Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?
-Brandy-

There is a particular story I have been meaning to share with all the readers out here.
So here how it roughly goes..

One fine day, a guy with unknown identity encounter a garden full of beautiful, blooming roses. Without hesitation, he enter the garden admiring the enchanting view. Soon a particular rose caught his attention and he decided to pluck it and bring it along with him. Off he goes to walk further. Throughout his journey, he did encounter more beautiful roses. Some even more beautiful than what he have in his hand. By that time, the rose in his hand is slowly withering away but nonetheless he still hold on to it. Eventhough he have the option to throw it away and pluck a new rose, he still hold on to it. In fact, he hold on to the same exact rose till his last breath.

Life is a matter of choice. Where you are, who you are with and what you want to be. It all depends on the choices you make in life. If you end up being a criminal, blame it on your choice not circumstances. If you end being a lawyer, thanks to your wise choice. :)

According to the non-Islamic calendar, yesterday marked the end of Ramadhan. No more Raya outings that is. That just reminds me that have yet to post all those pictures but come to think of it again, i dont think i will post any soon cos the collection is not completed.

It feels really weird and relaxing at the same time to be at home on a Saturday. Weird because you have nothing better to do so you decide to spring clean the house and relaxing because you sleep almost 12 hours without worries. Isnt life awesome on a Saturday?

Now i have a very strong feeling that i might be bumming at home tomorrow and the following day as well. You might be wondering why the following day? Monday? Because i took 1 day leave from work that is. But I think that is going to be wasted AGAIN. Haiz. This always happen. I always mess up my leave. So here I am wondering what i'm going to do to occupy myself during the free time. I am so not going to stay at home facing the computer again. I can do that at work also. Maybe I shall go to the beach to de-stress myself. I need that badly now. Shit happens nowadays so I need time-out. Away from the civilisation. haha. ok me and my crapping. And soon you will wonder..when am i ever serious? Hmm..I wonder too.

Next top models on the runway show!
Definitely will leave you guys breathless at the end of the show.

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FANTASTIC PLASTIC WORLD

Note: It is taken from Shahdon's LJ. Reserved all rights.

Have you ever wish to turn back time and relive your childhood days? Those days where you used to do silly things and never be laughed at. Instead it was adorable. Those days you explore new things and easily amused by tinnie-winnie discoveries. Those days where buying colouring books, playing jigsaw puzzles and doing up word search is a common thing to be doing. No one will ridicule you doing such activities. But once you reach that maturity level beyond your childhood years, it seems like committing a crime when you start to get in touch with your "childish" side. People will give the same exact response once you reveal to them your "dirty" secret. Remarks like you are too old for those things is often heard.
Hello people try knocking some sense into yourselves. It is never too old to do the things that you love. It is definitely fine to be enjoying art through buying colouring books and colouring it. It is perfectly fine to master the art of analytical skill through playing jigsaw puzzles and word search. It is without doubt more than just a child-play. It is more of how you view things. It is not always 2-dimensional.

Have i told you guys how much I'm in love with SonyErricsons latest creation? Lovely! True beauty indeed.

According to my Hp calendar which is 99.9% accurate today happens to be Shahdon's Birthday. So I like to take this rarest opportunity to wish him.

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY SHAHDON!!!
SERVE THE NATION AND MAKE US PROUD!

It seems that I lack of free time to relax and do nothing nowadays. After work, it is totally draining. Mentally. I never experience things like this before. Only recently that it happen to me. Perhaps one of the reasons is that I am given more work. Well not exactly more work but more to tedious drafting per file. After a few draftings, I end up being so drained that I wish I can be at home sleeping. But unfortunately, by that time it is only 3 or 4pm. A few more hours to go and that is when I find leisure in reading the newspaper/making myself a hot drink/walking to the reception and start a conversation with her. Well that's life in the office for me and I always look forward to my lawyer going to court and those other superiors out of the office leaving the secretaries and the receptionist to conquer the office. It always spell
F-R-E-E-D-O-M for me. At least I need not have to pretend to be busy or being pile with tonnes of work and photocopying. This is life at work and so far I have yet to regret accepting the job offer. In fact it widen my options for my future.

