Rejuvenating!

Ah..It's been awhile I updated my song list. That's when I decided to vary abit my music taste.
Instead of the normal kinda music I often listen to, I decided to opt for instrumentals!! So you know lah hor who I turned to for those type of music. Who else rite..The KING of Classicals lah!
Wah seriously amused with his amount of songs! Tsk tsk..
I asked for a few gave me more than 10 I think. But good lah! Hehe!
Thanks hor..
Oh shit!
*stare at the clock*
It's 2:33 am!!
*faints*
It's late..Very late. It's been awhile since I stay up this late.
And I'm so dead. I'm meeting him in a few hours time and I'm not asleep yet.
I hope I can wake up early..and if there's eye bags..
Shall go for the trusty ice packs! Hehe!
Alrite alrite..I think I should be off to sleep in awhile..
But then again I'm still online wif NAD. Haha!

Are you afraid of the WOLF?

Oh my GOD!! I'm freaking full right now and I dunno why.
After so long finally I got to eat at Techno once again.
Even paid a visit to (or easy said CRASH) Dramatec.
Wah so good..Was welcomed with open hands by the juniors :)
And 2nd OMG..To the WOLF game!
I love it to bits eventhough I just played it twice.
Thanks Shahdon for introducing the game.
I wanna play wif more people..
I wanna have the witch..the cupid..the fortune teller!
I wanna play it again!!!!
I feel so high high high!
*jumps around*

The Apprentice

A first step to be the next apprentice of the year.
My very first baby step.
Will I be high up in the hierachy?
Only god knows.

Greatest Achievement of the Week!

To complete 192 pages of WORD SEARCH!
*celebrates*

Superstition

Mom says..
If Your nose suddenly feel itchy. That means you gonna have a quarrel or a fight with someone.
How true! Hmm..

Bad FRIDAY

It all started out fine.. Had an appointment with Venture Era at 2pm. And then from things began to deteriorate. It was totally a bad day to be out of the house. I should have stayed at home and sleep the entire day. Haiz..
They quit their jobs..
No one is working..
I made someone angry..(I'm sorry once again)
I'm still jobless..
I cant meet him cos he is held up..
They created too many troubles I hate THEM..
Tell me how fucked up life can be?!
And someone smsed me in the morning asking me how I am..and and want me to coach him/her in acting..Especially crying!!!
I think this someone have yet to go thru' shits..That's the reason why he/she cant cry.
My advise dear someone..Put urself in my position and I bet u can cry ur ass off!
Stop bothering me! I hate being used when needed! Go away! Dont bother me anymore! Go find someone else if u wanna earn ur stardom!!!!!!

Hi 5!

5 snacks I enjoy

1. Polar's Chicken Pie
2. BK's Onion Rings
3. Chocolates!! *drools*
4. Hagen Daaz Ice cream
5. Tasty (All time fave!)


5 songs I know the lyrics to

1. Wrap my words around you- Daniel Bedingfield
2. Mengejar Bayangan (I wrote the lyric..So hw can I not remember it rite?)
3. Have you ever-Brandy
4. National Anthem..(Is it consider ah song? Haiyah..Anything lah hor)
5. Errr..Some hindi songs? hehe!


5 things I would do with 100 million

1. Shop! Shop! Shop!
2. Dine in Expensive Restaurants! Eating those GOOD GOOD FOOD!
3. Study OVERSEAS! Get a Degree fast!
4. Buy my DREAM House!
5. Get married? Wahaha! No lah..I want to Set Up my own Food Business! Hurrah!


5 places I would run away to

1. Cruise ship anchored in the middle of the blue sea
2. Kashmir! I've been wanting to go there since Sec sch!
3. The beach to watch sunset or sunrise
4. Cinema/Theatre..Watch all the movies/musicals that I can
5. Any where with nothing but nature..But not a jungle of course!


