24 September 2006

Have you ever been teased due to your fear of somethings? Fear of sleeping in the dark? Fear of getting into trouble with your parents for reaching home later than usual? Ok enough said. I think we all have fear. We are not the invincible one. We are timid by nature. We are scared. Ok for all the scaredy cat out there, let me enlighten you with some bombastic jargons specifically related to fear.

- Cibophobia: You are afraid of food(Are you kidding me?)
- Dendrophobia: Fear of trees
- Philemaphobia: Fear of kissing ( i doubt youngsters here have this phobia)
- Samhainophobia: Fear of halloween
- Scriptophobia: Fear of writing in public ( not for vandalisers i suppose)
- Dishabiliophobia: You have problems undressing in front of others
- Acrophobia: Fear of heights
- Nephophobia: Fear of clouds
- Mycophobia: You wont eat mushrooms
- Arachibutryophobia: If you have a fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of your mouth
People forget the most valuable things in their life. They take for granted the people they see often because they know that they will stay. They will stay no matter what. But they forget, not all will stay for long. Soon they will be gone and you will never have the chance to tell them how much they meant to you. How precious they are in your life. How much you love them. So you forgetful human, tell those people that matter the most in you life how much you love them before they are gone forever. Spread the love, you lovely people.

Oh see I forget too.. I love you..I love you people!! :)

21 September 2006

I witnessed the most heartwarming and the most dumbest event ever.
Maybe let me start with the heartwarming event. Today is one of the lawyers daughter birthday and he made for her powerpoint slides. I find it uber sweet.

However, the same exact lawyer unfortunately did the most dumbest thing ever. Haha.
He asked the manager who called him because there was a missed call. He checked the number.
And guess what..He had accidentally gave himself a call via the office phone. How dumb! Tsk tsk tsk. Nonsense.

I cant wait for tomorrow. To enjoy and induge myself before the fasting month.
Aniwae, got to go..It's Mud Pac time!

20 September 2006

I am truly excited about the Final Showdown this Sunday. Oh well not entirely excited lah. The only reason i want to watch it is to find out how Singapore vote this year. My prediction is Jon eventhough i know Hady is a better singer. I somehow feel that Singapore will vote for Jon this time. After watching tonight's episode of Singapore Idol: The Journey, i am more convince that Jon is going to win this. Anyway, i'm still supporting Hady though.
Next, i am also looking forward to tonight's new season of Project Runway.
Now my favourite show is back. Whee!

16 September 2006

Fellow readers please ignore the previous entry. Just venting my frustration abit.

Now it's my 2nd month working and i hope i did a good job thus far. Seriously i dont know how to judge myself. Mistakes are unavoidable I suppose. I even lose count the number of times I commited silly mistakes with Cheques, E-filing and drafting letters. But the thing is you learn from your own mistakes. Somehow I still feel I need to learn and ask more questions. I think my lawyer is right. I'm not inquisitive enough. Shall set new goals for myself. I'll learn and work at the same time. I'm beginning to compile my own notes and read more. My manager told me reading IS important and I agree with him. I'll find every opportunity to ask more about the different areas. New goal for the week.

Fasting month is around the corner and soon enough is Hari Raya. And I've just realise that I graduated officially from TP almost 3 months and inofficially around 6 months ago. Wow! That's half a year. Miss those days. And yesterday had the chance to catch up with the good old days with my poly friends. So much to talk about and so little time. Wish could stay longer but time didnt permit us to. We will meet again some other time. Talking about catching up..I have a very long list of people I need to catch up with. I just want to announce it here that you guys are not forgotten. Still remember you people only that I dont own all the time in the world to sit down and do lots of catching up. Nonetheless will try my best to meet you guys soon.

I think that's about it for now. Maybe tomorrow will update more if I have the time and the mood. Last of all, Goodnite dear readers and enjoy your Sunday! Sweet Dreams :)

11 September 2006

Eurgh! This internet connection failure is getting on my nerve!
I cant log in to MSN. At times, I cant even view websites. Stupid.
Recently, I forgo lots of TV shows and on Wednesday gonna forgo another one.
I think it wont be a problem since there's a second telecast.

09 September 2006

It's sinful yet fulfilling.
At times, you just have to splurge a little to feel the satisfaction.
I'm glad I did it.
Once awhile is harmless but don't turn it into something addictive.
It probably gonna burn a hole in your pocket.
The night to remember. So happy!
And now I need to be watchful before I turn into a beggar.

06 September 2006

You must be wondering how many more entries I want to post up today.
Oh well this will be my last one. I feel the urge to type more to compensate for my less typing hours at work. You wouldnt want to know what I did today at work. I was rotting until I cannot rot anymore. I was reading until I'm sick of it. I was stoning until I cannot move anymore.
That's how bad today was. Like my colleague said..The government is not in, let's close the door. Haha! She was right ah. Today was a carefree day. The manager is on leave. The 3 lawyers not in the office. Left with the secretaries. Haha! So relaxing. And today I bought along my small pillow to work as well.

Eh alamak..I continue later lah eh..
SI in on now..Cya guys later.
My first step to being independent.
Finally I'm beginning to walk on my own.
Eventhough it's just baby steps I'm glad I'm starting it now.
Not later not soon but at this very moment.
I'm starting to learn about life.
I'm starting to know the real world.
I'm almost proclaiming to the world I'm an Adult.
Certified one.
I'm seeing a beam of light at the end of the tunnel.
what used to be so dark and liveless suddenly seem a little brighter.
Eventhough it have yet to glow at the highest intensity, i'm grateful still.
At least there's some light shining down at me.

Thank you God for answering my prayer.

I'm glad my (/our) life is going to be better soon. A total evolution i hope.
I hope they change for good and it last.

I'm not losing hope. Never. :)

05 September 2006

It's been so long since I type out a proper blog entry. Haiz.
Wat to do not much time for me to spent staring at the comp screen blogging.
I don't want to risk myself getting myopia u knw.
Anyway, this will be a short entry.
Firstly, my shout-out goes to him.
Happy Graduation day to YOU! Finally after what seem so long you graduated BUT it's not the end yet. Hehe!

This week is going to be a busy week for me. Apart from my existing job, I'm going to be working at the expo from Saturday to Sunday. Lesser leisure time it seems. Haiz. Nvm still have Friday nite to look forward to. YAY! Shop!! I like! :)

Err..Now I've run out of things to blog about. I shall end it here then.
Oh aniwae Nad...We should fix one day to meet up!
For You I Will (Confidence)

Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.


I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will


Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.


I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you


If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room
I would


That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

24 August 2006

AT LAST!!!
FINALLY!!
Singapore made the right decision for not voting out the better singers in the competition.
Tonight nurul was ousted.
I know she wont last that long in the competition cos she IS quite bland.
I cant seem to stay awake most of the time when she performed.
And I'm so happy HADY stay on. WHEE!
My 60 cents didnt go to waste.
This is the 2nd time I voted for someone throughout the 2 season of SI. (the 1st was TAUFIQ duh!)
Now I'm really rooting for Hady. His performance yesterday was superb! I love his rendition of Lagenda by Sheila Majid. Make me melt. Ah...
On the other hand, Joakim still stay on. Ya I've to agree with Dick and Flo that the way he handled all those criticism and controversy was commendable. And I also forget that he is just 18 years old. Despite how much I hate his singing and his personality, I still think he handle those shitty stuffs very well. For an 18 year old..Oh my what you expect and it's not his fault that he's bless with good looks and gain instant popularity by those teenage girls. Singapore decide who they want to vote. Not him. Pity him abit lah eh.

I think enough of SI. Now, I'm freaking depress!! I'm facing a MAJOR problem right now and I dont know how to solve it. Help!! Someone please help!! I am gaining WEIGHT! Yes, Halimah is officially growing HORIZONTALLY every single day! Blame my colleagues please! They feed me sooo well. I really need to discipline myself already. Even my mom said I've become BUNCIT!! Argh!! Stress!! Basically that's the only stress I'm facing currently. Wahaha!
So happy lah life down at Hoh Law. At least I wont have to worry about pre-mature aging! Haha! No need to use Olay to fight 7 signs of aging. Hehe!

Ok I need to highlight something very important here. haiz. You know I received a question smack right in front of my face. Snap me back to reality. He asked me..
"Where is the ambitious you I used to know?"
Upon hearing that, I was speechless and angry at myself.
How can I completely erase that fighting spirit in me?!
How can I change the used-to-be strong Halimah?
How can I become so dependant?
How can I be so weak?
How can I let my heart do more of the thinking than my BRAIN?
Gosh! I need to find the old Halimah back. I'm in dire need of some serious identity searching.
I need to gain back my fighting spirit. The competitive me. The girl who used to believe nothing is impossible. The girl who is willing to go against all odds to get what she want. And her wants are simple. And I believe it's achievable.
i can do it i can do it i can do it i can do it yes i can!!

18 August 2006

I just finished reading my previous blog entries. Haha!
I realized I mentioned alot of interesting events and now I sort of regretted deleting other past entries dated way back to 2004? I cant remember. Shit I should have keep all that. For record sake.

