definitely need effort to pick-up that same old writing skill I once possessed. Sigh.

Oh by the way, I'm just done with looking through Johnny Deep's filmography and my respect for his acting carreer just step up a notch. I wasnt a fan of him until recently. The way he portrayed different character is astounding. The moral of the story is: Never go for the norm.

Who moved my cheese?

A story once told is now spread like wild fire.
Spread those positivity and optimism throughout.
I am glad I came across it because it changes my perception.

A new month brings a new set of changes.
I need to somehow switch from that autopilot to manual mode.
I need to be more independent now.
Now, I really believe what my dad repeatedly tell me..
Don't rely on others but yourself!
His words prove to be right.
I am confident the close ones will help but I was disappointed by the outcome.
I broke down in despair.
Anyway, thank you to my listening ear, whom ignite that passion when someone decided to blow it off.
I promise to fight all the way and make ALL of you proud.

Thanks Mak and Ayah..
Your approval and support really means the whole world to me.

Devil wears Prada was mind-blowing.
On the other hand, MY FATHER deserves some credits for the well-crafted portrayal of father-son relationship.
I never knew that it aches so much. I never knew that a certain connection can occur.
Language isn't a barrier or a limitation to pure enjoyment!

I am currently addicted to movie marathon. It's simply divine laying on your bed while indulging oneself with a good movie.
Daily therapy I must say.

Well...
What's next on my list?

More self-indulgence?
Let's begin by doing something to the woman's crown! *ponders*

Who says money cant buy happiness?
Oh..Maybe not too often.
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Money is not everything. Was offered a better salary but rejected it.
Call me Stupid but I think I am smart.
To work for someone that constantly elevate your blood pressure isn't healthy.
I am not going to continuously entertain ridiculous behavior from him.
He irritates me more than I can imagine.
AND the worse thing..he did it with a smile!
Cunning as a fox!

There you have it, my rant for the day. About work. Totally unnecessary!
That's why it is publicize here you see. Not in some hidden diary.

Written on:
Monday,28th January 2008

Big Girls Don't Cry...

In pursuit of happiness..

I think you deserve a spot in my blog and I also think I owe you an apology.
Again, I am the one who started it all.
And again, I ruined that day.
I dragged you from the East to the West just to purchase my desired gadget.
I am sorry for doing the things I did out of anger and my egoistic mindset.
I am sorry at the start of this New Year I have already broken a promise.
What I had written as my resolution, I failed to apply right at the very beginning.
You can call me Stubborn, Ego or whatever you deem fit and I wont say a word.
I know I am in the wrong. Therefore, I am trying to amend it.

This apology come a little too late since that event was a few weeks ago.
BUT I feel oblige to let you know I am trying my best to make it up to you.
I know you have forgiven me without me even trying hard to apologize.
Nonetheless, one cant be very ignorant about another person's feeling.
I have hurt you countless of times..
Sorry.

Feeling nostalgic at the moment and I came across this song..
What a perfect moment.
When I first listen to it, that's when I know I fall in love.





I put this on loop. As I continuously listen to it, the lyrics just sink in deep into my heart.
How true are those words I cant seem to conjure..
How perfect it describe what I was incapable of..
Ah! I'm such a hopeless romantic to my surprise.

As promised, I shall disclose the answers for my 7th December entry.

1) The murderer is the crew because he was telling a lie.
*hint: Think of Japan's flag*

2) If you choose (a), you are a two timer in your relationship.
If you choose (b), you are loyal n faithful to your partner.
If you choose (c), you are a flirt!!

That's it for the day..Bye!

At the shrine of friendship Never say die, Let the wine of friendship never run dry.
~ Les Misérables ~

Just one more day before a new chapter begins. It will mark the unforgettable events that you will cherish or despise for the years to come. I've said enough before and I wont bother to repeat myself. Let's just feast our eyes with the natures' beauty instead.

2007 is coming to an end while 2008 is nearing hopefully bringing along with it another 12 months of joyous moments.

