Big Girls Don't Cry...

In pursuit of happiness..

I think you deserve a spot in my blog and I also think I owe you an apology.
Again, I am the one who started it all.
And again, I ruined that day.
I dragged you from the East to the West just to purchase my desired gadget.
I am sorry for doing the things I did out of anger and my egoistic mindset.
I am sorry at the start of this New Year I have already broken a promise.
What I had written as my resolution, I failed to apply right at the very beginning.
You can call me Stubborn, Ego or whatever you deem fit and I wont say a word.
I know I am in the wrong. Therefore, I am trying to amend it.

This apology come a little too late since that event was a few weeks ago.
BUT I feel oblige to let you know I am trying my best to make it up to you.
I know you have forgiven me without me even trying hard to apologize.
Nonetheless, one cant be very ignorant about another person's feeling.
I have hurt you countless of times..
Sorry.

Feeling nostalgic at the moment and I came across this song..
What a perfect moment.
When I first listen to it, that's when I know I fall in love.





I put this on loop. As I continuously listen to it, the lyrics just sink in deep into my heart.
How true are those words I cant seem to conjure..
How perfect it describe what I was incapable of..
Ah! I'm such a hopeless romantic to my surprise.

As promised, I shall disclose the answers for my 7th December entry.

1) The murderer is the crew because he was telling a lie.
*hint: Think of Japan's flag*

2) If you choose (a), you are a two timer in your relationship.
If you choose (b), you are loyal n faithful to your partner.
If you choose (c), you are a flirt!!

That's it for the day..Bye!

At the shrine of friendship Never say die, Let the wine of friendship never run dry.
~ Les Misérables ~

Just one more day before a new chapter begins. It will mark the unforgettable events that you will cherish or despise for the years to come. I've said enough before and I wont bother to repeat myself. Let's just feast our eyes with the natures' beauty instead.

2007 is coming to an end while 2008 is nearing hopefully bringing along with it another 12 months of joyous moments.

2007 has indeed been another year to remember. I entered the year not knowing what to expect and in turn I received a whole lots of unexpected things.

The beginning of the year I struggled to adapt to the working world and decided to break away from theatre for quite a while. It was such a surprise when calculation was made and I came up with 1 year of non-existence in theatre. That’s a very long period I must say. And true enough, as predicted I faced difficulties to re-adapt into that as well.

So much adaptation was done. So much struggled faced. That just made me a better person (hopefully).

This year not only was it merely events of adaptation but also 12 months a various tests of faith and trust.

I could explain no further how much it takes to be constantly challenged emotionally. It was definitely draining. I could never keep track of how many times I shed tears for the people I cherish the most. How many times disappointment hits right in front of my face.. and how many times I thought of giving up all hopes but eventually hold on because I still believe. I still care. I care too much in fact to let go.

I know I have made a HUGE mistake due to my ego. That is not taking your hand whenever you need me to. And I even refuse to make the first move to make things better. My ego is just too huge.

For all that, I apologize and as one of the New Year’s resolution, I would love to improve on this aspect.

In conjunction with the closure of 2007, I would like to make a closing speech before I fly off in two days time.

Such beautiful memories have been carved in my mind for 2007 and all these can never happen without the people around me i.e. my friends, family and him.

I am thanking ALL of you whom in one way or another successfully bring joy and add colors to my not-so colorful life.

Thanks to Nurul, Ashikin and Shahdon for staying as my friends eversince our unglamorous years in Damai Secondary School. I hope our friendship remains for many2 years to come. And yes people, we have grown up and some changes are inevitable and perhaps vital to us.

Thanks to YOU for making me feel so special and let’s pray we can survive this rocky journey together. I really cherish you!

Thanks to Nadira for those fashion advises. Hehe! And most importantly, for being that uber sweet friend throughout. Hey, it’s almost 3 years since our very first outing after Devdas production right? And it fell on New Year? Haha! What a New Year back then. J

And to those whose names are not mentioned above, rest assured you are still remembered. And pardon me for not including your names here.

Lastly, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA, MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance to ALL Bloggers!!

Will update again a week from now!

I just come to a realisation that I have not been posting nothing else other than mere words.
Okay, I know it is highly depressing to just stare at word after word in a blog. I cant find the time to post up pictures and thus I cant fulfill a request on posting pictures of what's happening in Singapore.

I will update religiously this weekend by posting up any due photos or entries before I go on a 6 days hiatus.

Let me jot down the list of items/things I wish to get for myself for Christmas/New Year

1. 2 pair of dresses
2. A Pair of jeans
3. 4-5 new tops/blouses
4. Exclusive/ Exquisite accessories
5. Medium-sized Handbag
6. 2 pairs of shoes

Haha! I think it sounds like alot of spending need to be done. Nevermind. Self-indulgence before I proceed on a strict budget by January 2008

Tomorrow I OFFICIALLY need not have to come into the Office! Let's celebrate!
I am going for a course and that's why I am still in the office at this hour trying to clear as many pending work as possible before I go MIA the day after.

