Be careful of what you wish for..

Since that very fine day in late March 2011, it has widen my horizon indeed.
Nothing beats the experience I have gained these 4 months. Can you believe it?
It is just 4 months passed but so many things have been going on in my life. Truly receive what I wish for.

By the look of it, I might just end up swallowing my own words and return to where I begin.
I am not exactly choosy about things, I guess my mistake is to jump into the ship in a rush.
I make rash decision without thinking of its future consequences. Like how someone describe my current situation; 'It's like jumping from the frying pan into the fire'. Yes, I got burnt! It sucks, isn't it? Well, that's what I wanted.

But..then I realized it is not exactly about the right environment or the right person, it is striking the balance between both and I was lucky the first time. I guess it was the beginner's luck. Unfortunately, I am not that lucky the second and the third time.

Currently, I am toying with the possibility of returning. It is not easy to swallow your own pride. But if it is for the sake of happiness, why not right? Truly clueless of what to do now. I shall seek guidance from Him. Only He knows best.

Date: 22 October 2010

Time: 7:16pm

Venue: Hanis Cafe in front of National Library @ Bugis

This blog has been collecting dusts, huh? Well, I am at the above venue while typing out this entry. Why am I where I am? Hmm...My intention was to study in the library since there are lots of reference materials for me to look into. But no, the library has to close at a weird timing for some staffs’ function. So inconvenient.

In the attempt not to waste time staring into thin air or observe people walk by, I decided to plop myself here doing equally unfruitful activity.

I should have gotten myself mobile broadband for easy use. Failure to do so resulted in me typing away using Microsoft Office Words 2007 instead.

But I digress. My purpose is not to describe in details where I am and why I ended up blogging but more so to give an update to my avid readers out there about snippets of my life, perceptions and so on and so forth. Alah bukannya I have followers in my blog also. Only that I saje2 feeling important.

I have been at the same place doing almost the same thing facing the same group of people ever since the last I updated this dearest blog of mine. Yes, I am loyal like that to HOH. *roll eyes*

Anyway, I am still surveying market for future employment as well as thinking when to apply for it. I should not talk only without any actions. For a start, I have decided to revamp my resume and create a new cover letter which will add an extra oomph when read.

I need to be mentally prepared for bigger responsibilities, less slacking and a more appropriate dress code to work. I am currently going work with T-shirt, pants and crocs. Eh what you all expect.. I am working just above Sheng Shiong supermarket okay. Not some CBD areas. Should my future employment be at CBD area I am so gonna be broke before I even start working since I need to invest in proper office wears. Haiz.

Let’s move on to a better topic, shall we? How about talking about marriage? Haha! Aku dah jadi minah kawin-kawin these few days I tell you. Not talking to BF obviously. Nanti takut pulak mamat tu. Well, I have been getting views from my fellow friends about marriage and to be precise the wedding. One of my friends actually suggested on choosing a date first so that I can slowly and carefully plan towards it. Okay I have even gotten options for the dates from Nad yesterday while attempting to webcam with her. Her webcam mintak kena throw lor that one. It only showed a grey screen throughout our conversation. Potential dates for ceremony are within the December period. The solemnization as spoken with BF just now might be months earlier.

Both of us have varied concerns. His concern is the HDB flat while mine is pretty shallow I must say i.e. the wedding details.

Ermm..Enough of the sneak preview of my wedding preparation. Will continue with it once more things are planned.

I am looking forward for December to arrive due to the two great trips I will be having! At the same time, I am worried about the financial planning aspect of it. I need to save for my marriage and now to save up for my Vietnam and KL trips. I foresee myself spending a considerable sum during both trips. I better prepare my Excel sheet now.

I would like to think that I have posted up a decent entry of what’s up and latest. For further updates you may wish to follow me on twitter instead. Place where I prefer to be recently. (",)

Currently, I prefer twitter over blog-spot.
Thus, it explains my inactive account.
For any latest updates, you can read my tweets.