2007 has indeed been another year to remember. I entered the year not knowing what to expect and in turn I received a whole lots of unexpected things.

The beginning of the year I struggled to adapt to the working world and decided to break away from theatre for quite a while. It was such a surprise when calculation was made and I came up with 1 year of non-existence in theatre. That’s a very long period I must say. And true enough, as predicted I faced difficulties to re-adapt into that as well.

So much adaptation was done. So much struggled faced. That just made me a better person (hopefully).

This year not only was it merely events of adaptation but also 12 months a various tests of faith and trust.

I could explain no further how much it takes to be constantly challenged emotionally. It was definitely draining. I could never keep track of how many times I shed tears for the people I cherish the most. How many times disappointment hits right in front of my face.. and how many times I thought of giving up all hopes but eventually hold on because I still believe. I still care. I care too much in fact to let go.

I know I have made a HUGE mistake due to my ego. That is not taking your hand whenever you need me to. And I even refuse to make the first move to make things better. My ego is just too huge.

For all that, I apologize and as one of the New Year’s resolution, I would love to improve on this aspect.

In conjunction with the closure of 2007, I would like to make a closing speech before I fly off in two days time.

Such beautiful memories have been carved in my mind for 2007 and all these can never happen without the people around me i.e. my friends, family and him.

I am thanking ALL of you whom in one way or another successfully bring joy and add colors to my not-so colorful life.

Thanks to Nurul, Ashikin and Shahdon for staying as my friends eversince our unglamorous years in Damai Secondary School. I hope our friendship remains for many2 years to come. And yes people, we have grown up and some changes are inevitable and perhaps vital to us.

Thanks to YOU for making me feel so special and let’s pray we can survive this rocky journey together. I really cherish you!

Thanks to Nadira for those fashion advises. Hehe! And most importantly, for being that uber sweet friend throughout. Hey, it’s almost 3 years since our very first outing after Devdas production right? And it fell on New Year? Haha! What a New Year back then. J

And to those whose names are not mentioned above, rest assured you are still remembered. And pardon me for not including your names here.

Lastly, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA, MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance to ALL Bloggers!!

Will update again a week from now!

I just come to a realisation that I have not been posting nothing else other than mere words.
Okay, I know it is highly depressing to just stare at word after word in a blog. I cant find the time to post up pictures and thus I cant fulfill a request on posting pictures of what's happening in Singapore.

I will update religiously this weekend by posting up any due photos or entries before I go on a 6 days hiatus.

Let me jot down the list of items/things I wish to get for myself for Christmas/New Year

1. 2 pair of dresses
2. A Pair of jeans
3. 4-5 new tops/blouses
4. Exclusive/ Exquisite accessories
5. Medium-sized Handbag
6. 2 pairs of shoes

Haha! I think it sounds like alot of spending need to be done. Nevermind. Self-indulgence before I proceed on a strict budget by January 2008

Tomorrow I OFFICIALLY need not have to come into the Office! Let's celebrate!
I am going for a course and that's why I am still in the office at this hour trying to clear as many pending work as possible before I go MIA the day after.

I am pretty worried about my fate for January 2008 since the performance of my superior is not so fantastic. Shit! I hate to think about the bad bonus. Cross fingers and hope things will get better within this few days. Not much money coming in and I am VERY scared that we are unable to pull off this month's Billing.

Enough said about the above. Maybe I shall move on to non-work related topics instead. My countdown is ON! 9 more days.. and 2 weeks to ehem ehem ehem! Wahaha! This is really very exciting indeed.

Beside work, I am trying to clear off the pending project I am currently pursuing. I never knew that it will be this hard. Thorough research need to be done and I better try to come with something fast.

So for those who are involve, I will forward it to you guys in due course.

Apologies for the delay. It will definitely be alive and kicking!