I might enjoy reading those in the near future but stupid me deleted all those entries. Nvm. I still can retrieve some of it from different sources. Hehe! And of course one of the sources is my oh-so-good memory. I drink booster ok. HAHA! Kidding only.

Anyway, today at lunch discovered some interesting facts. Nad, I really wanna chat with you 'cos one of the interesting facts is about you! I hope you going online tonight but I dunno what time. There's alot to update you sey.

Work has been great. The things I used to be clueless about now I'm beginning to pick it up quite fast. So many procedures and steps to follow. So I decided to take down notes. At least it will keep me from being too blur. Oh ya did I mention at times I will be rotting at work because I finish my work fast? Yes I basically rot or take my own sweet time doing the assigned tasks. Works that can be complete within 1/2 hr i will drag it to 1 hr or so. Haha!

I'm not regreting my decision :)

The feeling just keep growing and growing everyday. I don't think I will ever be bored of it.

16 August 2006

I've given up on staring at the computer screen for hours! I am really heading towards the Myopia road. My eyes need to rest more. So that's the reason why I have not been blogging or going online for quite sometime. Miss blogging and chatting though. Whenever I go online, it's either i'm too early or those people are busy. Sheesh! I always choose the not-so-perfect timing.

Ok since I'm trying to stay awake to watch my favourite show, Project Runway..I decided to kill the time by blogging. Let me give you a brief update of the "what's happening". On the National Day eve, I spent it gawking at the oh-so-beautiful fireworks together with 3 others. Unfortunately, had a hard time going back home since it was so so so packed. I hate the crowds and worse still I was in heels. But I think the beauty of the fireworks was all worth it despite the poor coordination of music and the firework itself.
On National Day, obviously without fail I will plunge myself in front of the TV to watch the parade and all. To top it all, I had my mouth-watering AYAM PENYET after that( of course after watching S'pore Idol also).
Talking about Singapore Idol, eurgh!! It's just frustrating every week seeing the faces you wish will be gone soon and those you wish could stay on are gone just like that. I have come to a conclusion that Singaporean don't know how to vote wisely. I wonder how they vote during the campaign. Hmm..

Apart from my rusty update of my National Day celebration, I finally got to enjoy myself on weekends. Sunday will be for recharging my energy. I'm very pleased now since at least I have something going on in my life. I'm doing something with my life. All thanks to my friends who keep supporting me and being there for me. Thanks ya! :)

Ermm..Oh yah I got to catch up with some of my polymates. Get updates from them and I realise I miss Poly life. I miss design and ITAS canteens. I miss my foccacio bread! I miss alot of stuffs. And I'm still not giving up hope with my dreams (if you know what I mean).

05 August 2006

Notice the new section in my previous entry?

Yes, Sharper than SWORD: WORDS will be dedicated to people who are straightforward and use words as their weapon of defence. Every now and then, I will be bloghopping and scouting for some phrases or sentences people say or write and quote it (mind you I'm not plagarizing) into my blog. Basically, I'm turning into a paparazzi( do i spell it correctly?) lah eh.

I think you guys have enough of me for today. 3 entries in a day! Am i crazy or am i crazy? No need to answer that. Self-explanatory.
This is my second entry for the day. I'm plain bored at home now. Intially, planning to go out to watch some fireworks spectacular down at esplanade but come to think of it I decided to skip that. So I'll have to opt for the other choice then. Sit at home and rot. Maybe not exactly rot ah 'cos my cousin have kindly decided to lend me her Bollywood vcd. So 3 hours of activity for me and the rest is still unplan. Hmmm..

I was too free just now so I read one of my poly fren's blog. More specific her friendster blog. Then for some weird reason I begin to think of him. Not about missing him but how I'm constantly envious of him. Not for any other reasons but solely related to family. When we normally have our conversation about siblings and parents, I always end up a little cranky unknowingly. All because of one simple reason. His family and him is so closely-knitted as compared to mine. Actually it's not that I'm not close to my own family, I am. But for some funny reason I don't feel belonged at times. On some ocassions, I feel that I belong with them while most of the time, I dont. Weird. I am not saying that we treat each other like complete strangers. No. It's just that maybe my expectation is too high. Or maybe my idea of an ideal family is too far fetch. Maybe those belong only in a dream. Perhaps.


Yesterday I had a dream. I dream that one day we will be one happy family again & you will be fine with your brother once again. How I wish.


Sharper than SWORD: WORDS

Quoted from Alfian's Journal http://www.blurty.com/users/sleepless77
From the comments column.

"...actually, come to think of that, you should write a part for Taufik someday. The boy is just *terribly* easy on the eyes. You should convert him into an avant-garde theatre rebel while he's still fresh and yummy, before he turns into a has-been. Rescue him from doing 7-11 commercials all the time.
I was at a standup show by Kumar, and he pointed out quite rightly that if Taufik had been Chinese, then he'd have got a contract in Greater China by now...

(He could conceivably still get one if he learned to sing in Chinese, which has been done before, but that ain't easy. But then, if Olinda Cho can play a straight girl, why not?)"

-Yish

His reply?
"Har? Get him to act in play? I don't know man, I don't think local theatre can afford him. And his kohl haha."


By the way, the above comments are for one of his entries regarding HomeSick. Yerp, the one I'm gonna have to miss yet again 'cos it's too expensive!! haiz..
In conjunction with my topic about family..Let me present to you one of the HomeSick pictures.

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Good Morning Singapore!!
The feeling of great satisfaction waking up early. I'm so happy I manage to wake up very early in the morning and to the sound of my hp. Not the alarm clock but just another message. You know lah my message tone. I was wondering who the sender is only to find out it was Shahdon with his GOOD MORNING!!! message. He is in one of his good mood. Hmm..
Oh actually I'm not intending to dedicate one whole paragraph explaining further about his sms. Only that something in the sms caught my attention.


You know how you get used to doing the things you love and then when at one point of your life you decided to shove it aside due to other responsibilities coming your way, you feel something is missing? I'm feeling this way right now. I suddenly realise how I miss doing something I used to proclaim to the world as my passion. I bet you people know what I'm talking about 'cos it's pretty obvious. For those who don't get it, ask me and I'm more than happy to share.
I'm feeling the temptation to pursue my passion once again but not at this very moment I suppose. I will return to it when the right time come. For now I shall stick with a responsibilty I'm entrust to.


At this point of time, while facing the screen happily typing I realise how time pass. Like it was ages ago since I last graduated from Damai and was stressing over 'O' Level. That precious moment remain cherish forever. Now, slowly I'm growing into an adult. All these while I have always considered myself as a teenager. Living life the way I want and care less about responsibilty. Go out during weekend and enjoy! I'm not saying that I'm about to turn into a boring adult. No! Definitely no. I'm just saying that things will be much more different as an adult. Scary. Stepping into adulthood once and for all. The next thing I will realise I'm already married with 5 kids!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! That'll be a total nightmare for me. I don't wish to have so many kids. Ok now I'm beginning to talk about kids. *stop. look left. look right. change topic*


Let me move on to the next item on my list. My favourite movie. As some of you might be aware that I am (/was) a HUGE fan of Bollywood movies. I can endure the 3 hours of non-stop dancing, singing, running around trees, rolling down the hill antics (I'm stereotyping here). I don't mind all that. Now I begin to wonder the main reason why I watch those movies. I'm not a fan of love fantasy in the first place and Bollywood movies are full of it. So why do I watch it then?
I watch it because of the actors and actresses. Very captivating. Even the not-so-into Bollywood movies agree with the mentioned statement. Another reason why I watch the movies is because of the music, colourful costumes, beautiful landscapes and the choreography. It is something extravagant and pleasing to the eyes. Now I know why I watch it. Call me shallow but I dont quite bother about the content of the movie. However, I have to agree at times Bollywood do produce movies with substance. Example, BLACK.

04 August 2006

I received a forwarded email from a friend of mine.
I had a great time laughing at it.
It was regarding those maths problems which you often encountered way back in secondary school.
It only make me realise one thing. How I miss Maths.
Yes..You read it right. I MISS MATHS.
Ok call me weird or even crazy but I sort of miss those days when you had to crack your brain to solve those challenging Mathematic questions.
Eh at least I'm still considered normal can..
This friend of mine is even weirder than me. She only could attempt those challenging questions and leave those 2-3 marks questions completely blank. No, not that she's lazy or something but just that she COULD NOT answer it. She didnt know how to do it. WEIRD.
Yes let me introduce that friend to you readers.
She's none other than our very own..
Ms. Nadira.

Since I'm at the topic of Mathematics, why not I share with you those humorous mistakes done by some courageous students. If I'm their maths teacher I would have award them marks for being brave and thinking out of the box. Haha. So that explains why I dont qualify to teach and is incapable of tutoring.

Here are some interesting maths problems solved by those said students.


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I wish I could do all these during my 'O' Level!

01 August 2006

First day of work was definitely a good beginning of my career as a Litigation Secretary.
Colleagues are extra nice, lawyers curious what I learnt in my course and where i was attached to and my working place covered with FILES. Lots of them.
I was busy or should i say "step" busy on my first day.
It was quite an enriching experience.
Learnt the litigation procedure.
Introduced to Syariah Law & the manager made me read about it.
I brought it home and still have yet to finish reading it.
Have to get use to facing computer for long hours. Typing letters.
I'm proud of myself since today I typed numerous letters and faxed it too!
Yes I learnt to operate the fax machine! Finally! Hurray!
And i discovered the shocking truth about lawyers..