Today I have plenty of time to spare before I'm off to dreamland/tvland i.e Project Runway. I shall update more than usual. Let me enlighten you people with the "What's Happening?". The previous weekends was jam-packed with emotions. You just name it you get it. Emotions apart, let me give a brief highlight of my weekend. Saturday for some reason feels lively. Started the day with Drama (YCP). Rehearsed for Fauzi's Festive Fiasco. Performed soon after that. As usual, YCP never fails to put up a great show. After that headed straight home to freshen up and went out again. Err..I think now my entry sounds more like what-I-did-today kinda shits. I guess that's about it for Saturday. Details shall not be disclosed then.
Sunday was awesome!! For once I had this festive mood in me. Went out as an honorary member and had so much fun. I reached home at a record-breaking time of 1am! Woah..That's totally so rare for me. Thank goodness I am such a forward-looking person and I applied 1/2day leave on Monday beforehand. So I slept for more hours and woke up refreshed. Oh I think wasted that 1/2 day leave about an hour. I am so dumb. I thought I need to report to work at 1pm but instead it was supposedly to be 2pm. Haiyoh! So I reached work at around 12 plus thinking i was going to be late and ended up being too early. I guess cannot blame me lah hor. I'm still new.

Time really flies. Soon the attache is going back to school. I am so going to miss her. I have no more same "kaki" to engage in a youthful conversation with. Haiz.
AND November is ending soon. It is seriously fast! Soon without realizing it is going to be New Year! Of course, new year for me too! :) I think new year will be the happiest day of my life. Ermm..Well maybe ONE of the happiest day. Oh my Birthday is approaching too! 21! Legalise age! Hurray!! I can get ERS!!

Oh Oh Oh!! The GST is increasing by 2% soon. That will be the most tragic day of my life.

Rushing here and there. Beginning to pick up the old momentum. The old lifestyle I used to be living. I am back to it. It feels good. I miss it so much but there is a price to pay. The tiredness and less time spent at home slacking, doing nothing at all. This lifestyle best suit me for the time being since it helps my brain to work better and effectively. I am more alert. That's the advantage of it.

I have decided to produce something written in malay as a closing for today's entry. I am trying to polish up my malay. My mother tongue.

Memang sudah menjadi hukum alam, setiap manusia hidup berpasangan. Tidak kira tua ataupun muda. Namun, bila hati sudah tidak serasi, syurga menjadi neraka. Retak menanti belah. Penceraian menjadi pilihan muktamad. Kisah cinta adam dan hawa berakhir di dalam mahkamah syariah. Di hadapan 2 saksi. Suatu tragedi. Adakah harus disalahkan takdir? Adakah ianya Qada dan Qadar? Ataupun kemahuan hati sendiri? Pelbagai alasan dan penjelasan yang diberi dua pihak. Samada menyalahkan satu sama lain ataupun saling memaafkan.
Seperti kisah cinta Nurul dan Ajai, mereka saling memaafkan. Tetapi yang anehnya kenapa jika sudah saling memaafkan tetap juga mahu berpisah? Mengapa hanya setelah 10 tahun baru kini dapat merasakan ketidakserasian itu? Mengapa setelah lama tinggal bersama membina mahligai bahagia akhirnya runtuh jua? Mestikah kita menunding jari ke arah suratan Illahi?
Aku teringat kata-kata ibuku.."Alah, artis-artis ni semue bukan nye betul sangat. Kahwin lepas tu berterabur"
Itu lah kata-kata ibuku. Mungkin ada betulnya cakap ibu yang pedas dan agak berat-sebelah itu. Pada pengetahuanku, artis-artis ini hanya menujukkan bahawa kata-kata ibu itu benar. Lihat sahaja berapa ramai artis-artis yang bercerai. Erra Fazira, Noraliza Idris, Awie dan ramai lagi. Angkanya semakin meningkat dan terkini ditambah dua.
Tujuanku bukan untuk memburuk-burukkan artis-artis tetapi setakat berkongsi sesuatu diruang ini.
Tidak juga aku mengatakan bahawa penceraian terjadi setakat dikalangan kaum artis sahaja. Itu memanglah tidak benar. Penceraian berlaku disekeliling kita. Puncanya sama. Tiada persefahaman.