Yesterday, I surfed the Net for hours since it was my relax-one-corner day. I started to search for any relevant websites to find out more about Taiwan night markets and the hotels I am going to stay in. Very exciting.

I dont even realise that somewhere along the way I digressed to the Star Cruise website. Haha! Jaw-dropping promotions!!

I want MY DREAM CRUISE!! Please..

I am doing my update in the office again since my home PC is not willing to put me through the Blogger website which I dont know why.

Anyway, let me ask you guys a riddle to crack and a question to answer. Kindly leave your wonderful answers on my TagBoard.

1) A murder took place in a Japanese Navy ship at 2 am. The police questioned all who were on board.

Captain: Sir, I was sleeping when the murder took place.
Cook: I was cooking..
Crew: The flag was upside down..So I turn it upright again
Anchorman: I was anchoring

The Police immediately arrest the murderer. Who is the murderer and why?

2) Close your eyes and imagine you are walking through a forest. Suddenly, you come across a cave and enter it. What did you see inside the cave?
Please choose one of the following.

a) A canned food
b) Dead body
c) Treasure chest

Happy trying! The answers will be revealed in my next entry.

I have been MIA-ing for the past 2 weeks from here due to many-many reasons and one of them is that I really cant find the time to do the updating.

I have plenty to pour out here and let's do it in sequence from the earliest to the recent events.

On 1st December 2007, Saturday happened to be the most terrible day of my life. It started bad and then it got worst. That particular morning I woke up for Drama rehearsal as per normal only to find the cast members seemed no where in sight. Okay I waited. Then found out from Nad that the co-lead was still taking his beautiful SLEEP. Argh!! I waited till I got sleepy. I did not perform during the rehearsal and struggle with the monologue. GUESS what?! ALL due to my OVER-CONFIDENCE thinking that I can pull it off without reading the script many2 times. Shit! Did I just confessed something here? *hides self and let NO one finds out*

After rehearsal, I met him and thought my unfortunate events stopped when the clock strikes 3pm. BUT no. It didnt happen that way. I had forgotten to book the movie tickets and cancelled the plan. Ended up at Mustafa shopping for toiletries when suddenly felt very faint. As though the people around sucked up my energy. I felt like shit. Dragging my feet to the train station and wishing to get a bite asap. It never felt that good after a hearty meal at KFC. I never eaten so much during a single meal before.

The day proceeded quite well until it was time to go home. I felt very very cold and physically and mentally shagged. I didnt know why it all happened that way. It felt like 24km route march! Haiz. Shivered like no one business. Upon reaching home, I laid on the bed and headed straight to dreamland.That was how shagged I was.

Okay, I have turned a day even into a 3 paragraph short-story. Wonderful!

Proceeding to the recent events..

I am currently typing away in my office. Yes, I am still in the office drafting WILLS. Those documents drive me crazy. I cant stand it!!

Somehow, in the office, I have so much inspiration pouring out that I begin to enjoy blogging in the office after 6pm. Haha! I really need to get a life!

After so much delay, finally managed to watch "ENCHANTED". Ahhhhhhhhh.. Uber sweet!
*sings* I have been dreaming of a true love kiss...

It's a movie worth watching. Tuesday night was well-spent and free food never fails to make me happy. *winks*

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By the way, before I forget..Special Thanks to Shikin and Nurul for making dining at Ramen Ten fun! :) See you guys soon. And yes, Life have to move on people!

You know what I miss the most right now?
I miss YOU. *sigh*

I finally get my hands on acting once over again and it never felt better. Only that certain things just aint the same. With all that said, they aint a bad bunch afterall. Haha! Maybe you just cant judge from what you see because they might deceive you. Just like how I was deceived by certain people. I need to expect the unexpected.

The short get-to-know session really tells alot about someone. How they view things and how they react to it. I think sociology and human psychology are two subjects that's worth studying for. HAHA!

I am mentally shag right now but I cant seem to sleep. Since it'll be quite difficult to put things into sentences let me random for once here.

So let the ball rolling...