They have the WORSE handwriting ever! Tsk tsk..

30 July 2006

There are few blogs that I often visit due to several reasons..
1) The way they write their stuffs..It entertains me! (i can even laugh out loud reading it)
2) I'm plain bored..
3) I love looking at some edited pictures ( Shahdon's blog lah who else rite?)
4) I'm just kepo and enjoy reading what have been happening to people's life.


Now I'm so happy!!
Why you ask? Eh or you guys don't even bother?
Hmph!
Nvm I shall tell anyway..Hehe!
I bought the HAMTARO already!
I mean the soft toy I have been talking about in my previous entry.
So CUTE!! So round..
Very huggable!
Eh correction..Not I bought it..
I got it F.O.C!
That's the best part about it.
Haha!
I'm cheapskate i know but it's not a sin what being one.
It just benefit you! Hehe!


It's very VERY dark rite now!
Nope it's not power failure but it's the weather!
So windy= Perfect timing to sleep!
Change topic, change topic. I'm not here to blog about the weather in any case. Just sidetracking you know. I always do that. Oh now what am I about to say? Ah! I remember already..
I read someone's blog and it made me laughed real hard. Funny! It was a great start to a Sunday morning.
Whee!
It was entertaining but at the same time something caught me attention.
A common mistake ALOT of people did.
The common phrase people use..
"Eh, rambut aku botak ah"
Aik..Kalau dah botak macam mana lak ada ada rambut?
Kan botak tu takde rambut..
Haha!
Translation: "Alamak, my hair bald lah.."
Wahaha! Where got such things one?
Bald means no hair what..
You think what? Bald is the new Armani izzit?
Nonsense ah!
ok ok..I just feel like putting it here and try observing this next time.


Argh!!
Watched Suria Segar just now! Hahaha!
What a program to watch early in the morning.
Alah same lah like Selamat Pagi Sigapura or in direct translation Good Morning Singapore!
What attracted me to watch it was the fact the special guest is Alfian Sa'at.
Not that I'm a die-hard fan of him but it's the fact that he's gonna promote the upcoming show..
HOMESICK!!!
Now I really feel like watching it.
Very tempted to watch it.
And..I have yet to watch Pirates of Caribbean!!!!! *cries*
AND today is the last day Cabaret is showing!!!!! *cries some more*

It's frustrating ah..If you are broke and money is making its way to you freaking slowly!!!
And I still want the SHADES!!
Bugis Market here i come!
*fly away*

28 July 2006

worried.
How are you doing right now? well? I'm pretty unsure.
Having butterflies in my stomach. I cant wait to meet.
But till now you remain silent. That silence worries me.
I hope you are fine and well.


How I spent my Friday?
Talking. Lots of it.
After a very successful day of distributing flyers.. (the first time we completed the whole stack!)
I chatted wih Nad. One of the topic was Overseas!
Haiz..Everytime I talked about it, I feel like crying. It just make me feel sad.
And Nad if you noticed after we went into the toilet I never continue with the topic anymore.
I cut it out of my mind cos that topic links to alot of other sub topics.
Maybe i'll tell you one day if there's a chance.
Ok after such topic I feel kinda drained but window shopping is very therapeutic.
Soft toys and shades caught my attention today. Made up my mind to get those.
Indulgence I must say.
The next person I talked to later that day was Shikin.
Met her at 5pm to get some law notes.
I need to do abit of reading and mental preparation for Tuesday.
So we talked. An interesting conversation.
How funny life is.
A complete turn for her and also me.
Shah if you are reading this..Me and shikin are wondering where are all those pictures?
Please send to us a.s.a.p.
Thanks..


I'm still waiting patiently at home..
But as the clock keep on ticking I'm getting slightly impatient.
I'm tired and sleepy now. Must be too much standing and walking around.
Need my rest soon. So I'll end here.
And HSA still have yet to call.
It must be a sign. *ponders*

27 July 2006

Relationships.
I knew it. It gonna end anyway.
No point of hoping and wishing for it to last.
Some people are just extremely superficial.
They went for it 'cos they were desperate at one point of time.
Perhaps they were just very lonely and need a company.
They need someone to hear them, care for them and love them.
But in return what did they give?
Nothing!
It's just for the fun of it.
They enjoy receiving but not giving.
It's a pity for the one being the victims to these culprits.
I knew it but i kept mum about the whole thing.
I knew one day it will end.
And it did.
In fact faster than i expected.
A new eye candy with the right looks become the source of new interest.
Oh come on..
Mirror yourself before even dreaming of making your fantasy come true.
You dont even have the right proportion and you are eyeing someone like that?!
Ridiculous.
Anyway, apart from a broken relationship..A new one is form recently.
Very happy indeed but at the same time worried.
Worried that again it's all about the idea of being in love.
I hope for the best eventhough I just dislike the partner.
Like totally getting on my nerve.
*glass breaking noise in the background*


I've been totally occupied with interesting encounters this week.
Becoming a flyer distributor isnt that bad afterall.
In fact I enjoyed it thus far 'cos of the right type of company.
Me and Nad was talking through the crowds while distributing flyers.
How nice!
Work can never be as simple as this one.
Get paid for fooling around.
At least we didnt throw the flyers into the rubbish bins ok!
We have integrity..
Ceydebah!
Whatever lah Halimah..Move on with the topic.
I'm starting work in August if HSA dont get back to me by tmw.
I give them until tmw morning to get back to me..and if not too bad.
I'll just sign up the employment letter and pass it to HoH law tmw.
Seriously, it's scary and thrilling at the same time.
Who would have thought I will end up in a law firm to begin with?
It's totally off from my field of studies ah.
If my lecturers find out about it..They seriously gonna faint i tell you.
Halimah and LAW FIRM?!
What's up with that?
In any ways..I'm lucky for being able to secure a job quite fast even with my constant complaining and whining due to being jobless.
So the moral of the story is:
IT'S ALL ABOUT PATIENCE

24 July 2006

Helios Coolios!

WaaaH!! Biopolis Rocks! I'm so loving it..
Err..Ok ok..you guys must be clueless what the heck I'm talking about here.
Let me explain to you guys..
In my previous entry I did state about an interview with HSA rite?
*nods*
Ah good..Basically I went for the interview today!
Instead of Friday 'cos they rescheduled it due to some urgent meeting on Friday.
The place is opposite Ministry of Education.
Gosh I feel like in some kind of CSI or criminal minds show!
They even have names for each building and the one I went to is Helios.
Cool rite the name?
Sounds like Halogens!
So Science! Hahaha!
At first I felt nothing when I reached the Centre of Drug Administration (or sth along that line lah)..
But then when I came to know I was about to be interviewed not by one or two people but 5!
I was seriously freaking out..
However it went well..
Alamak how like this?
The job seems appealing and they did not question the amount I asked for.
And tomorrow..I'm going back to HoH Law to discuss about my 3 mths probation and salary.
I'm dead I tell you..
Aniwae..did I tell you guys I'm now a freelance Nutritionist?
Hahaha!
Anggun International accepted me last friday.
I finally got to meet up with that lady after postponing the interview twice!
At first I was already pissed and don't wanna go but then I changed my mind.
Now, I'm given an assignment. A Nutrition TALK!
Can you believe it?!
A talk!
Scary shit ah..
Doing my revision currently..
All those dusty lecture notes are finally out of my drawer.
Finally have the chance to breathe some fresh air.
Ah..


So what have I been doing for the past few days?
Since I didnt appear online most of the time..
I was actually doing ALOT of cleaning up.
Yesterday cleared up my cupboard..
Discard old clothes to make space for new ones. Hehe!
Today cleaned up my cabinet top and make-up kit.
Dust free now..
I rearranged my accessories and now it seems pretty much organised.
I think so..
Oh I was also trying to pamper myself with DIY manicure & padicure!
Eh ok ah people..I wanna watch Miss Universe.
I heard there was a fight! I wanna see! Hehe!

22 July 2006

So you think you can DANCE?

I bet they do!
This is superb! Love their choreography!

19 July 2006

Credit

Oh yah before I forget and later someone will start to tag me saying that I forget to give the credit to her for those 2 songs I posted in my earlier entry I better do it now!
So here it goes..
My special thanks to Nur Nadira Bte Zainal for introducing me to the above-mentioned songs.
I really appreciate it since it add to my current song collection.
*Loud Applause*
Therefore, I hope you can kindly continue your generous donation of songs to me.
And in return, I will continue to pray for your health and long live. Amin.
*wide grin*

THR33!!

Ah!! After 2 hectic days, finally I got my own free time today. This is just the beginning I must say. It's gonna be worse in the days to come. So today I'm making full use of what I have and tomorrow back to square one. I'm very please right now 'cos my luck is doing 360 degrees turn. I've been getting good news for quite awhile till it left me confuse. Confuse to choose which one. I'm spoil for choice.