Lots of love,
Halimah Omar

Damn! Muttons never fail to crack me up. They are so funny! :) Alright, I have not been updating since like..four or five months ago? Within that period, ALOT of things have happened. Ok fine! I am lying. Nothing much was happening afterall. Apart from the crazy mugging in May. The weird thing is I kinda prefer mugging for exams rather than going to office. Opps! Taking from where I left in February, I did an internal switch from doing PI claim to Matrimonial and Probate. It is definitely a more challenging avenue as well as a great way to give my resume an extra oomph! Let's not talk about work right. It is only half the year that has gone by but I cant wait for December already! HAHA! I know, I know..But I cant help it. December is such a great month full of festivities and of course Vietnam and hopefully..BATAM! :D Oh! I have been reading the Shopaholics series and the irony of it..I feel a much stronger urge to SHOP! I have been this itch to splurge on a good timepiece and something caught my eyes when I was at Hougang Mall window shopping after my final paper on 27th May. Almost one month has passed by and I still cant get it off my head! Ok here it is.. Isnt it GORGEOUS?? Should I get it?? Should I?? Just now, I finally decided that I should invest on contact lenses. My vision is getting worse and a visit to the optician just now was depressing! Aiyah, I want to cry lah! Such a huge jump you know. In anyway made myself a new pair of specs and going to start taking better care of my eyesight. No more straining my eyes!! Maybe I should start eating plenty of Vitamin A! Since I purchased those supplements for the eyes might as well start consuming it. Hmm.. Going to start tonight! I can do it!! I think I have gain more weight!! I want to take up swimming to past the time. I am so dead bored now without school! Ever since exams ended, I have been catching up with my poly friends as well as the usual group of friends. It felt quite good and very interesting. Especially when you received news like a friend was 4-5 months pregnant! Congratulations! You know I cant imagine myself being pregnant at 25! I know it is the right age to be pregnant and having children BUT I cant imagine myself doing that. Changing diapers, breastfeeding, waking up in wee hours of the morning etc etc. Not prepared for that yet! Maybe we should not over think about all these and just go with the flow. Perhaps that might help I guess. Hehe. NAD! If you are reading this..I MISS YOU LAH!! :( I want to fly to Australia BUT my bank account does not permit. Insyallah next year alright! Which month will be a good time? Hehe. I know my entry is in a mess but I want to share with you guys this awesome song sang by a talented man I found in Youtube! Loving Bruno! I shall end with this beautiful song as a lullaby! Goodnight lovely people! Peace! :D Oh I particularly love this..Somebody actually mixed Bruno's version with Natasha Bedingfield's version. I was in awe!!! *swoon*

My Life: Change

I am 24 years old now. Any difference? The biological clock is ticking.
Apart from being closer to the BIG 3, my lifestyle is revamped.
In term of work life, I switched to doing Matrimonial and Probate instead. A refreshing start for 2010. Thus far, embracing the changes that come with it.

Study; I am preparing for the Exam which is in May. Quite crucial since the classification will be based on the Year 2 and Year 3 grades.

Ps: I was supposed to revise instead of blogging right now. My procrastination is getting the better of me. Haiz!

It's already approaching the end of February 2010. Time seems to be dashing across and at times I lost sight of it.

I hope more great things will be along the way for me as well as for the rest of you.

Honestly, I don't even know who else will be loyal enough to visit my site. Haha. In any event, I will continue to write for myself and I will not remove blogging from my to-do lists ever (or at least till I grow old and senile).

To those who celebrated on the 14th February, HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! May you all have abundance of love and prosperous year ahead. Muacks! :D

Dead & Gone!!



I miss performing...Haiz..

Mim Alif Lam Alif Sim....

the best described my current state. I have not even started on a proper revision on any of my subjects including Contract Law. Gosh..This is so sucky. I have been slacking far too much and I think December is a perfect time to start the engine before it's too late.