Persefahaman penting bukan sahaja di dalam sebuah perkahwinan malah di dalam apa jua jenis hubungan memerlukannya. Persahabatan, keluarga dan pentadbiran sebuah negara.

Muafakat membawa berkat.

~AQUARIUS~

Abstract thoughts.
Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever.
Changing personality.
Attractive.
sexiest out of everyone.
Temperamental.
Quiet, shy and humble.
Honest and loyal.
Determined to reach goals.
Loves freedom.
Rebellious when restricted.
Loves aggressiveness.
Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things.
Loves making friends but rarely shows it.
Horny.
Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious.
Realizing dreams and hopes.
Sharp.
Loves entertainmentand leisure.
Romantic on the inside not outside.
Superstitious and ludicrous.
spendthrift.
Tries to learn to show emotions.

How attractive are you to the opposite gender? Do up this quiz to find out!

1. Which place do u want to have a travel most?
A. Beijing ...........................................go to q.2
B. Tokyo ...........................................go to q.3
C. Paris ............................................go to q.4

2. Have you ever cried when u see a touching movie?
A. Yes......................................go to q.4
B. No........................................go to q.3

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend still has not come after an hour of your date with him/her, what will you do?
A. wait for another 30 mins.................go to q.4
B. leave immediately.........................go to q.5
C. wait until he/she comes..................go to q.6

4. Do u like to go to see a movie alone?
A. Yes......................................go to q.5
B. No........................................go to q.6

5. When he/she asks for a kiss in your first date, what will you do?
A. Refuse...................................go to q.6
B. light kiss on his/her forehand...........go to q.7
C. Agree and kiss him/her...................go to q.8

6. Are you a humorous person?
A. I think I am.............................go to q.7
B. I think I am not.........................go to q.8

7. Do you think you are a capable leader?
A. Yes......................................go to q.9
B. No.......................................go to q.10

8. Which gender will you choose to be born if you are given a chance?
A. Male.....................................go to q.9
B. Female...................................go to q.10
C. I don't mind.............................Type D (go straight to results below)

9. Have you ever got more than one boyfriends or girlfriends at a time A.Yes......................................Type B (go straight to results below)
B. No.......................................Type A (go straight to results below)

10. Do you think you are intelligent?
A. Yes......................................Type B (go straight to results below)
B. No.......................................Type C (go straight to results below)


RESULTS
Type A : Congratulations! You can extremely attract the opposite sex! You possess a charming beauty in the eyes of them. You not only have a pretty figure, but also have a humorous and gentle personality. You should be a literate person and know how to get along with people and can allocate your time well, thus you are always popular among the opposite sex.

Type B : Quite good! You can easily attract the opposite sex, but you will not easily into the loving trap. Your humor makes them want to get along with you. He/She will be happy being with you!

Type C : Not bad! You cannot attract the opposite sex very well, but you still have something good which make them like to get along with you. You should be an honest person and have a unique view in seeing things. You are quite friendly in the eyes of your friends.

Type D : Oh! You do not attract the opposite sex. You do not have much knowledge, and not much intrinsic humane values. You are too rude to the opposite sex. Thus you are not very popular among them.

Today marks the end of my probation. Like finally. It is now 3 months into law. How am i feeling about this whole new experience? One word to describe it all. Crazy. Yes it is a CRAZY experience altogether.

Let me list down everything here:

1. I never NEVER even thought of any LAW-related jobs to begin with.
2. The ONLY job interview I went for FUN. No preparation beforehand.
3. The least expected one to be called up after the following 2 weeks.
4. My first-ever REAL job with me having NO experience at all in the area.
5. Working in this law-firm changes my perception about law.
6. Finally, I might be pursuing Diploma in Law if my impression about law remain unchanged.

I am unsure how long i am about to stay in the company and this line but hope there are better plans out there for me. I know for sure I will definitely get bored of the routined weekdays but for now it have yet to reach to a point of intolerance. So i am keeping my options open for now. I am still missing Science. I'm a nerd. Definitely.