27 October 2006

Number of the day is:

TEN
10
SEPULUH
Like I said in my previous entry, today is a special day and of course it is. It will never fail to be special.. errmm FOREVER!
It is approximately 5 mins to a loong-awaited Tv program. I think I have mentioned it earlier as well so I wont repeat it anymore. Anyway, after much consideration and weighing the pros n the cons..I finally make up my mind to watch the MUSICAL. I am so so so excited about it! Oh ya! I forget to add this. After a PAINFUL sacrifice as well that I finally make my decision. I have to forgo my initial intention to purchase for myself a decent, inexpensive digicam. Haiz. Nevermind. I guess there is always next month as long as my source of income is still available and no intention of mine to quit as yet..There will always be next month to look forward to.
I am quite contented with the accelerating amount that is accumulating every month. I am so proud of my planning. It works well so far. Soon need to amend the plan and execute it as well. And at least for now I have some plans in mind which will be left pending for the time being. Need the right time and ..... to carry it out. I wont expect too much from now on. I think the reason why i was so devastated and disappointed back then was because my expectation was too high. Well, expectation can leads to destruction sometimes.

25 October 2006

Let me start it off with a special message to my beloved friend

HAPPY TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY NADIRA!!!
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU! HEHE!
HOPE YOU DID ENJOY YOUR DAY..
FRIENDS FOR LIFE YA!

2nd day of Raya and I worked. So totally no mood i tell you. I was stoning at work most of the time. Yesterday was fun! Crap with the cousins and crack jokes. I love it but abit sad at a point of time. No need to elaborate on that. Oh! I am so looking forward to spend this festive season with my fellow friends. Hope we all can go visiting together-gether. It will sure be fun. Right Nad? Hehe.

Wohoo! At last it is raining today. A very nice weather to relax plus the hazy condition is improving GREATLY. Wishing for it to disappear soon.

I am about to have things to spice up my unhappening, boring weekends very soon. Hurray! Thanks to the people who allow it to happen. I shall plan my weekends so that I have a very very NICE weekends to look forward to. There are plenty of FREE events at esplanade to look forward to. I really wanna watch Puteri Gunung Ledang but too expensive. Sad! Never the mind this 27th October 2006 at 8:30pm on SURIA..they will be showing Puteri Gunung Ledang the Movie. I definitely will catch as an alternative to the musical one that i am about to forgo.

*yawn*

Haiyah..So early and yet i am so sleepy. I shall go rest for now. Toodle doodle dee!

24 October 2006

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

06's Raya have a whole new meaning to it. No more about money or pretty clothes. It is about something else. Something that is felt. Not seen, heard or spoken. It is within us. Everyone of us...

21 October 2006

Hey..Guess what I found in the internet today? I will share it with you guys. Just for interest sake. 10 things men want in a woman. Interesting and kinda true i think. But i think in real life you just have to go with your guts ladies..

Knows what she wants
Confidence is still the name of the game. Many men listed trying to hard to please others (including them) as a turn-off. Instead, women who know what they want (and aren't afraid to ask for it) were described as attractive, sexy and desirable.

Makes me laugh
A sense of humor is as important to men as it is to women. After all, a relationship without its fair share of laughter gets old pretty quickly, if it gets started at all. Lighthearted, witty or utterly ridiculous doesn't seem to matter, as long as you get each other's jokes and aren't afraid to throw dignity to the wind and get silly sometimes.

Takes care of herself
Yes, looks made the list. But no one cited "beauty" or "great legs" among his criteria. Instead, it seems that looking "put together" is essential. Men admitted that they want a woman to "put time into her appearance" and be generally neat and organized while avoiding the "high maintenance" category.

Shares my interests
If you can't agree on what to do together, it gets complicated to be together. It is important to guys that their girls have common interests (or be open to them). Whether they're into rock climbing or old movies, they'd much rather have you along. And even if it's not your thing, simply being curious and open-minded about their work and hobbies can be enough to satisfy their need to be understood.

Surprises me
It's actually not much of a surprise; spontaneity ranked high as a very desirable trait in a woman, though the quality earned varying definitions. For some it was the inclination to make spur-of-the-moment decisions or having a generally "adventuresome" personality. For others it was enough that a woman thought differently than they did and had the ability to surprise them with her outlook, her suggestions or her actions.

Impresses me
Many women get the message that men are threatened or turned off by intelligent, powerful women, but according to the source, that's pure fiction. Guys want someone they can respect. They cited intelligence as a highly desirable quality; quite a few admitted that they preferred a woman who is more intelligent than they are. Strong really is beautiful, so put your best self forward.

Doesn't care what I think
It's not always what they say to our faces, but guys claim to respect a woman who does her own thing, even when it isn't aligned with what he wants. Independence is strong and attractive, and it's a plus when he knows you're autonomous enough to be on your own and have a good time without him.

Tells it straight
Guys don't want to have to play games or guess what a woman wants, so they're drawn to honesty, sincerity and the ability to communicate clearly. If you're straightforward about how you feel and what you want, he can react to you rather than waste time trying to gauge what's really going on. Men aren't exactly pros when it comes to reading our minds, and they know it. Being upfront about how you feel can make it a little easier on everyone.

Cares about me
They didn't seem as concerned with being the sun to her earth as they were interested in women who are genuinely compassionate. While a girl who is the center of her own universe might be intriguing in the beginning, it gets old fast, and men want to be treated with kindness and respect as much as women do. They also notice how we act when it's not about them: back-stabbing and cattiness score high as major turn-offs.

