I CAN HEAR THE KOMPANG PLAYING!! Kpak Bing Bing..Ahai!

I've gotten my invitation card!!! Thanks to Mr. Double E. HAHA!
I have no idea why am I looking forward to it.
I am always excited about my friend's wedding since I have missed one last year.
I hope i dont miss this one. It is not because that I am excited to watch the bride and groom on the dais but the fact that I am going to meet the old friends. That's going to be very interesting!
Somewhat like an awkward reunion perhaps? haha.
Ashikin, hope you don't have anything on that day and you are up to this challenging errmmm..challenge? Hehe.

I giggled so much while uploading the video below.
Finally, i make myself look at this song in a different perspective altogether.
Very light-hearted yet true!

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The past two days I was down. About my bad skin. It is so prone to acne/pimples. I cant erase this from my mind..
"Oh ya now I recall. But I didnt remember her having that many pimples. Haha"
Argh! Do you how it feels? Very depressing. I tried to convince myself that my skin has improve but it failed! I started to feel crappy because I have been putting in alot of effort to make it better.
When will it come a time I have flawless skin?! Hmmmm....

*skip lamentation*

On the brighter note, he secures a job already! Congratulation awak! :)
And it is not ORD yet. He is indeed very lucky. He nailed it on the 1st interview. I am so jealous! This make me have a stronger urge to find a new job. Start earning big bucks as compared to the measly amount i am earning now. Shall wait till July. The increment month. If it is not up to expectation I shall quit!!

There are times that I cant believe what I am doing with my life.
I thrust myself into a whirlpool of unfamiliarity.
I don't even know whether this is going to work out well.
I jumped without giving it a deeper thought.
Now, I am here. I cant turn back against what I have decided.
I need to persevere. I need to stay firm on the ground.
I wont collapse without any attempts.
So far,it has been a good start despite the glitches.
Now the challenge is to make it a good ending.
I have 3 years to make it right.

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May I ask?
Is this an auspicious year to get married?

Many friends are married or getting married this year.
It really makes me feel weird.
For sure, I am not influence to speed up marriage just because of them.
I am just curious of this phenomenon.

Ps: HAFIZ is getting married. I am invited!!! HAHAHA!

If you find America's Next Top Model great..
Check out Australia's Next Top Model. It's the Cycle 4!

Finally settled with this skin. Took me a very long time to decide on it. What more with me still recovering from flu. The virus is getting to my brain. Changing a skin never been this painstaking before.

I found a skin just nice to fit my pictures and videos in it.

Movies I wanna watch so bad..



IRON MAN





Ayat-Ayat Cinta..

I have always admire people who pen their ideas well. And currently, this person is no exception. Shikin introduced him via her LJ. Since today I have plenty of time, I decided to take a peek into his blog. He reminds me so much of Alfian Sa'at. University graduates and both love to talk about the Malay community. Similar train of thought i presume.

In anyway, this guy possess a very witty sense of humor. His blog is worth reading.

Let's put that aside and change the topic. School started on 21st April 2008. Not officially yet.
Just the induction programmes. And what I am about to say hopefully wont get me a lawsuit in my letterbox.. Their Administrative Department is in dire need of proper organisation. In layman terms, it sucks! I shall not provide further justification to my words. The "wrongly-issued-textbooks-plus-no-confirmation-as-yet-about-my-subject-changes" proves everything. Period.

Apart from that I am pretty excited to start school proper eventhough it will be taxing. I hope the burning desire to learn wont die off soon after the commencement in July.


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I was on a jam-packed activities starting from 1st May 2008.

Let me fill you in with the necessary since I have been updating since I dont know when.

1st May 2008

Started the day early. 9am. When to tutor my student since her Paper 1 was on the next day.
Reached home and took a short nap. Woke up. Went out with him. My treat to the Breeks!

2nd May 2008

After work, met him again. Hmm..for the second time in a week. Met up for dinner and headed home.

3rd May 2008

Headed down to town. In search of his shoes but to no avail. Instead I got something for myself!

4th May 2008

Morning jog. Slept. Tutoring AGAIN!

5th May 2008

Met up with Shahdon and Ashikin for dinner. At Simpang Bedok! (which I wrongly-typed as Bedok Corner). It was the Singapura way! Fun! I've decided to head back there with my parents and maybe with him (on separate days of course!)

The dinner was on Shahdon! Thanks ya! Totally appreciate it!
And he is on his way to Temburong, Brunei as I type this out.

I have never felt so bloated before. We ordered like we have 6 people eating it. When it was just the 3 of us.

T3 was nothing spectacular. Except its interior design is pretty nice.
What you expect when Singapore spent a bomb on it?!

The 'Hot Seat' thingy really spiced up the night.
Only that Shahdon's too shy to answer our 'intimate' questions.

