I've been meaning to post up this entry but I cant find the time to.Today yet another postponement so here I am feeling quite free to type out it.
I am not sure whether it is appropriate to put this up here since it is a public blog. However after much consideration i decide to go ahead with it.
To those who matters,
I am sorry if for countless of times I have turn you down for an outing or gathering or anything within that matter. I am not forgetfuland I am not ungrateful. It always been difficult to make decision who to go out with. It always been difficult trying to make time for each and everyone of you. I am not trying to sound as if I am so greatly in demand. No. That is not what I am trying to imply. All I am saying is that I am not always there when you guys need me to. I am trying to make time for everybody and hey it isnt easy. I trust your understanding towards this matter. All I am trying to do is make things better. So I apologise once again if at any time I am unable to be there for you guys.
Ps:You know I have always cherish your friendship. Friends Forever!Haha.
Alright I've said it all and I wont repeat myself again.
Let me proceed to another area of concern. A few lyrics from the songs I've been listening to the pastfew days. By the way, this is all taken from the same Boyband,Backstreet Boys. Therefore, to all the Backstreet Boys' fans including you Nad..Enjoy!
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What Makes you Different (makes you beautiful)
You don't run with a crowd
You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
Baby, that's why you captured my heart
I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know what you have within
When I look at you, I see something rare
A rose that can go anywhere (go anywhere)
And there's no one I know that can compare
CHORUS
What makes you different, makes you beautiful
What's there inside you, shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love
I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me
Hey, yeah
You got something so real
You touched me so deep (touched me so deep)
Say material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You won me with all that you do
And I want to take this chance to say to you
CHORUS Repeat
You don't know how you touched my life
Oh in so many ways I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
You saw the little things that make you beautiful to me (so beautiful) What makes you...
Chorus Repeat
Everything you do is beautiful (so beautiful)
Love you give shines right through me (shines right through me)
Everything you do is beautiful (oh)
You're beautiful to me (to me)
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I Promise You (With Everything I Am)
It’s in the silences
The words you never say
I see it in your eyes
Always starts the same way
It seems like everyone we know is breaking up
Does anybody ever stay in love anymore
Chorus:
I promise you
From the bottom of my heart
I will love you ‘til death do us part
I promise you
As a lover and a friend
I will love you like I’ll never love again
With everything I am
(ooh)
I see you look at me
When you think I’m not aware
You’re searching for clues
Of just how deep my feelings are
How do you prove the sky is blue
The ocean’s wide
All I know is what I feel
When I look into your eyes
CHORUS
Bridge:
Oh, There are no guarantees
That’s what you always say to me
But late at night I feel the tremble in your touch (Oh yeah)
What I’m trying to say to you
I never said to anyone
CHORUS (x2)
You're everything I am
Oh yeah
With everything I am
17 April 2007
15 April 2007
The weather is causing some negative effects on me. I am feeling very very sleepy and lethargic. I dont feel like doing anything. Just lazing around. Afterall, it's Sunday. Sunday is always stay-home day.
Yesterday, I went for groceries shopping with mom at Giant, Parkway Parade. I decided to buy weighing scale and it turned out that decision was not a good one. In one way of looking at it, it allows you to manage your weight properly. But in another, it causes serious depression. I was so depressed with my weight. I gain kilos. This is unhealthy and I need to find that determination to exercise regularly. Haiz..
I am slowly dozing off while typing this. I need the bed now and shall continue with this later.
Yesterday, I went for groceries shopping with mom at Giant, Parkway Parade. I decided to buy weighing scale and it turned out that decision was not a good one. In one way of looking at it, it allows you to manage your weight properly. But in another, it causes serious depression. I was so depressed with my weight. I gain kilos. This is unhealthy and I need to find that determination to exercise regularly. Haiz..
I am slowly dozing off while typing this. I need the bed now and shall continue with this later.