5 things I would never wear

1. Tube Tops! Never! (Esp after watching that Video..)
2. Bra and panties outside of My ROOM or worse outside of the HOUSE! No way!
3. Backless dress..Or anything backless. I dont like!Hmph!
4. Micromini..even if I want to I swear my parents will chase me out of the house if i wear one.
5. Any tank top or spaghetti top without a cardigan..
(Call me old-fashion..But i just dont like to bare too much)


5 bad habits

1. Talk first, think later
2. Lose sense of timing when having too much fun
3. Skipping meals
4. Snacking junk food excessively
5. Get paranoid easily



5 biggest joys!

1. Being in a Happy Family
2. Raju s/o Apu! :)
3. My friends
4. Indulge myself with GOOD FOOD
5. Watching cute lil babies smile at me


5 fictional characters I'd date

1. Johnny Depp in Pirates of Carribbean! hot! hot!
2. Aladdin..Argh..so cute!
3. Tweety..Is it a female or a male? I still confuse about its gender.
The other 2 i dunno already ah! Haiyah..


5 unfortunate individuals to do this

1. Fazira
2. Shikin
3. Maryam
4. Raju s/o Apu
5. Err..Anyone ah..Who is just very free rite now!

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Wokay Nad! I've done the quiz be it my name is on the top or the bottom of the list.
Whee! *fly away*

I don't want to repeat the same mistake twice.
Once is enough to allow me to learn from it.
It's just too risky to fall for it countless of times.
Just like a blind man who never master the route he takes every single day.
Things get the better of me.
Guilt just keep growing within me.
I don't know. I don't know.
It was my small instinct dat tells me not to.
And I did'nt.
It was dat voice which tells me not to take another step forward.
And so I stopped. Frozen in the same exact position.
Sigh.
Things just aint the same anymore huh?
Well it changes.
And yes it did.
Everything isnt the same like it used to be rite?
Well it changes.
Why?
Perhaps for the better. Or otherwise.
You just pretty much cant decide, can you?
Nvm about all those changes.
Put aside all that and adapt to what's new.
Try to adapt to those changes.
It might be temporary OR..
it might be irreversible for all you know.
So what's next?
Live with it forever I suppose.
Nothing else can be done (not for the time being at least)
But I assure I still remember.
Yes I still do.
And will always remember.
How can I forget, rite? Haha!
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Something enter into my very soul..
I don't what is it exactly..
But I know it's something wonderful.
Almost surreal.. :)

Before I start my entry proper, I shall do up a questionnaire which Shahdon insist on me doing(my name is on his top list btw).
I know I'm very free now. No need to remind me of that.
So here we go..

7 Random Things about ME
1) I'm under ISOLATION period (just like bacteria) until I find a job
2) I've been doing the same old stuffs day in day out
3) I'm the most quietest human being around when I'm at home
4) I spent most of my time at home in my room in front of the comp
5) I've been getting weird dreams recently
6) I sleep when I have nothing better to do
7) I've been wanting to know whether I snore while sleeping

7 Things That Scare ME
1) God
2) People shouting at me
3) Being alone
4) My parents missing
5) Losing my love ones
6) Trap in the lift (alone!)
7) Those staring eyes of the BANGLAS (Argh!)

7 Random Music At the Moment
1) Unfaithful by Rihanna
2) I do (cherish you) by 98 Degrees
3) Buttons by Pussycat Dolls
4) Fix You by Coldplay
5) Beep Remix by DJ Foxmind feat PCD
6) 1985 by Bowling for Soup
7) Hips dont lie by Shakira

7 Things I Like Most
1) Reading horror books at night while snuggling under my blanket
2) Listening to music
3) Sleeping (Best remedy when you are feeling blue)
4) Chocolates
5) Shopping (or window shopping if broke)
6) Laughing
7) Day dreaming

7 Things I Often Say
1) "Huh? What ah?"
2) "Eh (name of the person)!" ( often used when I need a favor :P)
3) "Nonsense ah you"
4) "Wat the hell"
5) "Busuk ah!"
6) "Iyerr"
7) "Apa sajer" (or Wat only)

7 People To Do This
1) Ashikin (if she read my blog)
2) Fazira
3) Nur Ain
4) Faezah
5) Fuad
6) Liyana (if she STILL read my blog la)
7) ermm..Anyone else wanna do this?
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Now let's start the entry proper. Been very hardworking recently.
Doing LOTS of job hunting, housework and reading my all-time favourite horror book.
I love the works by Stephen King. Never fail to fascinate me.
My eyes are constantly glued to every pages of the book and the ending left me in awe.
The langoliers: something or someone who run after lazy people and.. EAT 'em up! Cool!
Next story to look forward to..Secret Window, Secret Garden (familiar?)
Of cos it is familiar..The movie acted by Johnny Depp last year (i think so). That was it. And obviously I failed to catch that one in cinema. So yah!