All that said, I cant find the drive to begin!!!!!! HELP!!

Exposed

I am known for my controlled emotions but does not always mean it is healthy.
Once awhile you just need to eradicate unwanted thoughts, feelings etc from your system so that it wont overflow and spill. Now that will be a messy affair if it happen to spill.

Well I am thankful that I am able to detoxify occasionally.
There is always one particular individual I can count on to be the shoulder to cry on, the listening ears to share my ups & downs and the hands
that catch me when I fall.

I am thankful that I fate bring me to him.

Oh, I do not discriminate.

Thus, I would like to express my gratitude to the friends that have been there when I broke down and torn apart. Been there when I soar up high and smile.

Thank you.

Standstill

The hiatus of thoughts is over now.
I hereby resume writing per normal.
Alright, life like was mentioned in my earlier entry is pretty much monotonous.
With the routine-base activities I am going through daily, it is making my brain sluggish.
Plus, my creativity juice has dried up and never replenish since God knows when.

My current state is very disheartening.
It is similar to suffering from chronic illness minus the physical pain.
Mine is more of a mental torture. It hurts more as the year progress to an end.

Thankfully, I have my studies to keep me sane. Only for a short while.
Apart from that, I don't feel that I accomplish much within this year.
There is no new challenges in my life. No doubt my job is getting taxing with added responsibilities. But there is still no pleasure. Like things got stale along the way.

Haiz..I am jaded.

Monotony

Black & Bleak.
I am hyperventilating in an empty room.
Why? Why do you do that to me?

Rip me apart and leave.
Why? Why do you do that to me?

Twirling with my thoughts.
Push me into a whirlpool.
Why? Why you don't even care?

Is it time yet? To make my exit.

I've gone a long way to give it all up.
Despite feeling sore over it, I will continue to move ahead and not look back.
No turning back. It is something I will not do. Not ever.

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We have come a long way to where we are now.
In order to take another step ahead, a lot of factors need to be taken into consideration.
Yes, it is not easy but nothing is difficult with proper planning and teamwork(very important!)
I hope we will be ready for that next step. :)

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Have not been religiously blogging due to various commitments. Drained.
However, for the sake of better future I shall persevere and endure.

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Hope it is not too late to publicly wish..

Nur Ashikin Binte Tahir, a belated HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY!
May you be blessed with happiness.
Don't feel that insecure about he forgetting to wish. I'm sure it was an honest mistake.

Muhammad Fuad Bin Muhammad Zain, a HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY!
May you be successful in your life! Learn to be more patient in life ya! :)

All Muslims around the world, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!
In times of happiness, don't forget the less fortunate ones.
Be appreciative 'cos you will never know when you will face with hardships.
Celebrate and Eat in Moderation this festive month! :)

I am sorry for being ignorant and stuck in my own bubble for a very long time.
Oh yes, I am guilty.
I was distant. I was cold. I was thoughtless.
It took me so long to realize all these.
I am extremely slow in processing it all.
On the brighter note, I have tomorrow onwards to make it up to those people that matters.
SMSes. Random meet-ups. Chat. Or whatever is there. I shall spare those precious time for precious people like you. :)

Okay, I am rebuilding my goals in life.
It is still under construction though but I definitely have a clearer idea of what I want to achieve in life.

You know what, I can stand on my own two feet. I am as much capable as you are.
I dont need your kindness, thank you very much.

And what a friend said is true.."We can spare a few minutes or a few seconds to listen to them but they can't do the same to us"

Oh well, life's unfair and I realize it already. Therefore, I can start coping my future in a better way. :)

That's all for my random and messy thoughts. Bye!

The End of Endless Procrastinations

Settled and watched the followings..

1) Bride Wars
2) 17 Again
3) It's a boy girl thing
4) Definitely, Maybe
5) John Tucker Must Die
6) P.S I love you

And even ended up watching a documentary about Bermuda Triangle.