1) I'm got a call from HSA* on Monday inviting me for an interview on THURS! Oh my! It's such an honour. After so long now the call me. Tsk tsk.. Abit the slow right?
2) Yesterday, received a called from a company I went for an interview two weeks ago. They got back to me positive! So I'm on my way for a 2nd interview.
3) A newfound long term wealth.

I'm so confuse as which one to be involved in. My mom termed it as Tuah Rimau. What a weird term. Haha! Ok guys, I shall explain to you what it means. In conjunction with Bulan Bahasa (Malay Language Month), I shall share with you people out there the meaning of this phrase.
Tuah Rimau means a few good things (or good luck) that occur to a person simultaneously or at one shot.

That's the new phrase for the day..

Now, I shall share with you guys the lyrics to the top 2 songs I've been listening to these few days.
*Health Science Authority
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Ghost of You and Me
What am I supposed to do with all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what i do
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go, when will that night be over


Chorus:
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me


Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine
Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me
(chorus repeated)


Bridge
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul


Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over(chorus to fade out)
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Crowded

Jeannie Ortega.. papoose?
let me show u all how its posed to be done


Jeannie Ortega:
don't get me started
it's getting kinda crowded in here
back up off me, im feeling like im suffocated
now here's my problem
i'm not gonna be your chick on the side
forget about it
u know damn well it wouldn't be right


Chorus (Jeannie Ortega):
I dunno wat u been thinkin bout me
did u think this was gonna be that easy?
hell no,u must be going crazy!
(noo-o-oo)Why don't you get outta my life,
get outta my sight,
get off oh my back...


why dont u go back to ur world...
go back to ur girl..
i think u owe her...


i know wats going on
i wont be second to none(noo)


back up, cuz u crowdin my space..
u need to get outta my face


-end chorus-
lets be honest
im not the type of chick that u use..
and if u want it,
if u want it
u'll have to choose
ive been thru this
i ve been cheated on..
i know how it feels
would i know that u wouldnt do the same to me


(Chorus: Jeannie Ortega)
I dunno wat u been thinkin bout me
did u think this was gonna be that easy?
hell no,u must be going crazy!
(noo-o-oo)Why don't you get outta my life,
get outta my sight,
get off oh my back...


why dont u go back to ur world...
go back to ur girl..
i think u owe her...


i know wats going on
i wont be second to none(ohh noooo)


back up, cuz u crowdin my space..
u need to get outta my face


-end chorus-
Papoose:
Papoose...BK.B..uh..K...they say u cant have ur cake and eat it too..
tell me wats the meaning...
wats the sense of me having cake if i cant eat it
cheaters never win, my friend, u like creepin'
but hate when ure girl starts cheatin imagine if u came home to ur wife,
opened ur door and locked it, then u found rkelly hiding in ur closet
i knew u would start cheatin, before u even stopped it
im like when u double ur money, im a profit..
albert einstein was smart, but im sum wiser...
im a ladies man, ur man is a womanizer
u gotta fite for love, can u make a fist
since ur name is genie, can i make a wish? (yeaahh)
no minor set backs, every move major
grown folk behaviour, jus do me one favour..
he put u on the side, let me be ur saviour..
crowded..
PAPOOSE
JEANNIE ORTEGA


(Chorus: Jeannie Ortega)
I dunno wat u been thinkin bout me
did u think this was gonna be that easy?
hell no,u must be going crazy!
(noo-o-oo)Why don't you get outta my life,
get outta my sight, get off oh my back...


why dont u go back to ur world...
go back to ur girl..
i think u owe her...


i know wats going on
i wont be second to none(ohh noooo)


back up, cuz u crowdin my space..
u need to get outta my face?


get outta my life,
get outta my sight,
get off oh my back..


cuz ure crowdin my space?
u need to get outta my face?

15 July 2006

Rejuvenating!

Ah..It's been awhile I updated my song list. That's when I decided to vary abit my music taste.
Instead of the normal kinda music I often listen to, I decided to opt for instrumentals!! So you know lah hor who I turned to for those type of music. Who else rite..The KING of Classicals lah!
Wah seriously amused with his amount of songs! Tsk tsk..
I asked for a few gave me more than 10 I think. But good lah! Hehe!
Thanks hor..
Oh shit!
*stare at the clock*
It's 2:33 am!!
*faints*
It's late..Very late. It's been awhile since I stay up this late.
And I'm so dead. I'm meeting him in a few hours time and I'm not asleep yet.
I hope I can wake up early..and if there's eye bags..
Shall go for the trusty ice packs! Hehe!
Alrite alrite..I think I should be off to sleep in awhile..
But then again I'm still online wif NAD. Haha!

Are you afraid of the WOLF?

Oh my GOD!! I'm freaking full right now and I dunno why.
After so long finally I got to eat at Techno once again.
Even paid a visit to (or easy said CRASH) Dramatec.
Wah so good..Was welcomed with open hands by the juniors :)
And 2nd OMG..To the WOLF game!
I love it to bits eventhough I just played it twice.
Thanks Shahdon for introducing the game.
I wanna play wif more people..
I wanna have the witch..the cupid..the fortune teller!
I wanna play it again!!!!
I feel so high high high!
*jumps around*

13 July 2006

The Apprentice

A first step to be the next apprentice of the year.
My very first baby step.
Will I be high up in the hierachy?
Only god knows.

Greatest Achievement of the Week!

To complete 192 pages of WORD SEARCH!
*celebrates*

08 July 2006

Superstition

Mom says..
If Your nose suddenly feel itchy. That means you gonna have a quarrel or a fight with someone.
How true! Hmm..

07 July 2006

Bad FRIDAY

It all started out fine.. Had an appointment with Venture Era at 2pm. And then from things began to deteriorate. It was totally a bad day to be out of the house. I should have stayed at home and sleep the entire day. Haiz..
They quit their jobs..
No one is working..
I made someone angry..(I'm sorry once again)
I'm still jobless..
I cant meet him cos he is held up..
They created too many troubles I hate THEM..
Tell me how fucked up life can be?!
And someone smsed me in the morning asking me how I am..and and want me to coach him/her in acting..Especially crying!!!
I think this someone have yet to go thru' shits..That's the reason why he/she cant cry.
My advise dear someone..Put urself in my position and I bet u can cry ur ass off!
Stop bothering me! I hate being used when needed! Go away! Dont bother me anymore! Go find someone else if u wanna earn ur stardom!!!!!!

03 July 2006

Hi 5!

5 snacks I enjoy

1. Polar's Chicken Pie
2. BK's Onion Rings
3. Chocolates!! *drools*
4. Hagen Daaz Ice cream
5. Tasty (All time fave!)



5 songs I know the lyrics to

1. Wrap my words around you- Daniel Bedingfield
2. Mengejar Bayangan (I wrote the lyric..So hw can I not remember it rite?)
3. Have you ever-Brandy
4. National Anthem..(Is it consider ah song? Haiyah..Anything lah hor)
5. Errr..Some hindi songs? hehe!


5 things I would do with 100 million

1. Shop! Shop! Shop!
2. Dine in Expensive Restaurants! Eating those GOOD GOOD FOOD!
3. Study OVERSEAS! Get a Degree fast!
4. Buy my DREAM House!
5. Get married? Wahaha! No lah..I want to Set Up my own Food Business! Hurrah!


5 places I would run away to

1. Cruise ship anchored in the middle of the blue sea
2. Kashmir! I've been wanting to go there since Sec sch!
3. The beach to watch sunset or sunrise
4. Cinema/Theatre..Watch all the movies/musicals that I can
5. Any where with nothing but nature..But not a jungle of course!


5 things I would never wear

1. Tube Tops! Never! (Esp after watching that Video..)
2. Bra and panties outside of My ROOM or worse outside of the HOUSE! No way!
3. Backless dress..Or anything backless. I dont like!Hmph!
4. Micromini..even if I want to I swear my parents will chase me out of the house if i wear one.
5. Any tank top or spaghetti top without a cardigan..
(Call me old-fashion..But i just dont like to bare too much)


5 bad habits

1. Talk first, think later
2. Lose sense of timing when having too much fun
3. Skipping meals
4. Snacking junk food excessively
5. Get paranoid easily



5 biggest joys!

1. Being in a Happy Family
2. Raju s/o Apu! :)
3. My friends
4. Indulge myself with GOOD FOOD
5. Watching cute lil babies smile at me


5 fictional characters I'd date

1. Johnny Depp in Pirates of Carribbean! hot! hot!
2. Aladdin..Argh..so cute!
3. Tweety..Is it a female or a male? I still confuse about its gender.
The other 2 i dunno already ah! Haiyah..