6th May 2008

Watched Harold and Kumar: Escape from Guantanamo Bay with my colleague, Christa. Hilarious! But way too explicit for me and I think for her.
Quite shocked to watch too many topless and bottomless scenes in one night.

7th May 2008

Hey guess what?
By this time, I already felt sick! Took 1/2 day and went to work in the afternoon.
And I still dragged myself to Bugis Street and shopped. I couldnt believe myself!
At the end of it, I was half-dead. Felt crappy. My face was red. It felt as though I can collapse any moment.

8th May 2008

I was down with FLU! Slept the whole day.

9th May 2008

Was supposed to resume work today but still felt sick.
Took another day MC.

I am beginning to believe that I am aging too fast for my age.
I cant even handle the abovementioned schedule without making myself fall sick. Haiz!

Dear all..

Please bear with this blogskin for awhile..
Will do the re-constructioning of this blog once I am less occupied with stuffs.
Now, how I wish that my office computer has the access to Blogger and other related websites..
I am deprive of updating my bloggie! There are plenty of things to pen down but there seem to be no opportunities at all.

Since I have come this far to drop a message I might as well progress further by posting an entry right?

It's the 1st weekend of the month! GST offset package money received! People are queueing up impatiently to cash their cheques. So typical!

Oh well...That's not what I want to go to actually. Shah's back from Brunei and left for KL yesterday. We still have yet to have an outing together. Like what is that suppose to be? Haha!

Since I am assigned the honourable task to do the co-ordination of outing..Let's make sure we at least have one ya?

Dear NURUL, ASHIKIN and SHAHDON..
Please reply to this message as soon as possible!
We need to decide on a day for the outing.. I thought of Monday 5/5/2008.
And the venue..Just a simple dinner where we can have plenty of time to talk perhaps?
Or would you all prefer a whole day outing?
I seek your confirmation fast!
Thanks!

Dear Nadira..
When is the most favoured day to go out? I prefer on the 7th May.
Update me ya?
Thanks.

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Craving for that shopping spree at Bugis Village on a weekday..Cepat2 ye awk?!

Curiosity starts to boil up and my very own detective game begins. Piecing bits of information together. Weighing the probability. That lengthy revelation keeps playing in my mind like some kind of good old movie. It’s like an unexpected twist to a perfect fairytale. What you see are superficial. What’s between the lines are preposterous.

I shall keep mum and not to blurt out anything. Should keep reminding myself that since I have this itchy mouth and the tendency to spill the beans.

Actually, the beans have been spilled not long ago. HAHA! I succumb to my very own temptation. Well well..Lucky the secret remains between us. Hope it will remain like this.

Been meaning to update my blog for so many weeks but I keep diverting my attention to other things..

I will try to update it soonest possible and change my twisted Blogskin..

Need to start working once again..Tada!

My New Found Idol




Keluar pagi balik petang

Adakala sampai malam

Cari rezeki bawa pulang

Buat orang yang tersayang

ooo bersabarlah



Wajahmu dimana mana

Senyum kasih mesra kasih

Cinta murni kan bersemi

Bersama ketulusan budi

ooo bersemilah



[Bridge]

Lama kucarik rahsia kaseh

Rindu kaseh untuk berkaseh

Senang senang duduk di serambi

Senandung lagu puisi

Zikir zaman nyanyian zaman



[Chorus]

Andai kasturi hilang harum

Mawar tak berkuntum

Cinta tak bersambung

Biar emas setinggi gunung

Kan ku peluk rimbun ampun

Rahmat yang Maha Agung

Feast your eyes with my yet another blogskin with a tinge of Asian delights.
Not been updating religiously but will definitely attempt an entry before the week ends.

I AM AWFULLY BROKE!!!
In need of some kind of miracle to happen. Like money drop down from the sky? Or the least dramatic one..ERS money!!

Before I blabber non-stop will end here for now.
Good Night!

The Fun Fair Affair
Beyond the neon lights and child laughter
You held that gaze that made my heart skipped a beat..

This is a story about him and her.
She, who waited foolishly for him to return by her side.
He, who thinks that his "adorable" nature can bring him far.
My intention is not to intrude into their world.
I just cant stand the fact that he never learn his lesson and she cant let go.

I was once a victim but thankfully I realized my stupidity before it stray away too far.
If I still have yet to get over it I might as well give myself a tight slap.
I am a happier person after being fooled into that so called "love".

He thinks that his looks can woo every female on this universe and that his sweet words melt everyone hearts.
He thinks his good looks score lots of points but he fails to see that his lack of intellectual ability and immaturity score higher points as well.

He failed to see the pureness of her heart. He ridiculed her love. He abused the situation and made it seem that she wronged him.
He is too proud to allow himself to be the one in the wrong.
She is a fool to believe she was the one who wronged him and apologized.
She begged for his love and is under his mercy.