Hmm..Increment have just passed and oh well slowly climbing up the ladder and start to wonder whether should I choose another track to move ahead.

Oh! Nadira is in town and have yet to meet up with her. So the coming week shall be spend meeting up with her. It's just 6 months huh? Feel much longer than that.

Planning on a not-so shopping spree today. We'll see how it goes.

School starting in a month time and Ramadhan is also around the corner. Life's gonna be hectic again.

Before I forget, I am currently into sketching/drawing whatever you call it. I am trying to come out with a few art pieces for own collection. Haha. So far did two. Hmm..

Alright..till we meet again soon! Bye!

Take a Break!

Oh great! Almost 2 months have passed and my break is coming to an end on 7th September!
Only now I managed to meet up with a friend to get tons of movies to watch.
Ya what a waste for not having those movies earlier to kill the time!
So to compensate for the loss I decided to do a movie marathon!
I started yesterday and I still have plenty of catching up to do.
Therefore, in order to expedite matter I am listing down the movies I am dying to watch.

1. Bride Wars
2. 17 Again
3. 21
4. It's a Boy Girl Thing
5. Fracture
6. Untraceable
7. Conspiracy
8. Knowing
9. My Sassy Girl
10. My Blueberry Nights
11. The Promotion
12. Thank You for Smoking
13. Definitely, Maybe
14. Dark Floors
15. Teeth
16. The Great Debaters
17. Reservation Road
18. Meet Dave

Wokay! I think it's over ambitious to complete the list but I think it's possible! Let the race begin!

Alright, I have absolutely nothing about my life I wish to update for the time being so so..till then! Sayonara people!!

Childhood Bliss

How perfect it is if life can be as sweet as cotton candy and ice lemon tea!
Unfortunately, it is not.
So we make do of what we possess to the best of our ability and make imperfection seems perfect.
Even in the smallest of things, we CAN be happy and chirpy.

Currently, I find pleasure & happiness in COLORS and CARTOONS.
And I find the perfect balance in these..

Okay, I think I am financially atrocious this month.
I did not set aside my savings unlike any other months.
I did too much unnecessary shopping which I should have considered first.
My indulgence got the best of me. Financially.

I am going to be declared broke soon but in the meantime I am still sustaining.
I hope I can last till the 26th! *pray & meditate*

When two worlds collide, explosion is an understatement

Finally, I redeemed myself from 6 days of worthless activities.
Long breaks are seriously unhealthy and it keeps me away from doing constructive work.

By the way, he is freaking me out with his dedication to studies and work.
He seems to be putting in ten times extra effort than what I did in the 1st year.
He definitely will not be facing any problems in his studies.

Alright, I have been kinda holding on a dream but nowadays this dream is giving me chills somehow.
As time tick by, two years wont be that long afterall. Am I prepared? Hell no!

I am not prepared for so many things. Especially religiously.
My knowledge is insufficient and I am scared.
Of course I need to start somewhere and I don't even know where and how.
I am not gaining knowledge to lead me through just for the two years but to lead me through my life. My future.

Hmm...Perhaps this long break can be useful to sort my life out and to do some re-adjustments.

Oh well, nowadays constant bickering seem to be a norm. Our differences seem to be much more apparent now then it has been years before. I am sorry for being so intolerant and petty. I think I shouldn't treat you differently from others.
I shouldn't impose a different standards on you. I am so sorry for being very difficult.
I, myself cant seem to understand my actions sometimes.
Maybe I just crave extra attention from you. Maybe I am not even thinking.
I spurt out words that pierce like a dagger. Yet you still stay. I thank you for that.
For believing in me when no one else did.
For being by my side when I was alone.
For sharing my joy and wiping my tears.

I know this is such a private affair to be shared with the whole world but since it reveals nothing too personal so I don't mind posting it up.