I hate public declaration of love and lust. Eww..Please keep them private ya.
The older you get, the more insensible you are. Sheesh.
Leave the guy who put his dream before anything else including you. He's not worth the catch.
Being silly helps to calm nerves.
I am surprise by how well I get along with unexpected people.
Still unhappy about the two buggers.
Learn to listen ONLY to the good things. Your life will be blissful rest assured.
I like certain moments to be Private and Confidential. So stop asking.
Talking about feelings, you cant be very confident about it because you will never know what's in store for you.
Be careful what you wish for 'cos it can backfire. *winks*
The two years worth more than anything else in the WORLD.
Life is getting taxing at my end.

Here's presenting to you..
The Honourable Justice Hoh Meow Meow at rest.

I am getting my life back on track. So far I have seen progress.
My life is no longer mundane and there are constantly activities to occupy my day. I am glad I finally appear to be moving ahead and steering the right course.
Added responsibilities are on the way and I hope I can manage them well.

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My friends are doing well with their lifes. Shahdon is contented with his stay at the boundary of Brunei and Sarawak. Ashikin is clear of what she wants and I am happy for her. Nurul must be enjoying her foreign colleagues' company and still waiting for her french hottie to drop down from the sky. Marissa? Errm.. Tengok tepi saja lah ye. :)
For Nadira, no strings attached now. And CONGRATULATION ya for leaving the "hell". You should have do it earlier. I am still wondering why you stayed THAT long for. Haha.

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It's nearing end of the year and guess what ALOT of the people are getting engage or have been engaged or getting married. What's up with 2007? It is an auspicious year or something? Haha. If that makes them happy so be it. But I am just curious about it.

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I CANT WAIT FOR DECEMBER!!! For more than one reasons. :D

This is the best song to describe the unsaid between us. :)

"The smile on your face

Lets me know

That you need me

There's a truth

In your eyes

Saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says

You'll catch me

Whenever I fall

You say it best

When you say

Nothing at all"

Taken from When you say nothing at all by Ronan Keating

I am going to make this short and sweet.
Halimah here wishing NUR NADIRA a very HAPPY 21st Birthday!
I know it is belated but nonetheless I really hope you enjoyed your day.
Love ya! :)

This is REALLY getting very "interesting".
I see it as a revenge while you denies it.
I dont know what to think or feel anymore.
Very, very funny.
It's like a comedy lah.
Things might just end soon. Hmmm..

Blood is indeed thicker than water.
I have been blog-hopping to see what my muslim friends wrote about their Raya experience on the first day.
Oh well, it looks like not all enjoy it.
I begin to wonder what have happen to the "mengeratkan silaturrahim" culture?
It is more like "widening-the-gap" day.
On the contrary, for me this is the best Raya ever. Like what I have told a friend. It is a complete Hari Raya for me and I cant help but smile at it. Finally.
This year I shed no tears. Oh well of course I'm sad since Ramadhan is over but apart from that the others seem to fall in place. What more can i ask?

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A friend is departing soon and we have yet to meet up for a farewell. Coordination and planning appear to go no where. Sigh.

I hate visiting geylang bazaar 1 week before Hari Raya especially for the purpose of searching kurungs or kebayas. I was extremely agitated. Thankfully, I need not have to go through all the hassles to get mine though. I had it way too advance.
As usual, First Lady has been a continuous disappointment. What was on the advertisement simply look much more stunning as compared to what was displayed on the rack. I really prefer those kurungs or kebayas at the bazaar rather than from FL. Cheaper and prettier.

Believe it or not, I have plan the colour I'm going to wear for next year's Raya! Haha! I'm insane.

Haiyah so many things to do in the limited time. Gtg!

Good People

To celebrate its 20th Anniversary, The Necessary Stage presents a brand new play
that deals with the issue of living, dying and the pain in between.
Set in a hospice, Good People is about the ups and downs of the relationships between
3 people. Miguel is the new Medical Director trying to run a tight ship. Yati is a jaded
nurse making the best of a 'dead-end' job. And radha is the terminally ill patient who
is addicted to marijuana to relieve her pain.