5 unfortunate individuals to do this

1. Fazira
2. Shikin
3. Maryam
4. Raju s/o Apu
5. Err..Anyone ah..Who is just very free rite now!

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Wokay Nad! I've done the quiz be it my name is on the top or the bottom of the list.
Whee! *fly away*

28 June 2006

I don't want to repeat the same mistake twice.
Once is enough to allow me to learn from it.
It's just too risky to fall for it countless of times.
Just like a blind man who never master the route he takes every single day.
Things get the better of me.
Guilt just keep growing within me.
I don't know. I don't know.
It was my small instinct dat tells me not to.
And I did'nt.
It was dat voice which tells me not to take another step forward.
And so I stopped. Frozen in the same exact position.
Sigh.
Things just aint the same anymore huh?
Well it changes.
And yes it did.
Everything isnt the same like it used to be rite?
Well it changes.
Why?
Perhaps for the better. Or otherwise.
You just pretty much cant decide, can you?
Nvm about all those changes.
Put aside all that and adapt to what's new.
Try to adapt to those changes.
It might be temporary OR..
it might be irreversible for all you know.
So what's next?
Live with it forever I suppose.
Nothing else can be done (not for the time being at least)
But I assure I still remember.
Yes I still do.
And will always remember.
How can I forget, rite? Haha!
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Something enter into my very soul..
I don't what is it exactly..
But I know it's something wonderful.
Almost surreal.. :)

27 June 2006

Before I start my entry proper, I shall do up a questionnaire which Shahdon insist on me doing(my name is on his top list btw).
I know I'm very free now. No need to remind me of that.
So here we go..

7 Random Things about ME
1) I'm under ISOLATION period (just like bacteria) until I find a job
2) I've been doing the same old stuffs day in day out
3) I'm the most quietest human being around when I'm at home
4) I spent most of my time at home in my room in front of the comp
5) I've been getting weird dreams recently
6) I sleep when I have nothing better to do
7) I've been wanting to know whether I snore while sleeping

7 Things That Scare ME
1) God
2) People shouting at me
3) Being alone
4) My parents missing
5) Losing my love ones
6) Trap in the lift (alone!)
7) Those staring eyes of the BANGLAS (Argh!)

7 Random Music At the Moment
1) Unfaithful by Rihanna
2) I do (cherish you) by 98 Degrees
3) Buttons by Pussycat Dolls
4) Fix You by Coldplay
5) Beep Remix by DJ Foxmind feat PCD
6) 1985 by Bowling for Soup
7) Hips dont lie by Shakira

7 Things I Like Most
1) Reading horror books at night while snuggling under my blanket
2) Listening to music
3) Sleeping (Best remedy when you are feeling blue)
4) Chocolates
5) Shopping (or window shopping if broke)
6) Laughing
7) Day dreaming

7 Things I Often Say
1) "Huh? What ah?"
2) "Eh (name of the person)!" ( often used when I need a favor :P)
3) "Nonsense ah you"
4) "Wat the hell"
5) "Busuk ah!"
6) "Iyerr"
7) "Apa sajer" (or Wat only)

7 People To Do This
1) Ashikin (if she read my blog)
2) Fazira
3) Nur Ain
4) Faezah
5) Fuad
6) Liyana (if she STILL read my blog la)
7) ermm..Anyone else wanna do this?
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Now let's start the entry proper. Been very hardworking recently.
Doing LOTS of job hunting, housework and reading my all-time favourite horror book.
I love the works by Stephen King. Never fail to fascinate me.
My eyes are constantly glued to every pages of the book and the ending left me in awe.
The langoliers: something or someone who run after lazy people and.. EAT 'em up! Cool!
Next story to look forward to..Secret Window, Secret Garden (familiar?)
Of cos it is familiar..The movie acted by Johnny Depp last year (i think so). That was it. And obviously I failed to catch that one in cinema. So yah!

I envy those who already get a job 'cos they need not have to worry about finance and all. Haiyah! And SOME people apparently don't understand my situation. But heck care ah! I don't need to explain 'cos I'm VERY tired of doing so. It never seem to get into their brain anyway. What's the use right?! Waste my saliva only!

I think I'll stop rambling for now. Be back soon and hope with a job in hand!

21 June 2006

My life resume per normal and I feel oh-so-like a babi.
All I did for the past few days was to eat, sleep and surf net. Of course I slept alot.
I mean ALOT.
Every morning I will wake up late and around 5pm I will take a nap which last almost 2 hrs!!
It has been a routine for me. I'm pretty lazy to do anything else so I decide to just sit down in front of the comp and surf net all day long. Not to forget job hunting. I'm thankful that my job hunting is made easier with a few people helping me out. Suddenly, I'm sure that I will end up doing something that I yearned back in secondary school. ACCOUNTS! It all came back to me now. Like what the hell I'm doing for the past 3 years in Poly?! And all the other whys start to enter my brain. BUT I don't think I should regret anything right now. I think I'll set up my new future goals.
* Study Mandarin at the end of July (sign up already! Whee!)
*Part Time Degree (most prob in accounts)
*Driving License
For the time being these are my goals. I hope I can achieve it within the next 5 years or so. Now since I have new goals in mind, I feel so much better. Being jobless for months cause me to do alot of thinking and setting up new goals for the future. Life is tough but I will not give up.
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I'm pretty excited right now..One more day to go! Really looking forward to Friday :)
Haiz..I can't really do much communication right now. Batt flat!!! Out of all the time it must be today! I have to survive 1 more day without communicating with him. Can't stop thinking about him..
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Whenever you're bored, you ask me to move faster
Whenever you suffer, you ask me to fly
During happy moments, you ask me to stop
When you fall in love, you ask me to last forever...
-Time-

18 June 2006

Finally I have the opportunity to blog about the production. It was one heck of a journey I must say. Now, it's finally over and I'm missing it already.

Dreamscape 3.0 marked the end of my days with Dramatec. During the closing night, I could not believe I actually teared right before the curtain call. I looked at the 3 different group of people that merged into one for this production. The freshies, the juniors and the seniors. It was the moment I will cherish forever.
A month back, I thought this would never happened. It was a struggle I must say and I almost walked away. BUT I stayed. I stayed all the way even I knew I could have left long time ago. I stayed for her, him and myself. After the closing night, I know it was all worth it. To stay on till the end. The satisfaction. The triumph. I feel like a winner! :)

Dramatec is one of the CCA that I will remember for its good moments and also for the wrong reasons. I still remembered how I first landed myself in the CCA and how I started to grow as an actor in it. I started off being a Grandmother and now I even proceeded to take on a challenging role. Lesbian! I'm so glad I pulled it off after so much struggles along the way.
Dramatec not only allow me to grow as an actor but it allows my circle of friends to grow as well.
I got to know people whom I never dreamt of making friends with..

Nadira: All I know I thought she was the unfriendly type and I never spoken to her before until we were paired up in Devdas as the mothers! Too much stereotyping I suppose. Haha! And right after that production we become friends. Good one indeed! What a way to start a friendship. :)

Melvyn: I used to think he was arrogant and I hated him for that! Hehe! But now just look at how we turn out to be! Talk nonsense and all.. Funny I tell you..

Shikin: The scary dark side girl whom I used to fear. She wasnt friendly at all but heck now I can even joke with her. And yes, her fashion disaster moments will always be remembered. haha!

Shahdon: I know this guy long time ago and i must say i'm happy for you that your dream finally come true! Kudos Shah! :)

And then I got to know the juniors..Mastura, Yazid, Fadzley, Mato and Priya.. They are talented bunch of people and I was very impressed after working with them in "The 60's" and "Magus Luna".
I believe you guys can continue shining and remember to always be humble. :)
Oh yah not to forget Iggy..You know what..You should start venturing into acting as well. Don't stick to costume and make up alone. I know you have the potential as well but you are not confident about yourself. I know you can do it Iggy! I really believe you can! And not to worry I will tell you if I'm going anywhere. hehe!

The freshies..Fifi, Fima,Rainbow,Hinaa (my personal make-up artist),Eel, Aliyaah, Hidayah..Err..Do I miss anyone? Aiyah, basically to all the freshies who were involved in the production. First impression back at AGM, you guys were the loudest bunch of human beings around! Gosh! Hehe! I was irritated by that and I thought I will dislike you guys BUT after those few days with you guys..I changed my opinion about all of you! You guys are simply the best freshies! Thanks for the make-up and hairdo. You all make me so nice for those 2 nights! Love you guys!! :)
Hope you guys will remember me..And take care.

Dreamscape 3.0 play.stop.rewind will always be a wonderful and magical dream for me.

Gonna miss everything about it.
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Gosh..Now I hate when I have nothing to do.
Nothing to look forward to.
Nothing to rush for.
Nothing to be stressed about.
I begin to think of him alot.
Anything and almost everything can make me think of him.
Haiz..
4 more days and counting down.

11 June 2006

I decided to drop another entry here.
It's more like movie review and my ratings for each. Since this June there are countless of good movies to watch I shall narrow your options a little (or is it too late now? hehe).
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-Over the Hedge-
Relive your childhood days by watching this super humorous cartoon in the cinema. Accompanied by adorable characters it will sure make your day when you are feeling down or sad. Perfect monday blues movie too! You need not have to be a kid to enjoy this one.
It teaches alot about friendship as well :)
My rating: 4.5/5
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-The Da Vinci Code-
At first the book seemed unappealing to me. I remembered a year back, I was forced to read the book which I apparently ended up reading the 1st few pages of it. However when the movie was released, I was interested to watch it. Curious how the ending will be like and all.
Plus the good leads made it even a must watch for me. After watching, it was the most satisfying, money-worthy movie I ever seen. The long duration is not the issue. So if you still have yet to watch it, do it now!
My rating:5/5
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Alright that's it for my movie review. An outdated one I must add. I bet 99.9% of the readers here have watched both. Hehe.