Confuses me
Don't ever feel that you're beholden to one version of yourself or that he'll lose interest if you reveal your "dark" side. Men are strangely drawn to contradictions, and the polarities of your personality are what make you uniquely you. Let yourself be bookish and passionate, conservative but spontaneous, lighthearted and intellectual -- those warring contradictions that can make you crazy can also make you mysterious and continually surprising.
3 days to HARI RAYA!
I'm having PMS big time. This is terrible. I need to get hold of myself and start to enjoy the upcoming festive ocassion. I need to be in my festive mood soon.
Oh anyway, yesterday was my 2nd time going to Geylang. OMG! The earrings!! Those bollywood kind really drive me crazy. And as expected I bought those. 3 pairs in fact. Actually wanna buy more but must be thrifty. Haha!
And shit lah..Have to give Raya money to ppl while others happily collecting money. NO more DUIT raya for me!! *cries*

To those non-muslims and to those muslims that never seem to be fasting..

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!
From the bottom of mera dil (my heart).

20 October 2006

ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I feel so irritated and agitated at almost ANYTHING and EVERYTHING.
Gosh I need a break. From all these. I am sick and tired of going through it every single day. I thought after yesterday I will feel better today. BUT i am so wrong.

I am so so so drained. Emotionally.
I want to give up but I want to stay on.
I want to quit but my heart says otherwise.
I hate feeling like this. I hate being stuck in between.

I am sorry I dont seem as strong as you thought i will be.
I am sorry if i dont understand.
I am sorry i cant be the person you want me to be.
I am sorry for being so difficult.
I am sorry for being such a pain.
I am sorry if i sound hurtful.

The feeling deep down just seem to ache very badly.
It resurfaces even more these days.
It hurt so much i often feel so numb.
It make me wanna breakdown and cry but there's no more tears.

Will things end up my way? Like how i envision it?
I HATE YOU for making me like this.
I HATE YOU. can you just vanish into thin air so that i need not have to face you every single day in that kind of condition? condition which only makes my blood boils even more with hatred. the condition that is so painful to watch.

18 October 2006

Who knows what used to be something I never think of taking seriously might soon be my career in a long run. Law? It never register in my brain before and now i am considering taking Diploma in Law. Can you believe it?! This is totally random and I am beginning to steer into a different direction. I am revamping my future goals. Maybe this is fate. Maybe there is underlying meaning behind all these. From the job enquiry up till now.

We will see what fate have in store for me. Hmm..

17 October 2006

"Ewah ewah kain langsir ela-ela..Datuk janggut putih nenek rambut merah..Emak jangan berletih bapak jangan marah..jangan masuk kolong..Hari ini HARI RAYA!"

Whee! In less than a week we, muslims gonna celebrate Hari Raya. Guess what? My lawyer gave me a HUGE Hari Raya Hamper! Cool! And my work place is also ready for Raya! I got my new work table just now and it's GREEN! Like ketupat rite? So happy. Now my area is at least much neater and organise. Ok like every Hari Raya..the norm will always be the norm. We will always exchange Hari Raya cards or e-cards or something like that asking for forgiveness. Since blog is a very very public place and very accessible let me post up my Raya message here instead. Save cost and everyone can read. Easy for me easy for you!

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Dear Friends and you lovely readers out there,

I take this opportunity to seek for forgiveness for all my wrongdoings especially with regard to what i have said in front or behind you. Hope we can start a new chapter and so I can have more opportunities to create more bad things to you and ask for forgiveness again later. HAHA! Kidding lah. Like I was saying, let's start afresh and forget the past 'cos what is important is the present and the future that awaits us.
I wish you guys all the best in what ever you are doing (of course the good things only), good health, prosperity and progress for our nation. HAHA! ok again nonsense. But I hope you get what i mean. Please remember no matter where you are and how long I have lose contact with you, I will still cherish those days we spent and knowing you once is already a pleasure.
Lastly, wish you all muslims and non-muslims out there..SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN & HAPPY HOLIDAY respectively.

Yours truly,
Halimah Omar (aka Hally or whatever nickname that was given by different individuals)

15 October 2006

Ok people!! Back again..at this hour I am still awake. Surprise anyone? No? Nvm..Haha!
Aniwae, just reached home from watching Magus Luna 2. It's been like sooooooo long lah since i last visited Techno and the place never change. Gosh it housed alot of our fun conversations while eating the chicken cutlet rice and drinking ice-lemon tea!! Met ex-dramatec members and of course the juniors. It was like reunion kinda thing and i enjoyed myself.

I think i shall reserve my comments to myself. If you wanna know you can ask me yourselves and I can gladly share my views with you guys.

And..Shit! I miss acting big-scale performance! and most importantly..I miss being BUSY! ok maybe you guys out there will think i'm nuts but I am seriously missing my used-to-be hectic lifestyle. Wanna know why? Becos there seemed to be a kind of adrenaline rush when you are busy and alot of excitement. Suddenly when you are thrown into a routined lifestyle, you feel caged! WAHAHA!
Ok i dunno what i am talking about. But for those who get what i mean..congratulation to you. You are on your way to be the next SINGAPORE BRAINIEST KID! * throws confetti*

Took a few pics with Nad's digicam and perhaps might be uploading it here. see how lah eh. Nw i am itching to get a digicam for myself!! So i need not have to rely on other people and bugging them for pics. BUT shah..I still want all those pictures you owe me! This is totally not professional and at the rate you are going..I am not gonna hire you as my wedding photographer ah! Lebih rela hire orang tanjung pinang sey!