As the three get to know each other, complications arise. If Radha get caught, will she
be given the death penalty when she has only a few months to live?

Moving, humorous and evocative, Good People looks at urgent contemporary issues through
the test of personal relationships.

The Necessary Stage's stalwarts, Alvin Tan and Haresh Sharma, team up with three
exceptional actors- Siti Khalijah (Singapore), Rody Vera (The Philippines) and
Sukania Venugopal (Malaysia)- to bring to the Singapore audience another provocative and
socially- engaging production.

Dates: 1-3 & 7-10Nov, 8pm
3-4 & 10-11 Nov, 3pm

$28/$22* Price(s) excludes booking fee*
Concessions for students, senior citizens & NSF

Get your tickets online at http://www.gatecrash.com.sg/ or call the Gatecrash hotline at
6222 5595. Tickets are also available at all Singpost branches and S.A.M kiosks.

Ps: Nad, can i get you this for your upcoming Birthday? Since Beauty World not showing any time soon. Hehe!

Thanks to Shikin's LJ that I got to know about this beautiful and meaningful song.
Enjoy the song while you read the lyric below




PASTIKAN
by siti nurhaliza


Lihatlah langit di atas sana tersenyum melihat tingkah kita
Selalu ada peristiwa yang membawa pertengkaran

Maksudku hanya ingin yang baik untuk kita berdua dalam bercinta
Baiknya aku, buruknya aku terimalah aku apa adanya

Pastikan kau dengan aku jangan ada cinta lain
Tak pernah aku terlintas niatku untuk berpaling

Maafkanlah aku sayang bila belum kau bahagia
Sejauh langit diatas kan ku kejar bahagiamu

Biar langit dan bumi meruntuh, biar jasad kita tertimbun disana
Tetap bersama tak ingin lepas mencintaimu ku jadi begini

Pastikan kau dengan aku jangan ada cinta lain
Tak pernah aku terlintas niatku untuk berpaling

Maafkanlah aku sayang bila belum kau bahagia
Sejauh langit diatas kan ku kejar bahagiamu

Pastikan kau dengan aku jangan ada cinta lain
Tak pernah aku terlintas niatku untuk berpaling

Maafkanlah aku sayang bila belum kau bahagia
Sejauh langit diatas kan ku kejar bahagiamu

Pastikan kau dengan aku jangan ada cinta lain
Tak pernah aku terlintas niatku untuk berpaling

Maafkanlah aku sayang bila belum kau bahagia
Sejauh langit diatas kan ku kejar bahagiamu

Biar langit dan bumi meruntuh, biar jasad kita tertimbun disana
Tetap bersama tak ingin lepas mencintaimu ku jadi begini

Nutrition And YOU



I am beginning to miss Food Science and Nutrition.
Most importantly, I miss preaching about healthy diet and visiting Health Promotion Board website. Sigh.

1. Each player of this game starts off by giving 5 weird things about themselves.
2. People who get tagged need to write in their blog of their own weird things as well, and state the rules clearly.
3. In the end, you'll select 5 people to be tagged and list their names.

5 weird things about me :-

1) When I get lonely and there is no one to turn to, I talk to my soft-toy (Mr. Bear)
2) There are times when I sleep without bathing because I am either too lazy or too tired. Yes, I have bad hygiene.
3) I despise people who swear and curse like there's no tomorrow. Totally not cool.
4) I start my proper grooming after I get into a relationship. So cliche I know!
5) My mind cant work properly if I'm hungry (except for Ramadhan)

The 5 victims are..
1) Maryam
2) Melvyn
3) Fuad (you better do it! Hehe)
4) Monster Kenny
5) Nadira (Please do 10 ya since Shahdon list you as one of the victim as well. Haha!)