I envy those who already get a job 'cos they need not have to worry about finance and all. Haiyah! And SOME people apparently don't understand my situation. But heck care ah! I don't need to explain 'cos I'm VERY tired of doing so. It never seem to get into their brain anyway. What's the use right?! Waste my saliva only!

I think I'll stop rambling for now. Be back soon and hope with a job in hand!

My life resume per normal and I feel oh-so-like a babi.
All I did for the past few days was to eat, sleep and surf net. Of course I slept alot.
I mean ALOT.
Every morning I will wake up late and around 5pm I will take a nap which last almost 2 hrs!!
It has been a routine for me. I'm pretty lazy to do anything else so I decide to just sit down in front of the comp and surf net all day long. Not to forget job hunting. I'm thankful that my job hunting is made easier with a few people helping me out. Suddenly, I'm sure that I will end up doing something that I yearned back in secondary school. ACCOUNTS! It all came back to me now. Like what the hell I'm doing for the past 3 years in Poly?! And all the other whys start to enter my brain. BUT I don't think I should regret anything right now. I think I'll set up my new future goals.
* Study Mandarin at the end of July (sign up already! Whee!)
*Part Time Degree (most prob in accounts)
*Driving License
For the time being these are my goals. I hope I can achieve it within the next 5 years or so. Now since I have new goals in mind, I feel so much better. Being jobless for months cause me to do alot of thinking and setting up new goals for the future. Life is tough but I will not give up.
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I'm pretty excited right now..One more day to go! Really looking forward to Friday :)
Haiz..I can't really do much communication right now. Batt flat!!! Out of all the time it must be today! I have to survive 1 more day without communicating with him. Can't stop thinking about him..
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Whenever you're bored, you ask me to move faster
Whenever you suffer, you ask me to fly
During happy moments, you ask me to stop
When you fall in love, you ask me to last forever...
-Time-

Finally I have the opportunity to blog about the production. It was one heck of a journey I must say. Now, it's finally over and I'm missing it already.

Dreamscape 3.0 marked the end of my days with Dramatec. During the closing night, I could not believe I actually teared right before the curtain call. I looked at the 3 different group of people that merged into one for this production. The freshies, the juniors and the seniors. It was the moment I will cherish forever.
A month back, I thought this would never happened. It was a struggle I must say and I almost walked away. BUT I stayed. I stayed all the way even I knew I could have left long time ago. I stayed for her, him and myself. After the closing night, I know it was all worth it. To stay on till the end. The satisfaction. The triumph. I feel like a winner! :)

Dramatec is one of the CCA that I will remember for its good moments and also for the wrong reasons. I still remembered how I first landed myself in the CCA and how I started to grow as an actor in it. I started off being a Grandmother and now I even proceeded to take on a challenging role. Lesbian! I'm so glad I pulled it off after so much struggles along the way.
Dramatec not only allow me to grow as an actor but it allows my circle of friends to grow as well.
I got to know people whom I never dreamt of making friends with..

Nadira: All I know I thought she was the unfriendly type and I never spoken to her before until we were paired up in Devdas as the mothers! Too much stereotyping I suppose. Haha! And right after that production we become friends. Good one indeed! What a way to start a friendship. :)

Melvyn: I used to think he was arrogant and I hated him for that! Hehe! But now just look at how we turn out to be! Talk nonsense and all.. Funny I tell you..

Shikin: The scary dark side girl whom I used to fear. She wasnt friendly at all but heck now I can even joke with her. And yes, her fashion disaster moments will always be remembered. haha!