13 April 2007
To cut down on wasting too much time updating this blog every single day and switching on my computer which runs at a painfully slow speed, I decided to condense the entire week of activities in various entries posted on the same day. The entries will go in chronological order. The earliest to the latest.
Previously, I have left you guys with me venting my anger on this idiotic computer of mine. So I shall not start cursing on it once over again.
Wednesday,11th April 2007
I worked till quite late pass my normal working hours just to dosome minor administrative work which I dragged to do. No matter howmuch I hate it I am force to do it or else the accountant will startchasing me for it. Therefore, to avoid future annoying calls from herI decided to rush everything and get it over and done with.
Thursday, 12th April 2007
Oh my! The volcano had erupted and the lava was spilling out far toofast. It was unstoppable. Anyway, it wasnt that sort of natural disaster that I am talking about but am refering to someone.In fact,it was one of my colleagues. She started exploding too suddenly.It is ridiculous i tell you! She was saying we are selfish etc etc. The tension was so great. I just kept silent. I was honestly pissed offwith her for some of the things she said. Eventhough she was angry she should not say certain things. Even the calmest human will be angry with that. I decided to give in and called the technician to repair the faulty photocopier. And the most irritating part, nobodyelse even bother! These people ought to be shot. It was definitely a crazy day and it also make me realise too many politics going on in the office. That make me extra cautious of what i said in the office.My lawyer is right. Mind your own business and of course I heed his advise. I am definitely minding my own business. I do my job and once the clock strike 6pm I am off from there, relieve.
Friday, 13th April 2007
There was some unspoken tension in the morning. However, things improved as the day proceeds. I am not superstitious about today but some major coincidence happened. Funny one indeed. Firstly, I forgotten to bring along out of all things my wallet! Haha! I had to borrow somecash from my colleague for lunch. Thank god I didnt have any plans to meet up with anyone today. Or else I dont know how i will pull itthrough. Okay, secondly here's an interesting event that occured justnow. Guess what..I picked up a call and the person on the other lineclaimed that someone uses the number to harrass him. A lady accussed him of seducing her husband! Outrageous! Then he told me about how he was trying to tell the lady he is a guy and how can he possibly be seducing her husband. He wanted to report the matter to the police but somehow put it on hold since we decided to investigate the matter. Surprise..Surprise..We managed to get hold of the real situation. I was flabbergasted by the discovery! This is better than Sci-Fi movie or Discovery Channel. This is reality!
Finally it is weekend! I am super-duper happy that weekend is here.I can take my mind off work. The neverending work. One of my colleagues is off to Thailand. I envy her. I need a vacation too! I dont mind Malaysia as long as it takes my mind off work. I am totally dragging to go work on Monday because I know what is in store for me. A stack Writs need to be issued. Another stack of quantification need be done. Haiz. I feel like quitting but I cant afford to quit since I need thecontinous cash flow to survive. Argh! This is worst than Shikin's Laminator's Dilemma.
Previously, I have left you guys with me venting my anger on this idiotic computer of mine. So I shall not start cursing on it once over again.
Wednesday,11th April 2007
I worked till quite late pass my normal working hours just to dosome minor administrative work which I dragged to do. No matter howmuch I hate it I am force to do it or else the accountant will startchasing me for it. Therefore, to avoid future annoying calls from herI decided to rush everything and get it over and done with.
Thursday, 12th April 2007
Oh my! The volcano had erupted and the lava was spilling out far toofast. It was unstoppable. Anyway, it wasnt that sort of natural disaster that I am talking about but am refering to someone.In fact,it was one of my colleagues. She started exploding too suddenly.It is ridiculous i tell you! She was saying we are selfish etc etc. The tension was so great. I just kept silent. I was honestly pissed offwith her for some of the things she said. Eventhough she was angry she should not say certain things. Even the calmest human will be angry with that. I decided to give in and called the technician to repair the faulty photocopier. And the most irritating part, nobodyelse even bother! These people ought to be shot. It was definitely a crazy day and it also make me realise too many politics going on in the office. That make me extra cautious of what i said in the office.My lawyer is right. Mind your own business and of course I heed his advise. I am definitely minding my own business. I do my job and once the clock strike 6pm I am off from there, relieve.