First and foremost, pardon my previous entry which was confusing and misleading.
If you happen to try and decipher the impossible, I say quit trying.
If you happen to wonder is there any turbulence admist my relationship, I say no. It is smooth-sailing for a-matter-of-factly.
Therefore, let the entry go since it does not concern anyone.

Oh what a beautiful month it is now.
A holy month for us to start appreciating what we have in life and stop brooding about what we fail to have.

In this wonderful Ramadhan, I hope to obtain the sense of fulfillment in life.
I hope to be a better person wholly and eradicate the negative thoughts I once had for good.
Life is too short to for us to be constantly living it in misery, hatred and unhappiness.
There are other issues worthy to be taken care of.

Don't fret over those things that should be taken care by fate.
Don't stoop so low over the one you think that is inferior to you because they may have the goodness in them you fail to see.
Don't laugh at people's dream because they are much better than those who just laugh.
Don't be too disheartened by a single failure because success is 99% failure.
And
Lastly, don't smirk at this entry because there might be more than what meets your eyes.


To All my dear fellow Muslims,
Happy Ramadhan!

Once upon a time, there lived a girl who thought she was in love.
In love with an illusion indeed she was doing.
Her heartbroke and it felt like it could never be pieced together again.
Thereafter, she stopped believing in happy endings.

-The End-

I have lost my civilised ways of dealings with things.

I said mean things and caused internal damage.

Now, I am not feeling an ounce of guilt.

He deserves it for sure.

Ungrateful idiot!

Continuing from where I have left.
I opted to sleep the whole day and it never felt this good before.
I emailed countless of pictures we took together and realised that there aint many good ones.
Thinking that a year have pass, I definitely think that there have not been alot of pictures.

~@~

I am in mood for some love tonight.
I LOVE YOU ALOT! *hug*
And I hope you love me MORE than I love you. :)

~@~

I have been watching lots of videos at youtube.com and I am starting to think that hey, this is way better than TeeVee.

Almost a year not feeling the way I am now.
I foresee my future in between the mist.
I am back to where I was.

If only they see it.
If only they know it.
Perhaps there might be a change.

~@~

I am craving for Naan, a good old hindi movie, peace and a lovely bouquet of colourful flowers (I know this will not come true)to cheer me up.

~@~

Haiz..I think silence is golden afterall. I should have known better.

It wasnt about me all the time. It's about others too.

I have failed to make someone happy. I am failing miserably.

~@~

I am slowly deteriorating.

I am weakening.

I am losing the zest of life.

Will it ever come back to me?

~@~

Today is the second time in a week I get away from work. Monday I took a half day while today I am going to be on Medical leave. Actually, work is not a problem at all. In fact, yesterday I cleared all my work which left me with none for today. My superior wont be around today so what will I do then. With my condition like this I dont want to risk breaking down in the office. It will definitely be the last thing that I want to happen. I plan to sleep the whole day or perhaps ask for sleeping pills so that I can sleep without any disturbance. So that I can temporarily run away into dreamland and be happy. Hmmm... Or let's see if there are other better options. In fact, I have a couple in my mind. To either start exploring Canon Ixus 70 at Bedok Reservoir or watch a movie alone since I have plenty of movies that I want to watch anyway.

Sigh.

I want to have a good laugh once more. Please, can anyone do miracle?

~@~

My new found jealousy. The receptionist.

She is so happy-go-lucky that sometimes I begin to wonder.

Dont anything affect her at all?

Dont she have any worries?

She still looks young despite being 50 over.

I want to age gracefully like her.

I dont want to age like the office adhoc cleaner.

Aging in misery.

I tried to sleep but I cant. Thus, here I am trying to do something fruitful.
Have not been blogging alot lately. I was basically rushing everywhere. Not exactly EVERYWHERE but I am definitely more busy than any other weeks. My job aside, I was busy watching plays. Words cant describe my happiness. Oh finally!