Why?
Why jump into pool of misery when you can lead a happier life without him?
What makes you think he loves you as much as you love him?
If he loves you, he would have made a small sacrifice for you.
When a guy fall in loves, he loves dearly.
Pardon me if I'm wrong but from what I can see..
He easily chucked you aside to pursue fame.
He easily pick himself up while you still shed endless tears.

You should be shedding tears of joy that you don't end up with someone as egoistic and selfish as him.
When he said you deserves someone better. Believe it. You do deserves someone thousand times better than him.
My hope is to see you finally move on and find a new definition of happiness.
It doesn't necessarily evolves around him. In fact, happiness might be away from him. :)

Please stop inflicting pain to the heart. It's unhealthy. Seriously.

Maybe my perception is very prejudice. Sorry.

Again, my entry always come very very late..As requested by Nadira somewhere in early March, I shall post up the 10 random things now

1. I am beginning to feel that his skin is much more smoother than mine. Argh!! I have been taking extra care for my skin. Regular scrubbing and sufficient moisturising.I'm slowly turning into a freak..

2. Addiction to Korean Dramas isn't that healthy afterall. It cause you to be broke before the end of the month and encourage the development of eye bags due to late nights. *Sigh*

3. Finally my office computer has been upgraded to Windows XP and I am able to access to MSN! What a delightful activity I can engage myself in. Hehe!

4. I am having a date with Ms Nadira Bte Zainal on Friday and to indulge in another dramatic experience. Really looking forward to it. Hehe!

5. Met up with Shikin on the eve of Good Friday with the initial plan on watching Rule #1 at Century Square. However, since we both thought that it was better to spend some quality time together, we headed for Pizza Hut. HAHA! I felt she have taken over my "chimpanzee"ness and I cant help it but to laugh.

6.This is the 1st time in my 22nd years of living that I bumped into two guys who got not much of the look but flirt around like there is no tomorrow. A total turn-off.

7. Currently, a Chinese neighbour of my aunt thinks that I'm drop dead gorgeous and have the intention of match-making his son with me!!! I am so flabbergasted! He even think of converting his son into a Muslim. *faints*

8. I saw my junior Damai Secondary counsellor last week when he decided to barge into my privacy during my word search game in the bus. What a coincidence!

9. My Mak's Birthday is just around the corner and I bought for her an advanced gift. I am so proud of myself. I presented her with something she can use continuously.

10. Our relationship may seem low profile due to the fact that very minimal information has been disclose publicly. It does not mean you don't matter or that I refuse to talk about you. I think by now you know the reason why. Apart from this, I want to let you know no words can describe what we go through together. No words is comparable to my feelings. I don't care even if the world is against us. I will keep holding on to the same promise we made the last 2 years. Who cares if they feel you aint good looking for their liking? All that are superficial. And it's me who is with you. Not them. Let the world talk 'cos they don't know what really is in the heart.

Tada! Done..

If this is love..It is a painful ordeal..

Currently am addicted to Korean Dramas..
I love to watch them speak..So animated. Very adorable.
Any kind souls out there that can lend me Korean DVDs or recommend me any good Korean Dramas so that I can hunt for them?

I prefer to be messy now. Thus, I came up with this entry. Unorganized and appears haphazard.
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Stepping into the student’s shoes in April and I think that will definitely spice up my monotonous lifestyle. It will transform my schedule from slack to hectic. I’ve been lazing around too long. Need to gear up into action as soon as possible.

At times, life is a pain in the ass. Which, unfortunately, also seems to apply to my colleagues. Opps! Pardon my bitchiness.. It gets really hard to contain oneself when it comes to such matter.
Ps: Some can’t even pronounce zero properly and still have the cheek to talk about others.

How on earth did I bump into my past? And my present seems to bother me as well.
Please don’t tell me this is ‘THE’ test ‘cos I’m pretty sure I’ll pass with flying colours. Afterall, I’m a distinction student in this subject you call “Loyalty”.

Friends. I have been quite unaware of the “what’s happening” in their lives. Maybe ‘cos I’m a little too caught up in my own world. Too busy sorting out my life. Too busy watching those DVDs. Too busy thinking of the next course of action. Too occupied with God-knows-what. Or perhaps I don’t have many friends to catch up with for a start. Perhaps…perhaps..perhaps..

I am missing theatre already! Please save me..

At times, the people you think are family turn out to be the perfect stranger while vice versa happens. Sigh. Again, life seems unpredictable with every step you take forward.

Boys make a better friend than girls. Period.

When I have a house of my own, I want to furnish it with IKEA purchases.

I AM VERY POSITIVE THAT I AM UNDERPAID!!

Been away for a very long time..

Here’s what I have been up to since my last update:-

CNY’s Break

It was the best ever! Enjoyed it thoroughly till I had to drag myself out of bed on the Monday morning for work. Sianzzzz..