I am pretty worried about my fate for January 2008 since the performance of my superior is not so fantastic. Shit! I hate to think about the bad bonus. Cross fingers and hope things will get better within this few days. Not much money coming in and I am VERY scared that we are unable to pull off this month's Billing.

Enough said about the above. Maybe I shall move on to non-work related topics instead. My countdown is ON! 9 more days.. and 2 weeks to ehem ehem ehem! Wahaha! This is really very exciting indeed.

Beside work, I am trying to clear off the pending project I am currently pursuing. I never knew that it will be this hard. Thorough research need to be done and I better try to come with something fast.

So for those who are involve, I will forward it to you guys in due course.

Apologies for the delay. It will definitely be alive and kicking!

Yesterday, I surfed the Net for hours since it was my relax-one-corner day. I started to search for any relevant websites to find out more about Taiwan night markets and the hotels I am going to stay in. Very exciting.

I dont even realise that somewhere along the way I digressed to the Star Cruise website. Haha! Jaw-dropping promotions!!

I want MY DREAM CRUISE!! Please..

I am doing my update in the office again since my home PC is not willing to put me through the Blogger website which I dont know why.

Anyway, let me ask you guys a riddle to crack and a question to answer. Kindly leave your wonderful answers on my TagBoard.

1) A murder took place in a Japanese Navy ship at 2 am. The police questioned all who were on board.

Captain: Sir, I was sleeping when the murder took place.
Cook: I was cooking..
Crew: The flag was upside down..So I turn it upright again
Anchorman: I was anchoring

The Police immediately arrest the murderer. Who is the murderer and why?

2) Close your eyes and imagine you are walking through a forest. Suddenly, you come across a cave and enter it. What did you see inside the cave?
Please choose one of the following.

a) A canned food
b) Dead body
c) Treasure chest

Happy trying! The answers will be revealed in my next entry.

I have been MIA-ing for the past 2 weeks from here due to many-many reasons and one of them is that I really cant find the time to do the updating.

I have plenty to pour out here and let's do it in sequence from the earliest to the recent events.

On 1st December 2007, Saturday happened to be the most terrible day of my life. It started bad and then it got worst. That particular morning I woke up for Drama rehearsal as per normal only to find the cast members seemed no where in sight. Okay I waited. Then found out from Nad that the co-lead was still taking his beautiful SLEEP. Argh!! I waited till I got sleepy. I did not perform during the rehearsal and struggle with the monologue. GUESS what?! ALL due to my OVER-CONFIDENCE thinking that I can pull it off without reading the script many2 times. Shit! Did I just confessed something here? *hides self and let NO one finds out*

After rehearsal, I met him and thought my unfortunate events stopped when the clock strikes 3pm. BUT no. It didnt happen that way. I had forgotten to book the movie tickets and cancelled the plan. Ended up at Mustafa shopping for toiletries when suddenly felt very faint. As though the people around sucked up my energy. I felt like shit. Dragging my feet to the train station and wishing to get a bite asap. It never felt that good after a hearty meal at KFC. I never eaten so much during a single meal before.

The day proceeded quite well until it was time to go home. I felt very very cold and physically and mentally shagged. I didnt know why it all happened that way. It felt like 24km route march! Haiz. Shivered like no one business. Upon reaching home, I laid on the bed and headed straight to dreamland.That was how shagged I was.

Okay, I have turned a day even into a 3 paragraph short-story. Wonderful!

Proceeding to the recent events..

I am currently typing away in my office. Yes, I am still in the office drafting WILLS. Those documents drive me crazy. I cant stand it!!

Somehow, in the office, I have so much inspiration pouring out that I begin to enjoy blogging in the office after 6pm. Haha! I really need to get a life!

After so much delay, finally managed to watch "ENCHANTED". Ahhhhhhhhh.. Uber sweet!
*sings* I have been dreaming of a true love kiss...

It's a movie worth watching. Tuesday night was well-spent and free food never fails to make me happy. *winks*

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By the way, before I forget..Special Thanks to Shikin and Nurul for making dining at Ramen Ten fun! :) See you guys soon. And yes, Life have to move on people!

You know what I miss the most right now?
I miss YOU. *sigh*

I finally get my hands on acting once over again and it never felt better. Only that certain things just aint the same. With all that said, they aint a bad bunch afterall. Haha! Maybe you just cant judge from what you see because they might deceive you. Just like how I was deceived by certain people. I need to expect the unexpected.

The short get-to-know session really tells alot about someone. How they view things and how they react to it. I think sociology and human psychology are two subjects that's worth studying for. HAHA!

I am mentally shag right now but I cant seem to sleep. Since it'll be quite difficult to put things into sentences let me random for once here.

So let the ball rolling...