Like today, I managed to catch "The Mismatched Girl" at Substation. I had a difficult time in search of the venue and it was such an embarrassment I tell you! Halfway through searching for it, it started to drizzle then it got heavy. Wah! Damn it. So merepek. Thankfully, the show have yet to start when we reached. Phew!

Alright, I guess enough of the complains and I shall move on to my opinion about the play. Three words: Worth the MONEY!

1) Excellent Technical support. Sound and lighting sychronizes well.
2) The Set was simple but like the saying goes.. Less is MORE.
3) Great directing. Kudos to the Director!
4) Good usage of Audience Interaction in the middle of the play.

Why do people hate each other?

Because they cant stand one another.

Because they know each other too well.

Why people grow old?

Because it's normal for people to grow old.

Why do people love?

Because their hearts tell them to.

Why cats and dogs cannot live together?

Because it's the way of life.

No.Dogs and cats CAN live together.

Why do people cry and then laugh?

Because after they cry then they learn how to laugh.

Because people cannot cry for long. They will die.

Innocence..

~@~

Geselan viola

mengalun melodi

menyusun irama

Ketika kelu lidah

Hilang kata

Tanpa madah

~@~

I told myself not to shop. BUT I did. Again. Succumb to desire. Argh!

I need to save money for my future.

Mind you not only for marriage but for plans before that too. My OWN plans.

~@~

A Two-year old birthday celebration.

I finally got for her a reasonably nice present and I am happy with myself.

I spent it for a child's happiness. Priceless. :)

I AM BORED and I CANT GO OUT 'COS IT'S RAINING CATS & DOGS

Your Russian Name Is...

Paraaha Anitchka Ivanov

What's" Your Russian Name?

You Belong in 1983

Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatyeardoyoubelonginquiz/">What Year Do You Belong In?

Aquarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people.You're great at thinking up new things and activities to do with your sweetie.You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture. Your negative traits: In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway.You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved. Your ideal partner: Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise!Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you.A true individualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks Your dating style: Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, muesum tour, or concert. Your seduction style: Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next.Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires.Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them. Tips for the future: Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates!Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once.Be aware of your partner's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes. Best color to attract mate: Sky blue Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's" Your Love Profile?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

He's Absolutely Committed to You!

Your guy is committed to you, as if you were already marriedAnd hopefully, you show the same commitment to himWhile you may have had your ups and downs, you've smoothed things outIf the two of you aren't serious, you will be soonSo start secretly planning your weddingIt may happen sooner than you think!

http://www.blogthings.com/willhecommitquiz/">Will He Commit?

Your Hidden Talent

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words.You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel.People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation.When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

Your Love Quote

Love is like pi -- natural, irrational, and very important.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatlovequotesuitsyouquiz/">What Love Quote Suits You?

Your Gemstone is Emerald

Balanced, liberated, and peaceful. You bring luck into any situation.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatgemstoneareyouquiz/">What Gemstone Are You?

I resign to fate
I cant heal this
I have stop all effort to make things better
I shall let it be
Let them be
I'm tired
I want to just sleep

Becoming Roystan



OMG! Alvin is now on the Big Screen. Kudos!
I am still in awe.
So much have changed.

881



I'm in love with the songs used in this movie. I particularly enjoyed this one most.
If you have yet to watch it, please catch it soon.
No matter at which cinema and at what price.
It is entertaining.

I finally decided.
Between the two, I shall forgo the one I have least interest in.
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It is good to re-visit the past once awhile but apparently not all are good.
I felt like I was given a cold treatment.
I felt not all were happy.
I felt unwelcome.
Or maybe it was just me?
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Saturday's outing with Nadira was like old days.
Swenson's Chocolate fondue + updates+ tour at vivo = Like old times
Ok Nad if you are online one of these days, I shall sent to you the pictures.

