22 November 2012

I feel like blogging. Just because. 

Anyway, it has been more than a year. Obviously many things happened. 2012 has been nothing but a smooth sailing year despite the hitches along the way. That is normal in life.

This year it really got me thinking what I want to do with my life. Finally I am a graduate! After 4 years of torture, I finally am able to earn my degree. But then, I asked myself..what's next? Where do I go from here? I am practically lost. After much self-reflection, I came to a realization. As nerdy as this may sound, I enjoy studying/learning. I love the frustration, the sense of achievement and the Eureka moment that comes with it. Oh well, now I cant possibly enroll myself in another degree or invest in Masters. This year I am making a huge commitment i.e. marriage. 

Yeah, at 26 years old many of my friends are either married, pregnant or already have a family of four. I am about to enter into the next phase of life with different challenges and responsibilities. There are alot of uncertainties and questions playing in my head but all I can do is to leave it to fate. Of course, I will try to my utmost ability to be what I am supposed to be. My major concern is when I have my own children to care for. Will I be a good mother to them? Will I be a good nurturer, caregiver and disciplinarian to my children? Questions that have no answers at this point of time. When I reach that stage, I will tell you about it.

It is officially 23 days to the day. Earlier this month, I wasn't feeling it. But now knowing that time is ticking by, I am starting to get a little nervous. I pray for things go on smoothly. Till then, I shall get myself busy at work and with tying loose ends for the wedding.


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