Friday, 13th April 2007
There was some unspoken tension in the morning. However, things improved as the day proceeds. I am not superstitious about today but some major coincidence happened. Funny one indeed. Firstly, I forgotten to bring along out of all things my wallet! Haha! I had to borrow somecash from my colleague for lunch. Thank god I didnt have any plans to meet up with anyone today. Or else I dont know how i will pull itthrough. Okay, secondly here's an interesting event that occured justnow. Guess what..I picked up a call and the person on the other lineclaimed that someone uses the number to harrass him. A lady accussed him of seducing her husband! Outrageous! Then he told me about how he was trying to tell the lady he is a guy and how can he possibly be seducing her husband. He wanted to report the matter to the police but somehow put it on hold since we decided to investigate the matter. Surprise..Surprise..We managed to get hold of the real situation. I was flabbergasted by the discovery! This is better than Sci-Fi movie or Discovery Channel. This is reality!
Finally it is weekend! I am super-duper happy that weekend is here.I can take my mind off work. The neverending work. One of my colleagues is off to Thailand. I envy her. I need a vacation too! I dont mind Malaysia as long as it takes my mind off work. I am totally dragging to go work on Monday because I know what is in store for me. A stack Writs need to be issued. Another stack of quantification need be done. Haiz. I feel like quitting but I cant afford to quit since I need thecontinous cash flow to survive. Argh! This is worst than Shikin's Laminator's Dilemma.
09 April 2007
My computer is such an ASS!
Slow and stubborn.
That explains why I updated this blog less frequently.
However, the reason why I managed to blog today is because I am extra patient with my computer. I waited patiently for the words to appear on the screen after 10 seconds of me typing it out. Imagine 10 extra seconds for 4 pathetic words?! Imagine how much waiting time it incur just to type out a paragraph. And worse if it is 4 paragraphs.
Sigh. Looks like my priority list is changing again. I need a new PC very soon and that will definitely burn a huge hole in my account. Therefore, need to postpone some longing desire. Argh! I hate this. I swear once I get my hands on the digicam I have been longing for I will need a celebration. That will be taking quite sometime. Haiyoh!
Last week was superb! It is always good days when there are holidays. Especially when it occurs on a weekday. I enjoyed myself thoroughly last week i think. My holiday started on Thursday night. Met up with my cousin. She have been pestering me to accompany her watch Mr Bean's Holiday and so I decided to meet up with her on Thursday night. She didnt have to go to school and I didnt have to work the following day. Went to Marina Square. It was an okay movie. Mr Bean with his usual antics but I prefer his TV series. It is definitely far more hilarious as compared to his movies. Nonetheless, I still enjoyed it. By the way, my cousin slept over at my place and we talked till we fell asleep. Fun actually. Something close to slumber party. Oh well maybe not so close afterall. But it was definitely very girlish (in a way).
Friday was another better day for me. What is far more perfect than meeting old friends. Feel like old times. The laughters, crappiness and yes, shikin..It felt so rejuvenating. In other words, I feel young! Just like how you felt shikin with that attire.
Saturday managed to finally watch TMNT. Oh man! I love it. Once again, it felt like old times. However, like what alot of people commented, it was too short.
That's that for the fun times.
Sunday was re-charging energy day in preparation for the next day (Monday aka boring!).
It's April already huh..And I ended my course as well. Now I am reduced to work and Mandarin class. I need to occupy myself with new courses or so. It is fun to rush here and there. At least it keeps me awake and alert all the time rather than feeling like a zombie.
I'm pretty much trying my best to keep in contact with my polymates again. I hope the meeting up session will be on. If not 100% attendance, I am hoping for 40% at least. It's been so long and I have lost contact with almost all of them. What's happening in their lifes? Miss them..
Slow and stubborn.