Buzzing off. Be back soon.
Good evening my fellow readers and obviously my friends.. It's been a long time since I last blogged. I have been up to almost the same thing again and again lately. What else can it be rite? Drama. It's been so much like my 2nd Love or is it my 3rd? Nonetheless it is one of my love. Sigh. Recently, I'm contemplating on one of the biggest decision of my life. It will determine my future. I think I shall drop the subject matter for now. -------------- Dear friends.. You have been the reason I stayed on for long. Because of you I endured those troubled times despite as much I want to pull away from it. I stayed on just for you guys. You are the reason for me to move on. You are the reason for me to smile. You are the reason for me to get agitated or irritated. You are the one I quarrelled with, laughed with and cried in front of. I never can express how much I appreciate you guys being around. You guys are the best part of me. Without you, my life wont be that exciting afterall. You may not be the best but what you have been to me is simply beyond my imagination. I might have neglected some of you guys along the way but I assure you, you will always be part of my life. If one day I am gone and fail to say goodbye..Remember that I cherish each and everyone of you in different ways. After awhile, we might walk our separate paths but I hope we can keep in touch for as long as we can. I look forward to meeting you guys in the future. I will end it here..The rest will remain unspoken and unwritten. ----------------- I never feel this excited about a phonecall before until tonight. The thought of listening to the familiar voice once again after so long make me smile so widely. Really look forward to it. ------------------

24 May 2006

Time check: 720am.
I cant seem to put myself to sleep. Currently, in a paranoia state. It seems so hard for me to push it aside. I'm worried. Eversince yesterday.
I had a dream. A nightmare to be specific. About it. My life have become DREAMSCAPE 3.1 now! Oh great. In the zone already.
Okay, see how I am now?! I cant stop worrying. In fact, there is a mix of nervousness accompanying that feeling. On normal occassion, after a dream I cant recall it or just have a vague image of it BUT not this time. The same exact dream keep playing and playing all over again in my mind like a spoiled video recorder. I should not over-react I suppose.Well oh well, easier said than done. Sigh.
My negligence lead me to this and it's not practically the perfect time to drop your HP in the taxi. Fortunately for me, my HP is not totally missing but it is just not with me in times when I really need it. I feel like a fish out of the water!
I swear I'm going to learn my lesson after the incident. After the night I did 200m sprint back home I'm going shopping for the HP string.
All I need now is sleep which for some weird reason I cant put myself into and something to calm me down. Or maybe something to do to kill the time.
Let the clock ticks faster please!
The feeling is not disappearing so soon and I think it just grow even stronger now. That panic attack mode. Damn.
Should have known from the start this is going to happen.
Should have known prepared for it. My mistake.
Just too busy for my own good.
Too many things going through my head till I misses out some important facts of life.

Frequent squabbles..Err..Maybe imperfection is the first step to a life-long journey. I hope.

22 May 2006

Finally it's over!
Good job to all my co-actors and a new experience for me.
The first time involved in such an event.
New friendships are forge and learnt a couple of things more.
However, I did just ok in yesterday performance and unbelievable I had a mental block while delivering 1 chunck of lines. Damn.
Luckily, I managed to cover up and the rest of the scenes went smoothly. Phew!
Oh did I mentioned how i love the Dikir Barat group?
They are friendly bunch!
During the rehearsal b4 the actual performance, they watched us. They made us laughed on stage.
Lastly, I love my eye makeup thanks to one of my co-actors and thanks Hidayah for your costume rental service. Hehe!

20 May 2006

I'm all alone now. Weird.
After all those mad rush for the whole entire week I'm down with almost nothing to do.
After tomorrow things gonna pace down very much (I hope).
I've not been getting sufficient sleep and rest and to top it all been doing lots of thinking as well.
Emotional rollercoaster this week and I'm totally drained.
Beginning of the week I was feeling like on top of the world and as the days passed the feeling deteriorated.
Broke down couple of time. Haiz..
Stupid stupid. Should not have done that.
Anyway, now it's better now since I'm being assured (not insured).

Apart from being emotionally drained, I experienced something fulfilling this week.
Opportunities just awaits me right in front of my door steps.
Received 2 calls which changed my fortune.
The golden opportunity. Make me smile and cry at the same time.
And oh yes, it makes me think. Think real hard.
And perhaps I find the answer..(I think so)

After all these, going to get down to real business. No more fun. Just plain serious adult life.

17 May 2006

Will wonder ever cease?
3 Male teaching a female dance moves.. hmm..*ponders*

Oh yah..Guess what? I discovered something today..Interesting to me but perhaps not to you guys. But oh well let me just share it anyway.
Do you know how the name "techno" even derived from the eating place which sells 1/2 fried spring chicken rice?
It was said that the name was derived long time ago..to be exact 6-7 years ago.
His brother told him that.
The reason why it was called 'techno'..
Simple reason. Cos that place always play techno music.
What a way to name an eating place. So predictable lah!
But nonetheless the name still stuck in our head till today.
Originally stupid but it created an impact though. Haha!

That's all about the history of 'techno' (eating place opposite TP)
Hail techno! Hail techno!

16 May 2006

I dont want to be like THEM!! *cries*
Don't want!! Argh!!
See see..You happy right I blog about gaining weight? Sheesh.
This someone keep saying that I'm going to turn like those Mak ciks walking back from the market in near future!
In other words, growing horizontally and wider! Argh!
You evil you evil you evil! *continue chanting*
I'll make sure I go to the gym every week ah i tell you.
I don't want to turn into a humpty dumpty in the near future.
I don't care I don't want to.
Gosh traumatising just thinking of it. I think i better stop thinking of it and start talking of something else.

My friend advise me not to rush things and I think she's right.
I will not rush things and stay happy for now.
At least I'm doing something I love.
Anyway, I'm feeling way better now. I mean I was sick on the weekend and now I definitely have recovered. Get back to real business. Memorising script. Scripts I mean. I'm so worried I'm gonna mix up my lines.
God I'm so stress now. *starts flipping the scripts*
I'm so stress I think I feel like shitting.
2 productions. 1 in 4 days and another in less than a month. Yikes!
Err..I think I need to shit now. See you guys another time.

01 May 2006

Update again from me! Let me see where should I begin? Hmmm..
Currently, still selling anggur (grapes) or the direct term for it..UNEMPLOYED.
However, I did manage to earn some cash..Not thru' any illegal ways mind you but through an easy but patience-testing way.
Wat exactly I mean by that?
Well..was working at the Singapore Expo from 25th-28th April at the Secretariat doing some quite an easy job but the person in-charge didnt make it quite easy definitely.
Imagine at one point of time I felt like strangling her or hanging her on a tree. Yerp she can be dat annoying I tell you. Fussy and always..I mean ALWAYS making me do unnecessary things. Especially photocopying so many copies of papers which she thought could beautify the walls of the office.
The purpose: to make those as wall papers. How nice!
Lucky for me..I was working with superb colleagues.
That made the whole thing fun and funny as well.

You know i decided to do some Singapore Discovery..Searching for places of interest all over Singapore. Since I'm juz plain tired of Orchard, Bugis, PS and Esplanade..I decided to turn into mother nature. But it was thrilling. Haha!
Definitely refreshing..Ahh..RI...CO..LA..!!! :D

Let move on to Anugerah Skrin.
It was my 1st time watching it after I missed the previous episode..
My comment: Rafaat Hamzah was kinda weird with the judging. Perhaps he was being sarcastic today after it was said he was being Simon Cowell previously. I think he should not have bothered about those comments as long as he believe that by saying what he said he is being frank and keep the contestants aware of their weaknesses. But apparently he took things quite badly and decided to limit his comments. He commented things like " Ok", "I enjoy myself" and "they are funny". Kinda vague I must say but thankfully there's Najib Ali who give constructive feedback and all.
About the talents..They are fluent but some seem to be scripted. They way they speak like so not natural. Hmm..

Last of all, today helped out around the house ALOT. Since my mom decided to make a mini celebration for her belated wedding anniversary..so i had to help in the kitchen. But it was worth it especially when the food turned out superb. Yummylicious. :D
A full stomach equates to a Happy Me!

21 April 2006

One month passed and finally the reunion. Haha! Met 3 of my closest poly friends on wednesday. Fazira, Kyrul and Ann. It was nice meeting them all over again especially with so much laughter. Despite the short outing, it was enough to bring back the old times we hanged out together. Our destination of the day was Seoul Garden. Thanks to Fazira who treated me as it was kinda obvious I'm broke! So sweet of her. Oh well she has always been sweet to start with. :)
Okay my first time there or in fact everybody's first time there. At first, was quite clueless about the whole thing but ended up being quite pro.
I could not recall the amount of food I gorged into my mouth but all I know after 3 hours there I find it hard to move or even laugh. Haha!
We talked and talked and of course not to forget photo-taking as well.
I discovered I looked FAT in the pictures!! Gosh!
We wrapped up the whole outing with our plan to meet at the FHA in expo next wed. Formal attire wont destroy our plan to go out ya! Hehe!