Shahdon: I know this guy long time ago and i must say i'm happy for you that your dream finally come true! Kudos Shah! :)

And then I got to know the juniors..Mastura, Yazid, Fadzley, Mato and Priya.. They are talented bunch of people and I was very impressed after working with them in "The 60's" and "Magus Luna".
I believe you guys can continue shining and remember to always be humble. :)
Oh yah not to forget Iggy..You know what..You should start venturing into acting as well. Don't stick to costume and make up alone. I know you have the potential as well but you are not confident about yourself. I know you can do it Iggy! I really believe you can! And not to worry I will tell you if I'm going anywhere. hehe!

The freshies..Fifi, Fima,Rainbow,Hinaa (my personal make-up artist),Eel, Aliyaah, Hidayah..Err..Do I miss anyone? Aiyah, basically to all the freshies who were involved in the production. First impression back at AGM, you guys were the loudest bunch of human beings around! Gosh! Hehe! I was irritated by that and I thought I will dislike you guys BUT after those few days with you guys..I changed my opinion about all of you! You guys are simply the best freshies! Thanks for the make-up and hairdo. You all make me so nice for those 2 nights! Love you guys!! :)
Hope you guys will remember me..And take care.

Dreamscape 3.0 play.stop.rewind will always be a wonderful and magical dream for me.

Gonna miss everything about it.
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Gosh..Now I hate when I have nothing to do.
Nothing to look forward to.
Nothing to rush for.
Nothing to be stressed about.
I begin to think of him alot.
Anything and almost everything can make me think of him.
Haiz..
4 more days and counting down.

I decided to drop another entry here.
It's more like movie review and my ratings for each. Since this June there are countless of good movies to watch I shall narrow your options a little (or is it too late now? hehe).
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-Over the Hedge-
Relive your childhood days by watching this super humorous cartoon in the cinema. Accompanied by adorable characters it will sure make your day when you are feeling down or sad. Perfect monday blues movie too! You need not have to be a kid to enjoy this one.
It teaches alot about friendship as well :)
My rating: 4.5/5
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-The Da Vinci Code-
At first the book seemed unappealing to me. I remembered a year back, I was forced to read the book which I apparently ended up reading the 1st few pages of it. However when the movie was released, I was interested to watch it. Curious how the ending will be like and all.
Plus the good leads made it even a must watch for me. After watching, it was the most satisfying, money-worthy movie I ever seen. The long duration is not the issue. So if you still have yet to watch it, do it now!
My rating:5/5
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Alright that's it for my movie review. An outdated one I must add. I bet 99.9% of the readers here have watched both. Hehe.

Buzzing off. Be back soon.

Good evening my fellow readers and obviously my friends.. It's been a long time since I last blogged. I have been up to almost the same thing again and again lately. What else can it be rite? Drama. It's been so much like my 2nd Love or is it my 3rd? Nonetheless it is one of my love. Sigh. Recently, I'm contemplating on one of the biggest decision of my life. It will determine my future. I think I shall drop the subject matter for now. -------------- Dear friends.. You have been the reason I stayed on for long. Because of you I endured those troubled times despite as much I want to pull away from it. I stayed on just for you guys. You are the reason for me to move on. You are the reason for me to smile. You are the reason for me to get agitated or irritated. You are the one I quarrelled with, laughed with and cried in front of. I never can express how much I appreciate you guys being around. You guys are the best part of me. Without you, my life wont be that exciting afterall. You may not be the best but what you have been to me is simply beyond my imagination. I might have neglected some of you guys along the way but I assure you, you will always be part of my life. If one day I am gone and fail to say goodbye..Remember that I cherish each and everyone of you in different ways. After awhile, we might walk our separate paths but I hope we can keep in touch for as long as we can. I look forward to meeting you guys in the future. I will end it here..The rest will remain unspoken and unwritten. ----------------- I never feel this excited about a phonecall before until tonight. The thought of listening to the familiar voice once again after so long make me smile so widely. Really look forward to it. ------------------