That explains why I updated this blog less frequently.
However, the reason why I managed to blog today is because I am extra patient with my computer. I waited patiently for the words to appear on the screen after 10 seconds of me typing it out. Imagine 10 extra seconds for 4 pathetic words?! Imagine how much waiting time it incur just to type out a paragraph. And worse if it is 4 paragraphs.
Sigh. Looks like my priority list is changing again. I need a new PC very soon and that will definitely burn a huge hole in my account. Therefore, need to postpone some longing desire. Argh! I hate this. I swear once I get my hands on the digicam I have been longing for I will need a celebration. That will be taking quite sometime. Haiyoh!
Last week was superb! It is always good days when there are holidays. Especially when it occurs on a weekday. I enjoyed myself thoroughly last week i think. My holiday started on Thursday night. Met up with my cousin. She have been pestering me to accompany her watch Mr Bean's Holiday and so I decided to meet up with her on Thursday night. She didnt have to go to school and I didnt have to work the following day. Went to Marina Square. It was an okay movie. Mr Bean with his usual antics but I prefer his TV series. It is definitely far more hilarious as compared to his movies. Nonetheless, I still enjoyed it. By the way, my cousin slept over at my place and we talked till we fell asleep. Fun actually. Something close to slumber party. Oh well maybe not so close afterall. But it was definitely very girlish (in a way).
Friday was another better day for me. What is far more perfect than meeting old friends. Feel like old times. The laughters, crappiness and yes, shikin..It felt so rejuvenating. In other words, I feel young! Just like how you felt shikin with that attire.
Saturday managed to finally watch TMNT. Oh man! I love it. Once again, it felt like old times. However, like what alot of people commented, it was too short.
That's that for the fun times.
Sunday was re-charging energy day in preparation for the next day (Monday aka boring!).
It's April already huh..And I ended my course as well. Now I am reduced to work and Mandarin class. I need to occupy myself with new courses or so. It is fun to rush here and there. At least it keeps me awake and alert all the time rather than feeling like a zombie.
I'm pretty much trying my best to keep in contact with my polymates again. I hope the meeting up session will be on. If not 100% attendance, I am hoping for 40% at least. It's been so long and I have lost contact with almost all of them. What's happening in their lifes? Miss them..
01 April 2007
Today is the One of the Happiest Day of my Life!
Finally I found something for my mom. Birthday and Anniversary gift combined as one. I was relieved that she liked it and even uses it the next day. Phew..Luckily she liked it because seriously I cant find any better gifts to give her.
Things are starting to fall into place. Like pieces of jigsaw puzzles. It begins to create a clear picture. Of my dream. Of my hope. To someone that truly matters, thanks for your continously support and prayer. God finally answers both my and your prayers. I can stop myself from smiling after years of unfulfilling feeling building up. That feeling is slowly fading. New feeling is building up. I really hope for the better in the future.
I have never feel so impatient in my entire life like how i felt yesterday. Yes, it all seems too slow at times. You just wish to be able to command time. Pausing, forwarding, rewinding time as and when you feel like it. Under certain circumstances, I wish to forward time. To make it run faster to reach my goal. However, it wont be the same then. It will defeat the whole purpose. We need time to learn and be wise. We need time to accomplish our separate agendas before heading towards a single pathway. Too many need to be done and you wont know whether you will succeed.
This upcoming week will be a fast one since for me 1 less working day. Early weekend and that means more days to enjoy and relax the mind, body and soul. Shikin, you are definitely right when you said working in the law firm suck out the youth in you. I feel that I'm aging by the seconds at work. I dont welcome Monday with open arms and constantly wish to take MC or Annual leave. However, there will definitely be something to stop me from doing so. The piling files on the table and the pending work that will definitely increases if I take 1 off day. It is already bad enough for 1/2 day. It will double up if it is one day.
ARGHHHH!!!! I hate working!!