Yesterday, had MSN convo with MR too good to be true and had a glimpse of his life. Not bad. There's an interesting update about him though. He recently acted in Ch5 new comedy (Maggie and Me with Fiona Xie), Ch8 tv series and 1 of Jack Neo's Movie. Impressive but well with no script of course. Nonetheless the experience is definitely a good one. Well did not chat with him much since I'm chatting with ehem ehem in the next window. You know my common sense just tell me not to have a long elaborate conversation with Mr too good to be true. So ended the convo quite fast. That was the past afterall. No point you know having more connection with him after that. I guess it's enough to stay mutual. Separate life and everybody is happy. Most importantly, I'm happy or better beyond that. :)

Reflect back..Been quite a long journey I've go thru' so far and a longer journey ahead. Will definitely continue to stay true to myself.

19 April 2006

What an inspiring day today is..Despite the weather being oh so bad, surprisingly it doesnt affect my mood though. Perhaps some people might just wanna sleep all day long *stares* and blame the weather for making them sleepyhead. Tsk tsk tsk! Terrible. But oh well I started the day early..and went for an interview. Not bad. I see hope there. Being very determined to stay strong. 2 days of waiting and hope there's positive result at the end of it.
Yesterday, I cant sleep that well and I wonder why. It's like I was closing my eyes but still awake. Weird.

Yesterday was the sweetest day perhaps even with the drizzling. It didnt destroy the day. :)
It's gone too far..way too far. I hope it last!

17 April 2006

It's getting oh so frustrating!! When..When will the time come??
I need miracle fast..Faster than ever. I hate it when people keep saying to me I'll get it..But when? When is it exactly? I don't want any wishes anymore! I just want LUCK. It's all about LUCK now. I'm getting agitated at the fact I still don't get it. I hate this ah! Am I going to go on like this for months? Or worse still years! I wont let that happen!! I better remind myself not to get demoralise or discourage over the fact that I still am unsuccessful. Gosh look what I'm doing to my life right now? A complete utter MESS! I'm aimless clueless and worse JOBLESS! I need to pull myself together and go full force this time round. Haiz..Isnt that what I've been reminding myself every single day..every single morning when I wake up I just hope and keep hoping to receive a call. Call for some bloody miracle. But NO..It have not happen as yet!
*start pulling hair out of frustration*
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
In case you have not notice, I've been blogging frequently nowadays.
The reason being..I'm just too free!
Boredom drives people to do unbelievable things.
For example, surfing the net in search of some love poetry OR going to ChannelnewsAsia website to read the NEWS!!
I've started to pick up that habit only recently and I find it quite interesting especially reading the stuffs written under the Health News.
I learnt more about Parkinson's Disease and Alzheimer's Disease and not to forget effect of Green Tea to combat Alzheimer's Disease. Cool shit!
Oh gosh I've turn geeky but never mind..Improve my health knowledge.
Alrite readers..Will be up with more entries in days to come.

16 April 2006

Raining!! Again it's raining. Perfect weather to fall asleep. Whee! I feel so lazy eversince I dont know when. I wonder what's gotten into me. Am I sick? I think I am. Haha! It's only a few months and I'm like this. What can I say..Must be someone have cast an evil spell on me..hmm..*wonders*

Today had to wake up quite early..in fact very early indeed to follow my mom for morning walk. Brisk walking to be exact. It was organized by Eunos CC and my mom conveniently signed my name up and told me only a week before the event. How nice.Haha. So being a*ahem* good *ahem* daughter I am I followed her to the event. I was given an oversized T-shirt to wear for the day but oh well I didnt quite bother about it 'cos it was quite comfortable actually. And now come to the most interesting part of the event..The Brisk walking started and guess what..the distance was so short that I did not even produce a single beads of sweat. Talk about trying to burn some extra calories..I dont think I lose any!

After the whole brisk walking thingy, we proceeded to the market to observe the opening of the new market by BG George Yeo and the MPs of Eunos CC. I am such a good resident I tell you. An act to follow. Hehe! Whatever ah eh.

Aniwae, there's a night market around my area and I'm sooo loving it. I always look forward to night market. Kinda fun actually especially the food! *grins*
My mom and I never miss the opportunity to check out what's in store for us at the night market. Food such as Otak-otak will always win our hearts. So there we go again..checking out the night market and I'm seriously amused at how many friends my mom have. Imagine from one end of the night market to another end we had to stop countless of times so that my mom could have a small talk with her friends!! Amazing..My mom is extremely friendly beyond words. Hah!

Not bad at least today I have something to blog about rather than trying to crack my brain to come out with an entry not worth blogging about. Well well I have been writing my usual malay stuffs again. I seriously need quite abit of polishing up. I'm just too free I tell you. I need my job fast or my parents wont let me go off that easy..Argh!! *meditate*

15 April 2006

I'm still in disbelief.
In disbelief about the things I did..and how sensitive I can possibly be.
Especially over some things people said.
Talking about stupidity! Haiz..

Things get a 'lil spicy after me being the itchy mouth started talking about perfect.
The ups and downs..
The tears and laughter..
And not to forget Anger!

Frankness can be a hazard some time but oh well at least it's better. Rather than hiding things and creating MORE problems..

"Things just change the day I meet you..Perhaps for the better"

Truthfully, I'm running out of things to blog here. Hmm..What can I say, not much have been happening and I'm still worried sick about my unemployment and finance.
Sorry you have to endure this super uninteresting entry of mine and oh well come to think of it since when is my blog entry interesting in the 1st place. Hmm..Haha!

Oh! I've decided to amuse myself with some malay songs!!! *faints*

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06 April 2006

Jinx!
Shit..I was just speaking about perfect..
and the next thing you know..
Heated Arguement!
Argh~!
I should have not touch on the topic of being too perfect.
But anyway, it all went back to normal after that.
I'm so glad it didnt drag on further.

I'm back to the gym! Healthy lifestyle all over again. Whee!

03 April 2006

I end up finding things to do to pass the time. Haiz.
Doing alot of cleaning up at home. Even down to cleaning the refrigerator.
Things I normally do to kill time.
I read a couple of books and magazines as well.
I'm still waiting for more call-up. I'm bored at home especially with no cash!
Now, I'm worried what's happening. No reply from him. It's 12:30pm and I bet he's awake by now. *smack self* I'm just worried for nothing I guess but I'm still waiting for the reply. Please reply....

I'm off to tidy up my room then. Cya!

Bored!!!!!

31 March 2006

It's already 11:05am in the morning..Oh no!! I'm about to determine my own fate in just about a few hours time. My oh my..This is scary and nerve-recking to be exact. *pray hard*

Anyway, to a particular someone..Cheer up ok! Smile and don't let it get the better of you which apparently it already did.
And always remember I'm here and you can always consult me. :)

Oh yah..I discovered something interesting while looking thru' Nad's Blog. And guess wat..Her mom and my mom share the same birthday. Yes..Wednesday, 29th March!! So cool isnt it? Haha! I just realised it after 3 years of friendship.

oh shoot it's 12:03pm already..Better get going. Bye! Wish me luck ya!

26 March 2006

Somehow I don't feel that today is Sunday. It feels more like a weekday or to be more specific it feels like Friday. Don't ask me why I feel it's like that particular day and not any other days 'cos I don't know why either.
For past few days I can't stop thinking about it.
It just keep haunting me day and night.
The reason why I'm down OR super weird at times.
I just don't know why but I'm really lost now.
Lost a part of my confidence to achieve my particular dream.
I know he constantly keep assuring me that everything is going to be fine and that dream isnt the only thing in life.
I agree with him and would like to thank him for the assurance.
But somehow I'm still feeling down about it.
I know it's not everything if i cant fulfill that dream but..
You see what I mean..There's always BUT in my sentences.
Perhaps I want it so bad that it's affecting me too much.
Even right down to my self-esteem. Sigh.
I should have known better than to put high hopes on that dream of mine.
I should have known it way better that it's near to impossible to achieve it.
Yet I still continuosly hoping for it to come true.
Hopelessly waiting for the day that dream will be fulfilled.
I can't seem to wake up from it and admit defeat.
I can't possibly dump that dream aside and continue the rest of my life knowing that I don't make the effort to do something about it. That'll make me a total failure.
You know, secretly I envy him(you know who you are) for being so fortunate.
Getting all the support from the loved ones. I just yearn for such miracles to happen to me.
I wonder when will that be?
-----------------------------------
I'm seriously in need of a job.
Like I'm too free right now that I decided to blog a long entry.
To kill time.
That's what I normally do in the past 1 month!
No income, waste money!
Something I do best recently.
I'm feeling more impatient since I know my friends have started to work and earn reasonable amount of cash for themselves.
And me? What am I doing with my life?
Apart from Drama, I don't achieve anything much!
I can't go on like this for the next 2 months or so before I really obtain my Diploma, can I?
Some have secure permanent jobs. Lucky ones. Sigh.
There's something wrong with my resumes or cover letters that I'm not employed till now? Argh!!
Frustrating.
Can't afford to have too much fun now since mom has started to repeatedly asked me about my job applications.
How am I suppose to explain myself?
Now I know the difficulty unemployed people go thru' to find a decent job for themselves.
Guess have to work extra hard to impress the employer huh?
Alright, my time is up and I can't go on complaining about how difficult it is to get a job. So I better get going and be more proactive in search for a job.
The quest will be continued...