Time check: 720am.
I cant seem to put myself to sleep. Currently, in a paranoia state. It seems so hard for me to push it aside. I'm worried. Eversince yesterday.
I had a dream. A nightmare to be specific. About it. My life have become DREAMSCAPE 3.1 now! Oh great. In the zone already.
Okay, see how I am now?! I cant stop worrying. In fact, there is a mix of nervousness accompanying that feeling. On normal occassion, after a dream I cant recall it or just have a vague image of it BUT not this time. The same exact dream keep playing and playing all over again in my mind like a spoiled video recorder. I should not over-react I suppose.Well oh well, easier said than done. Sigh.
My negligence lead me to this and it's not practically the perfect time to drop your HP in the taxi. Fortunately for me, my HP is not totally missing but it is just not with me in times when I really need it. I feel like a fish out of the water!
I swear I'm going to learn my lesson after the incident. After the night I did 200m sprint back home I'm going shopping for the HP string.
All I need now is sleep which for some weird reason I cant put myself into and something to calm me down. Or maybe something to do to kill the time.
Let the clock ticks faster please!
The feeling is not disappearing so soon and I think it just grow even stronger now. That panic attack mode. Damn.
Should have known from the start this is going to happen.
Should have known prepared for it. My mistake.
Just too busy for my own good.
Too many things going through my head till I misses out some important facts of life.

Frequent squabbles..Err..Maybe imperfection is the first step to a life-long journey. I hope.

Finally it's over!
Good job to all my co-actors and a new experience for me.
The first time involved in such an event.
New friendships are forge and learnt a couple of things more.
However, I did just ok in yesterday performance and unbelievable I had a mental block while delivering 1 chunck of lines. Damn.
Luckily, I managed to cover up and the rest of the scenes went smoothly. Phew!
Oh did I mentioned how i love the Dikir Barat group?
They are friendly bunch!
During the rehearsal b4 the actual performance, they watched us. They made us laughed on stage.
Lastly, I love my eye makeup thanks to one of my co-actors and thanks Hidayah for your costume rental service. Hehe!

I'm all alone now. Weird.
After all those mad rush for the whole entire week I'm down with almost nothing to do.
After tomorrow things gonna pace down very much (I hope).
I've not been getting sufficient sleep and rest and to top it all been doing lots of thinking as well.
Emotional rollercoaster this week and I'm totally drained.
Beginning of the week I was feeling like on top of the world and as the days passed the feeling deteriorated.
Broke down couple of time. Haiz..
Stupid stupid. Should not have done that.
Anyway, now it's better now since I'm being assured (not insured).

Apart from being emotionally drained, I experienced something fulfilling this week.
Opportunities just awaits me right in front of my door steps.
Received 2 calls which changed my fortune.
The golden opportunity. Make me smile and cry at the same time.
And oh yes, it makes me think. Think real hard.
And perhaps I find the answer..(I think so)

After all these, going to get down to real business. No more fun. Just plain serious adult life.

Will wonder ever cease?
3 Male teaching a female dance moves.. hmm..*ponders*

Oh yah..Guess what? I discovered something today..Interesting to me but perhaps not to you guys. But oh well let me just share it anyway.
Do you know how the name "techno" even derived from the eating place which sells 1/2 fried spring chicken rice?
It was said that the name was derived long time ago..to be exact 6-7 years ago.
His brother told him that.
The reason why it was called 'techno'..
Simple reason. Cos that place always play techno music.
What a way to name an eating place. So predictable lah!
But nonetheless the name still stuck in our head till today.
Originally stupid but it created an impact though. Haha!

That's all about the history of 'techno' (eating place opposite TP)
Hail techno! Hail techno!

I dont want to be like THEM!! *cries*
Don't want!! Argh!!
See see..You happy right I blog about gaining weight? Sheesh.
This someone keep saying that I'm going to turn like those Mak ciks walking back from the market in near future!
In other words, growing horizontally and wider! Argh!
You evil you evil you evil! *continue chanting*
I'll make sure I go to the gym every week ah i tell you.
I don't want to turn into a humpty dumpty in the near future.
I don't care I don't want to.
Gosh traumatising just thinking of it. I think i better stop thinking of it and start talking of something else.