My social circle become narrower over time. I meet up with selected people and enjoy it with a small group. It gets more intimate. More freedom of speech. I often think about my coursemates. What are they doing now? How their life has been? And then I pause awhile and start asking why bother. No one seems to bother smsing and asking. I used to sms and say hi to some people. Wanting to meet up again. And then it ends there. No confirmation. It gets annoying. So I make up my mind not to bother.
I have not been reading alot of people's blogs for quite sometime. And since tonight there is opportunity and I am not exhilirated. I decided to pay visit to a blog that caught my attention. There's definitely some shocking updates. My suspicion is proven. I cant believe what I saw. It is true. You are attached! Oh my..I am so happy for you but at the same time I laughed so hard because you have turn mushy. And I find it funny coming from you out of all people. Guess love changes people. Soften their hearts. Hehe!
Finally I found something for my mom. Birthday and Anniversary gift combined as one. I was relieved that she liked it and even uses it the next day. Phew..Luckily she liked it because seriously I cant find any better gifts to give her.
Things are starting to fall into place. Like pieces of jigsaw puzzles. It begins to create a clear picture. Of my dream. Of my hope. To someone that truly matters, thanks for your continously support and prayer. God finally answers both my and your prayers. I can stop myself from smiling after years of unfulfilling feeling building up. That feeling is slowly fading. New feeling is building up. I really hope for the better in the future.
I have never feel so impatient in my entire life like how i felt yesterday. Yes, it all seems too slow at times. You just wish to be able to command time. Pausing, forwarding, rewinding time as and when you feel like it. Under certain circumstances, I wish to forward time. To make it run faster to reach my goal. However, it wont be the same then. It will defeat the whole purpose. We need time to learn and be wise. We need time to accomplish our separate agendas before heading towards a single pathway. Too many need to be done and you wont know whether you will succeed.
This upcoming week will be a fast one since for me 1 less working day. Early weekend and that means more days to enjoy and relax the mind, body and soul. Shikin, you are definitely right when you said working in the law firm suck out the youth in you. I feel that I'm aging by the seconds at work. I dont welcome Monday with open arms and constantly wish to take MC or Annual leave. However, there will definitely be something to stop me from doing so. The piling files on the table and the pending work that will definitely increases if I take 1 off day. It is already bad enough for 1/2 day. It will double up if it is one day.
ARGHHHH!!!! I hate working!!
My social circle become narrower over time. I meet up with selected people and enjoy it with a small group. It gets more intimate. More freedom of speech. I often think about my coursemates. What are they doing now? How their life has been? And then I pause awhile and start asking why bother. No one seems to bother smsing and asking. I used to sms and say hi to some people. Wanting to meet up again. And then it ends there. No confirmation. It gets annoying. So I make up my mind not to bother.
I have not been reading alot of people's blogs for quite sometime. And since tonight there is opportunity and I am not exhilirated. I decided to pay visit to a blog that caught my attention. There's definitely some shocking updates. My suspicion is proven. I cant believe what I saw. It is true. You are attached! Oh my..I am so happy for you but at the same time I laughed so hard because you have turn mushy. And I find it funny coming from you out of all people. Guess love changes people. Soften their hearts. Hehe!
Today is the One of the Happiest Day of my Life!
Finally I found something for my mom. Birthday and Anniversary gift combined as one. I was relieved that she liked it and even uses it the next day. Phew..Luckily she liked it because seriously I cant find any better gifts to give her.
Things are starting to fall into place. Like pieces of jigsaw puzzles. It begins to create a clear picture. Of my dream. Of my hope. To someone that truly matters, thanks for your continously support and prayer. God finally answers both my and your prayers. I can stop myself from smiling after years of unfulfilling feeling building up. That feeling is slowly fading. New feeling is building up. I really hope for the better in the future.
I have never feel so impatient in my entire life like how i felt yesterday. Yes, it all seems too slow at times. You just wish to be able to command time. Pausing, forwarding, rewinding time as and when you feel like it. Under certain circumstances, I wish to forward time. To make it run faster to reach my goal. However, it wont be the same then. It will defeat the whole purpose. We need time to learn and be wise. We need time to accomplish our separate agendas before heading towards a single pathway. Too many need to be done and you wont know whether you will succeed.