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Movies that I want to watch

1) 881
2) Rush Hour 3
3) Hairspray
4) The Simpsons movie
5) Bourne Ultimatum

People whom I want to meet up soon

1) Nadira
2) Faezah
3) Ashikin
4) Maryam

* Highlighted in blue- I have met up wif recently
Highlighted in red- Have yet to meet up
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On last Friday, I met up with one of my secondary school friends who I have not meet for 1 year. So decided to update each other about what's happening. It was fun. I have never laugh so much in one night eversince I dont remember when. It definitely reminds me of my secondary school. For goodness sake, I miss school lah! :(

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I have decided to start my weekly jog at the stadium for healthy lifestyle sake and to detoxify unwanted toxins in my body.

Been doing it for 2 weeks now. Kudos to myself. Hope that I can be discipline enough not to quit halfway.

Wohoo! Today I shall self-declare it the "non-government" day!
Nothing much to be done at work except for some clearing up to be done
AND
tomorrow is weekend.

I am so loving it.
Now I am basically slacking throughout.
Drafting a few Writs and surfing the net whole day.
Afterall, my boss is not in to supervise. :)

In approximately 38 minutes will mark our Nation's 42nd Birthday
I hereby would like to take this opportunity to congratulate this developed island for its success and continuous prosperity
Together we STAND UP for SINGAPORE!

Majulah Singapura
Tanah air ku
Di mana titik permulaan hidupku bersemi
Dan mungkin di sinilah aku bersemadi

I took the same quiz I saw in Nad's blog..
And I am..

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird.A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone.You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are. You get along well with: The Ring Finger Stay away from: The Thumb

http://www.blogthings.com/whatfingerareyouquiz/">What Finger Are You?

My Randomness



This is just to remind myself of what's the true meaning of living.

It is all because of you..

At times it feels as though you lose all you have got and feel so empty
You cannot find the reason that make you smile
BUT
Hey I found it
I always have the answer only that I was ignorant

At times, I just cant help it but to curse and swear silently.
I am not timid but the anger is just too fatal.
If I lose it, I'll lose it all.
Haiyoh! Why lah my colleagues are just fu**ing annoying?!
Tell me why?
*strangles them one by one*

Keep Holding On

You're not alone

Together we stand

I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand

When it gets cold

And it feels like the end

There's no place to go

You know I won't give in

No I won't give in

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay strong

'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away

I wish you were here

Before it's too late, this could all disappear

Before the doors close

And it comes to an end

With you by my side I will fight and defend

I'll fight and defend

Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay strong

'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe

Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny

Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da

La da da da

La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay strong

'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on

Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

A joke went all wrong huh?
Some realisation hits you too deep inside that you cant really accept it neither get over it.
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Before I proceed any further with my updates, I would like to thank people who regularly visited my blog for the past few months only to discover that there werent much updates except for some random music videos from 2 different language. Sorry to disappoint.

I am in no obligations to update this blog with all the bad memories. It is just so yesterday.
I used to be that teenager with ounces of angst to pour out and let it flow freely. But all that seems like a long time ago. In fact, alot of matters feel like a long time ago. I feel so old now.

Haha. Oh well, look what have I become? Some boring adults. Less expressive, creative and innovative. Hey I am tired of living my life the way it is. I am tired of complaining over every single things. I am tired of shedding tears for people who wont care less. I am plain tired of typing out my life out in words.

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I know you are going to read this one day or another. So here it goes..

It is all more than what meet the eyes. It is all about in between the lines.
The other day it feels so wrong and when it's time to be with you, all the wrong seems right.
I am not a supergirl to fight all that was thrown to me.
Your words can hurt like a sword.
But funny how your words can be the cure to the wound you cause.
Maybe that's the magic you possess. That no one else have.

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Yesterday, I attended another Magus Luna by TP Dramatec members.
There's some confession I want to make right up here.
I didnt like the feeling yesterday.
I felt so lost.
I felt so out of place.
And..
Worst I was with the people I know for years.
How ironic!

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I just realise I have tone down alot. Maybe it's the age.
I hate the aging process.
It burns a hole in my pocket too!

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