My friend advise me not to rush things and I think she's right.
I will not rush things and stay happy for now.
At least I'm doing something I love.
Anyway, I'm feeling way better now. I mean I was sick on the weekend and now I definitely have recovered. Get back to real business. Memorising script. Scripts I mean. I'm so worried I'm gonna mix up my lines.
God I'm so stress now. *starts flipping the scripts*
I'm so stress I think I feel like shitting.
2 productions. 1 in 4 days and another in less than a month. Yikes!
Err..I think I need to shit now. See you guys another time.

Update again from me! Let me see where should I begin? Hmmm..
Currently, still selling anggur (grapes) or the direct term for it..UNEMPLOYED.
However, I did manage to earn some cash..Not thru' any illegal ways mind you but through an easy but patience-testing way.
Wat exactly I mean by that?
Well..was working at the Singapore Expo from 25th-28th April at the Secretariat doing some quite an easy job but the person in-charge didnt make it quite easy definitely.
Imagine at one point of time I felt like strangling her or hanging her on a tree. Yerp she can be dat annoying I tell you. Fussy and always..I mean ALWAYS making me do unnecessary things. Especially photocopying so many copies of papers which she thought could beautify the walls of the office.
The purpose: to make those as wall papers. How nice!
Lucky for me..I was working with superb colleagues.
That made the whole thing fun and funny as well.

You know i decided to do some Singapore Discovery..Searching for places of interest all over Singapore. Since I'm juz plain tired of Orchard, Bugis, PS and Esplanade..I decided to turn into mother nature. But it was thrilling. Haha!
Definitely refreshing..Ahh..RI...CO..LA..!!! :D

Let move on to Anugerah Skrin.
It was my 1st time watching it after I missed the previous episode..
My comment: Rafaat Hamzah was kinda weird with the judging. Perhaps he was being sarcastic today after it was said he was being Simon Cowell previously. I think he should not have bothered about those comments as long as he believe that by saying what he said he is being frank and keep the contestants aware of their weaknesses. But apparently he took things quite badly and decided to limit his comments. He commented things like " Ok", "I enjoy myself" and "they are funny". Kinda vague I must say but thankfully there's Najib Ali who give constructive feedback and all.
About the talents..They are fluent but some seem to be scripted. They way they speak like so not natural. Hmm..

Last of all, today helped out around the house ALOT. Since my mom decided to make a mini celebration for her belated wedding anniversary..so i had to help in the kitchen. But it was worth it especially when the food turned out superb. Yummylicious. :D
A full stomach equates to a Happy Me!

One month passed and finally the reunion. Haha! Met 3 of my closest poly friends on wednesday. Fazira, Kyrul and Ann. It was nice meeting them all over again especially with so much laughter. Despite the short outing, it was enough to bring back the old times we hanged out together. Our destination of the day was Seoul Garden. Thanks to Fazira who treated me as it was kinda obvious I'm broke! So sweet of her. Oh well she has always been sweet to start with. :)
Okay my first time there or in fact everybody's first time there. At first, was quite clueless about the whole thing but ended up being quite pro.
I could not recall the amount of food I gorged into my mouth but all I know after 3 hours there I find it hard to move or even laugh. Haha!
We talked and talked and of course not to forget photo-taking as well.
I discovered I looked FAT in the pictures!! Gosh!
We wrapped up the whole outing with our plan to meet at the FHA in expo next wed. Formal attire wont destroy our plan to go out ya! Hehe!

Yesterday, had MSN convo with MR too good to be true and had a glimpse of his life. Not bad. There's an interesting update about him though. He recently acted in Ch5 new comedy (Maggie and Me with Fiona Xie), Ch8 tv series and 1 of Jack Neo's Movie. Impressive but well with no script of course. Nonetheless the experience is definitely a good one. Well did not chat with him much since I'm chatting with ehem ehem in the next window. You know my common sense just tell me not to have a long elaborate conversation with Mr too good to be true. So ended the convo quite fast. That was the past afterall. No point you know having more connection with him after that. I guess it's enough to stay mutual. Separate life and everybody is happy. Most importantly, I'm happy or better beyond that. :)

Reflect back..Been quite a long journey I've go thru' so far and a longer journey ahead. Will definitely continue to stay true to myself.