23 March 2006

Convo with Mum while walking to the shop
Mak: Kau tau ada tak pegi rumah cik jah dengan mak cik kau biler hari raya tahun lepas?
Me: Err..A'ah.
Mak: Tadi makcik kau ceritakan aku..Cik Jah tu punya sedara berkenan kat kau..Nak jodohkan kau ngan anak dier yang baru abis universiti.
Me: *dumbfounded but in my heart almost burst out laughing*
Mak: Aku ketawa biler mak cik kau ceritakan aku pasal tu. Abeh mak cik kau cakap anak sedara saya masih nak belajar lagi. HAHAHA!

You know what it means when someone wants to jodohkan a girl and a guy?
Well, it spells MATCHMAKING!!!
Argh!! It will be a total nightmare I tell you.
Alrite, for the sake of some non-malays out there I'll summarize my conversation with my mum in English.
Apparently, during last year Hari Raya's Visit to one of my aunties house, a visitor (Mak cik X) was interested to get his son married to me (Like out of all people..Why me?). The story was told by my aunt to my mum who almost died due to laughing so much. Haha! Thank goodness my aunt came to the rescue by telling Mak Cik X that I'm still furthering my studies and not ready for marriage. I love you aunt!
Phew~! That was a close encounter with arranged marriage which I am so against.
Yesterday I was happily laughing my ass off about him being matchmake or so with a girl and today I got this kind of story from my mom. How coincidental?

I think I should stop that there.
Traumatizing!

20 March 2006

The theme of the year..Colourful!!
Decided to give my blog a new look and since I'm avoiding black for the time being..
I chose this template.
Haha!
I find it cute and well.. Colourful!!
It brightens up my blog so it wont look so depressing afterall..
I had a great time with THEM.
How nice if I have lots of money to spent on..
I want to buy alot of things..
New pair of jeans, shoes and a new handphone?
*sidetrack*
The story of Goldilocks and the Three Bear!
How interesting!
I found a fairytale that I can associate with..
Maybe the next time I'll blog about the story.
So much for wasting my time over non productive activities..
Ok..I'm so Hanyut!
Anyway, I've been conversing using A-Z format for the past 2 days..
Haha!
It's Fun since I get to stimulate my brain to at least think.
That's just what I need : )
Brain stimulation.

18 March 2006

Finally.. Like finally I get back my internet connection.
It's been 3 torturous months without internet access and it's difficult life without internet.
Oh well, I forget to thank you guys who came down to support us in Tainted Flower.
Thanks to Mas and Shah for the Flowers & Fadz for the drawing..
I have yet to blog about the production in details but heck it have been weeks after the production.
As usual, like every other productions the casts and crew eventually get closer and more comfortable with each other..
We even hang out together at times which reminds me of those old times in Dramatec.
I even forge new friendships in Yellow Chair and apparently I get closer to Sue and Ella.
They are nice people and I can really talk to them..Now my circle of friends has expanded.
How nice! Hehe!
Oh yah..One more interesting thing I discovered after Tainted Flower is how everybody is connected in different ways.
Muzill was shaiful's and my primary sch friend who now is the BF of Dhaniah's lil sis who was my ELDDS junior who is now Sue's junior.
Then, there's Din who was Faizal's classmate in JC and Fazli who is Syima's and Faizal's fren who was my counsellor junior back in secondary school.
You see how all of us are connected?! Strange but true! Haha!

Next, the progress in Yellow Chair..It's nice to see the spirit of the members..Very optimistic yet realistic about the whole club. I'm proud to be in the club eventhough I did very minimal contribution so far. Shaiful, if you are reading this thanks for the opportunity and approaching me to join the club in the first place. You rock ah! Hehe! It's amazing how we was never close before can still keep in contact till now. Unlike some individual.

I'm still in search of job for now and I envy those who already get a job and have the money to spent. I'm so jealous. I need the money sey! Shit ah!
Since now I'm back to the virtual world I'll be more actively sending out my resumes and cover letters to companies and hopefully I can start to write Cerpen again.

Anyway, I shall end this now..Will continue it some other day. Cya!

27 February 2006

*sing* It's boring..it's boring..My life is getting boring!!!*stop singing*
I'm in school rite now and it feels like a ghost town. So empty!
I'm just plain bored so i decided to update my blog.
Oh yah before i start off with my entry i shall do last minute publicity for Tainted Flower.
Check out the poster at:
http://photos1.blogger.com/hello/52/4229/640/FINAL%20POSTER.jpg

Those who have yet to collect your tickets from me, you can do so.
Those who have yet to purchase the ticket, i can book for you and you can collect it at the front door on the actual day itself.

Okay i will end it here.

Next, what have been happening lately?
Hahaha! Rehearsals and something else i did which was a shock to me.
I didnt know what I got myself into but that experience is priceless and funny!
So i'm officially unemployed and broke.
A bad combination. Haiz..
I'm missing someone badly but have yet to meet this person.
My presentation at CGH went pretty well and I hope I can get a job soon (around april or so..)

Oh gosh I don't know what else to say despite the fact I have alot to say..
Haiz guess my brain is not functioning as per normal.
Siva suggested I read books and I think I'm going to borrow some since i'm in the library.
Thanks for the suggestion ya.

I think i better get going and borrow the books!! Bye!

23 February 2006

It's over? Oh no..It is..
I cant even register that fact into my head.
We are BACK!
Together..Whee!
And we so going to start it with a bang.
New ideas! I'm so loving it! And yes we have to start somewhere.
So we starting from (R21)!
Whee!
And I have a whole list of things for this week and next week.
After everything is done..Job Hunt!
I need to start writing resumes and cover letters now.
Wah stress ah!
Working adults! Scary!
Aniwae, i don't have anything else to talk about. Update some other times!
Cya!

21 February 2006

Wokay..It's me again!! Ermm..Actually nothing much to update now..
But since I'm in school might as well make full use of it. I'm taking a short break from studying.
Believe it or not..I studied from 12pm-8pm yesterday(20th Feb). Freaky huh?
Now my brain is super saturated with facts..
I even go to the extend of reciting the information before going to bed lah! How bad can it get?
Liver disease..Renal failure..Diabetes..GI tract disorders!!! Argh!!
Ok I just like to say that I'm glad..Really glad it is finally normal again..
Yes, Bestfriends Forever!
I know I have been mean and bitchy to you but I do hope I'm forgiven.
You know..this incident really make me treasure this friendship more..
Sorry once again ya!

I shall get back to studying or else I can't sleep tonight..
After 22nd Feb..It will be fun..Fun..FUN!! Whee!

17 February 2006

Wah..how long have it been? 1 month plus?
It's been so long since I last updated my blog and I almost forgotten my password. How dumb!
I've not been updating my blog due to certain unavoidable circumstances.
Ok now I'm squeezing in some of my free time to update my beloved readers about some highlights within the 1 month of my disappearance. Haha!
Time is passing by so fast..and errmm..it left me a week before I graduate from TP. Very scary.

It is amazing how life can change in a split second and it is even more amazing how people can change so much without they even realizing it!
Oh well now life have been pretty nice to me..Guess it is finally back to normal..Eh wait.. ALMOST back to normal.
I know it will never be the same again but what can I say..Something just happened and it happened for a reason. Some hidden reason which will be unveiled when you least expected it.

Ok wanna get an update about my boring academic life? Well, yesterday(16th February) was the end of the hell period. Major Project is FINALLY over. Hurray!! And I must say we did quite well for the presentation (surprisingly..) On the other hand, I still have a killer paper to study for. Nutrition in Disease!!

Apart from academic, something beautiful happened to me and I shall not further elaborate on it.

Oh yah..Dear friends..My sincere apologies for "drifting away" from you guys..Haha! I've been busy with alot of things..
*pause*
Let me divert your attention by doing some publicity here..
Do come and give your support.. Yellow Chair Production is presenting a drama production entitled "TAINTED FLOWER" at Tampines East CC on 3rd March. Tickets are selling at $6 each. If you are interested, you can place your booking through me. Thanks!
*resume*
Ok yah to my friends..Don't worry..I'll catch up with you guys after the exam ya.

Next, DRAMATEC. I heard there have been quite a DRAMA in DRAMATEC. Haha! I know i missed all that but doesnt mean I'm totally ignorant about it. I have my sources. ;) Love is in the air huh?

Ok lah guys..I think it's enough for the time being. I'll try my best to update my blog as often as possible..even if it's not daily. I know you guys miss me. Haha!

And one more thing..I'm doing well and still crazy as ever!! WOhoo!!

06 January 2006

January is the beginning of my downfall.
The end of my optimistic self.
Everything I do just sucks!!!
I've never been this negative before!
Not even through out my entire 19 years of my life.
I never think of ending my life.
Not until TODAY.