Went out with him almost everyday. Watched Sweeny Todd the 6th February and he was sweet enough to accompany despite the fact it’s a Thriller. The movie was okay and Johnny Depp was fabulous as usual.

On Friday, my first ever picnic and I cooked! Wahaha! Don’t ask me how I managed to do it without burning my entire kitchen. It was pure luck. CNY remember?

Cant get enough of each other? Again, we went out on Saturday but for a short while.

So the bottomline, CNY was spent solely with him. Haha!

Oh I forget to jot this..
I WAS under depression and at the verge of giving up all hope.
I even took leave from work on Tuesday just to clear the mess in my mind and also to allow the puffiness reduce in size.
That relaxation really works its magic!

VALENTINES’ DAY

Oh well, SMSed my Valentines’ day wishes to the ladies. No flowers or chocolates for me AGAIN. He didn’t believe in ALL these. Sheesh! What to do..Haha!

Despite that, I think it was a sweet evening.


Company’s CNY Dinner

BORING! *capitalize and bold*
Nothing new I suppose. The only difference is what I had that day. Hilarious!
Shall post up my 5 course dinner pictures soon.

I was supposed to meet up with Nadira after CNY dinner but cancelled it ‘cos it’s too late. Had phone conversation with her instead. A great one indeed. :)


MY HOPE

Now, I’m praying hard that my application get through and things go on smoothly.
It’s alright if they don’t support me.
I have him, her and them with me!
That’s enough for me to rock the world!

From HIM to HER



The Heart Never Lies

Some people laugh, some people cry
Some people live, some people die
Some people run, right into the fire
Some people hide their every desire
But we are the lovers

If you don't believe me
Then just look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Some people fight, some people fall
Others pretend they don't care at all
If you wanna fight I'll stand right beside you
The day that you fall I'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces

If you don't believe me
Just look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Woah

Woah

Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever
We are the lovers

I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies
Hey

And we are the lovers
I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Oh-oh-woah
Woah

Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever

Yeah we are the lovers, I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

'cause the heart never lies

Because the heart never lies

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From HER to HIM

You lit up my dark nights and shelter me from stormy days..
You are my reason for staying and not departing..
And you are right, the heart never lies :)

Ps: Thanks for the comfort and care today. Loves..

Opened up a fresh word document with the intention to write a short-story in Malay.
My good intention failed since I faced alot of difficulty coming up with descriptive words in Malay. I, unconsciously, started to think in English and I had to resort to the Oxford Malay-English dictionary as an aid.

It began to turn out time-consuming and decided to call it quit. Shite!

It is always the case when you are too used to doing everything in English?
If it is, then it is very depressing for me now.
My future goal is to publish my own book in Malay mind you and now this is happening to me.
Perhaps, I'm just exaggerating here but it will definitely need effort to pick-up that same old writing skill I once possessed. Sigh.

Oh by the way, I'm just done with looking through Johnny Deep's filmography and my respect for his acting carreer just step up a notch. I wasnt a fan of him until recently. The way he portrayed different character is astounding. The moral of the story is: Never go for the norm.

Who moved my cheese?

A story once told is now spread like wild fire.
Spread those positivity and optimism throughout.
I am glad I came across it because it changes my perception.

A new month brings a new set of changes.
I need to somehow switch from that autopilot to manual mode.
I need to be more independent now.
Now, I really believe what my dad repeatedly tell me..
Don't rely on others but yourself!
His words prove to be right.
I am confident the close ones will help but I was disappointed by the outcome.
I broke down in despair.
Anyway, thank you to my listening ear, whom ignite that passion when someone decided to blow it off.
I promise to fight all the way and make ALL of you proud.

Thanks Mak and Ayah..
Your approval and support really means the whole world to me.

Devil wears Prada was mind-blowing.
On the other hand, MY FATHER deserves some credits for the well-crafted portrayal of father-son relationship.
I never knew that it aches so much. I never knew that a certain connection can occur.
Language isn't a barrier or a limitation to pure enjoyment!

I am currently addicted to movie marathon. It's simply divine laying on your bed while indulging oneself with a good movie.
Daily therapy I must say.

Well...
What's next on my list?

More self-indulgence?
Let's begin by doing something to the woman's crown! *ponders*

Who says money cant buy happiness?
Oh..Maybe not too often.
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Money is not everything. Was offered a better salary but rejected it.
Call me Stupid but I think I am smart.
To work for someone that constantly elevate your blood pressure isn't healthy.
I am not going to continuously entertain ridiculous behavior from him.
He irritates me more than I can imagine.
AND the worse thing..he did it with a smile!
Cunning as a fox!

There you have it, my rant for the day. About work. Totally unnecessary!
That's why it is publicize here you see. Not in some hidden diary.

Written on:
Monday,28th January 2008