I hate public declaration of love and lust. Eww..Please keep them private ya.
The older you get, the more insensible you are. Sheesh.
Leave the guy who put his dream before anything else including you. He's not worth the catch.
Being silly helps to calm nerves.
I am surprise by how well I get along with unexpected people.
Still unhappy about the two buggers.
Learn to listen ONLY to the good things. Your life will be blissful rest assured.
I like certain moments to be Private and Confidential. So stop asking.
Talking about feelings, you cant be very confident about it because you will never know what's in store for you.
Be careful what you wish for 'cos it can backfire. *winks*
The two years worth more than anything else in the WORLD.
Life is getting taxing at my end.

Here's presenting to you..
The Honourable Justice Hoh Meow Meow at rest.

I am getting my life back on track. So far I have seen progress.
My life is no longer mundane and there are constantly activities to occupy my day. I am glad I finally appear to be moving ahead and steering the right course.
Added responsibilities are on the way and I hope I can manage them well.

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My friends are doing well with their lifes. Shahdon is contented with his stay at the boundary of Brunei and Sarawak. Ashikin is clear of what she wants and I am happy for her. Nurul must be enjoying her foreign colleagues' company and still waiting for her french hottie to drop down from the sky. Marissa? Errm.. Tengok tepi saja lah ye. :)
For Nadira, no strings attached now. And CONGRATULATION ya for leaving the "hell". You should have do it earlier. I am still wondering why you stayed THAT long for. Haha.

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It's nearing end of the year and guess what ALOT of the people are getting engage or have been engaged or getting married. What's up with 2007? It is an auspicious year or something? Haha. If that makes them happy so be it. But I am just curious about it.

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I CANT WAIT FOR DECEMBER!!! For more than one reasons. :D

This is the best song to describe the unsaid between us. :)

"The smile on your face

Lets me know

That you need me

There's a truth

In your eyes

Saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says

You'll catch me

Whenever I fall

You say it best

When you say

Nothing at all"

Taken from When you say nothing at all by Ronan Keating

I am going to make this short and sweet.
Halimah here wishing NUR NADIRA a very HAPPY 21st Birthday!
I know it is belated but nonetheless I really hope you enjoyed your day.
Love ya! :)

This is REALLY getting very "interesting".
I see it as a revenge while you denies it.
I dont know what to think or feel anymore.
Very, very funny.
It's like a comedy lah.
Things might just end soon. Hmmm..

Blood is indeed thicker than water.
I have been blog-hopping to see what my muslim friends wrote about their Raya experience on the first day.
Oh well, it looks like not all enjoy it.
I begin to wonder what have happen to the "mengeratkan silaturrahim" culture?
It is more like "widening-the-gap" day.
On the contrary, for me this is the best Raya ever. Like what I have told a friend. It is a complete Hari Raya for me and I cant help but smile at it. Finally.
This year I shed no tears. Oh well of course I'm sad since Ramadhan is over but apart from that the others seem to fall in place. What more can i ask?

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A friend is departing soon and we have yet to meet up for a farewell. Coordination and planning appear to go no where. Sigh.

I hate visiting geylang bazaar 1 week before Hari Raya especially for the purpose of searching kurungs or kebayas. I was extremely agitated. Thankfully, I need not have to go through all the hassles to get mine though. I had it way too advance.
As usual, First Lady has been a continuous disappointment. What was on the advertisement simply look much more stunning as compared to what was displayed on the rack. I really prefer those kurungs or kebayas at the bazaar rather than from FL. Cheaper and prettier.

Believe it or not, I have plan the colour I'm going to wear for next year's Raya! Haha! I'm insane.

Haiyah so many things to do in the limited time. Gtg!

Good People

To celebrate its 20th Anniversary, The Necessary Stage presents a brand new play
that deals with the issue of living, dying and the pain in between.
Set in a hospice, Good People is about the ups and downs of the relationships between
3 people. Miguel is the new Medical Director trying to run a tight ship. Yati is a jaded
nurse making the best of a 'dead-end' job. And radha is the terminally ill patient who
is addicted to marijuana to relieve her pain.

As the three get to know each other, complications arise. If Radha get caught, will she
be given the death penalty when she has only a few months to live?

Moving, humorous and evocative, Good People looks at urgent contemporary issues through
the test of personal relationships.

The Necessary Stage's stalwarts, Alvin Tan and Haresh Sharma, team up with three
exceptional actors- Siti Khalijah (Singapore), Rody Vera (The Philippines) and
Sukania Venugopal (Malaysia)- to bring to the Singapore audience another provocative and
socially- engaging production.

Dates: 1-3 & 7-10Nov, 8pm
3-4 & 10-11 Nov, 3pm

$28/$22* Price(s) excludes booking fee*
Concessions for students, senior citizens & NSF

Get your tickets online at http://www.gatecrash.com.sg/ or call the Gatecrash hotline at
6222 5595. Tickets are also available at all Singpost branches and S.A.M kiosks.

Ps: Nad, can i get you this for your upcoming Birthday? Since Beauty World not showing any time soon. Hehe!