This upcoming week will be a fast one since for me 1 less working day. Early weekend and that means more days to enjoy and relax the mind, body and soul. Shikin, you are definitely right when you said working in the law firm suck out the youth in you. I feel that I'm aging by the seconds at work. I dont welcome Monday with open arms and constantly wish to take MC or Annual leave. However, there will definitely be something to stop me from doing so. The piling files on the table and the pending work that will definitely increases if I take 1 off day. It is already bad enough for 1/2 day. It will double up if it is one day.
ARGHHHH!!!! I hate working!!
My social circle become narrower over time. I meet up with selected people and enjoy it with a small group. It gets more intimate. More freedom of speech. I often think about my coursemates. What are they doing now? How their life has been? And then I pause awhile and start asking why bother. No one seems to bother smsing and asking. I used to sms and say hi to some people. Wanting to meet up again. And then it ends there. No confirmation. It gets annoying. So I make up my mind not to bother.
I have not been reading alot of people's blogs for quite sometime. And since tonight there is opportunity and I am not exhilirated. I decided to pay visit to a blog that caught my attention. There's definitely some shocking updates. My suspicion is proven. I cant believe what I saw. It is true. You are attached! Oh my..I am so happy for you but at the same time I laughed so hard because you have turn mushy. And I find it funny coming from you out of all people. Guess love changes people. Soften their hearts. Hehe!
Finally I found something for my mom. Birthday and Anniversary gift combined as one. I was relieved that she liked it and even uses it the next day. Phew..Luckily she liked it because seriously I cant find any better gifts to give her.
Things are starting to fall into place. Like pieces of jigsaw puzzles. It begins to create a clear picture. Of my dream. Of my hope. To someone that truly matters, thanks for your continously support and prayer. God finally answers both my and your prayers. I can stop myself from smiling after years of unfulfilling feeling building up. That feeling is slowly fading. New feeling is building up. I really hope for the better in the future.
I have never feel so impatient in my entire life like how i felt yesterday. Yes, it all seems too slow at times. You just wish to be able to command time. Pausing, forwarding, rewinding time as and when you feel like it. Under certain circumstances, I wish to forward time. To make it run faster to reach my goal. However, it wont be the same then. It will defeat the whole purpose. We need time to learn and be wise. We need time to accomplish our separate agendas before heading towards a single pathway. Too many need to be done and you wont know whether you will succeed.
This upcoming week will be a fast one since for me 1 less working day. Early weekend and that means more days to enjoy and relax the mind, body and soul. Shikin, you are definitely right when you said working in the law firm suck out the youth in you. I feel that I'm aging by the seconds at work. I dont welcome Monday with open arms and constantly wish to take MC or Annual leave. However, there will definitely be something to stop me from doing so. The piling files on the table and the pending work that will definitely increases if I take 1 off day. It is already bad enough for 1/2 day. It will double up if it is one day.
ARGHHHH!!!! I hate working!!
My social circle become narrower over time. I meet up with selected people and enjoy it with a small group. It gets more intimate. More freedom of speech. I often think about my coursemates. What are they doing now? How their life has been? And then I pause awhile and start asking why bother. No one seems to bother smsing and asking. I used to sms and say hi to some people. Wanting to meet up again. And then it ends there. No confirmation. It gets annoying. So I make up my mind not to bother.
I have not been reading alot of people's blogs for quite sometime. And since tonight there is opportunity and I am not exhilirated. I decided to pay visit to a blog that caught my attention. There's definitely some shocking updates. My suspicion is proven. I cant believe what I saw. It is true. You are attached! Oh my..I am so happy for you but at the same time I laughed so hard because you have turn mushy. And I find it funny coming from you out of all people. Guess love changes people. Soften their hearts. Hehe!
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